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socket； there was the chair in the same place where Adam
remembered sitting； there was the waste…paper basket full of
scraps； and deep down in it； Arthur felt in an instant； there was
the little pink silk handkerchief。 It would have been painful to
enter this place if their previous thoughts had been less painful。
They sat down opposite each other in the old places； and Arthur
said； “I’m going away； Adam； I’m going into the army。”
Poor Arthur felt that Adam ought to be affected by this
announcement—ought to have a movement of sympathy towards
him。 But Adam’s lips remained firmly closed； and the expression
of his face unchanged。
“What I want to say to you；” Arthur continued； “is this： one of
my reasons for going away is that no one else may leave
Hayslope—may leave their home on my account。 I would do
anything； there is no sacrifice I would not make； to prevent any
further injury to others through my—through what has
happened。”
Arthur’s words had precisely the opposite effect to that he had
anticipated。 Adam thought he perceived in them that notion of
compensation for irretrievable wrong； that self…soothing attempt
to make evil bear the same fruits as good； which most of all roused
his indignation。 He was as strongly impelled to look painful facts
right in the face as Arthur was to turn away his eyes from them。
Moreover； he had the wakeful suspicious pride of a poor man in
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the presence of a rich man。 He felt his old severity returning as he
said； “The time’s past for that； sir。 A man should make sacrifices to
keep clear of doing a wrong； sacrifices won’t undo it when it’s
done。 When people’s feelings have got a deadly wound； they can’t
be cured with favours。”
“Favours！” said Arthur； passionately； “no； how can you suppose
I meant that？ But the Poysers—Mr。 Irwine tells me the Poysers
mean to leave the place where they have lived so many years—for
generations。 Don’t you see； as Mr。 Irwine does； that if they could
be persuaded to overcome the feeling that drives them away； it
would be much better for them in the end to remain on the old
spot； among the friends and neighbours who know them？”
“That’s true；” said Adam coldly。 “But then； sir； folks’s feelings
are not so easily overcome。 It’ll be hard for Martin Poyser to go to
a strange place； among strange faces； when he’s been bred up on
the Hall Farm； and his father before him； but then it ’ud be harder
for a man with his feelings to stay。 I don’t see how the thing’s to be
made any other than hard。 There’s a sort o’ damage； sir； that can’t
be made up for。”
Arthur was silent some moments。 In spite of other feelings
dominant in him this evening； his pride winced under Adam’s
mode of treating him。 Wasn’t he himself suffering？ Was not he too
obliged to renounce his most cherished hopes？ It was now as it
had been eight months ago—Adam was forcing Arthur to feel
more intensely the irrevocableness of his own wrong…doing。 He
was presenting the sort of resistance that was the most irritating to
Arthur’s eager ardent nature。 But his anger was subdued by the
same influence that had subdued Adam’s when they first
confronted each other—by the marks of suffering in a long
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familiar face。 The momentary struggle ended in the feeling that he
could bear a great deal from Adam； to whom he had been the
occasion of bearing so much； but there was a touch of pleading；
boyish vexation in his tone as he said； “But people may make
injuries worse by unreasonable conduct—by giving way to anger
and satisfying that for the moment； instead of thinking what will
be the effect in the future。
“If I were going to stay here and act as landlord；” he added
presently； with still more eagerness—“if I were careless about
what I’ve done—what I’ve been the cause of； you would have some
excuse； Adam； for going away and encouraging others to go。 You
would have some excuse then for trying to make the evil worse。
But when I tell you I’m going away for years—when you know
what that means for me； how it cuts off every plan of happiness
I’ve ever formed—it is impossible for a sensible man like you to
believe that there is any real ground for the Poysers refusing to
remain。 I know their feeling about disgrace—Mr。 Irwine has told
me all； but he is of opinion that they might be persuaded out of
this idea that they are disgraced in the eyes of their neighbours；
and that they can’t remain on my estate； if you would join him in
his efforts—if you would stay yourself and go on managing the old
woods。”
Arthur paused a moment and then added； pleadingly； “You
know that’s a good work to do for the sake of other people； besides
the owner。 And you don’t know but that they may have a better
owner soon； whom you will like to work for。 If I die； my cousin
Tradgett will have the estate and take my name。 He is a good
fellow。”
Adam could not help being moved： it was impossible for him
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not to feel that this was the voice of the honest warm…hearted
Arthur whom he had loved and been proud of in old days； but
nearer memories would not be thrust away。 He was silent； yet
Arthur saw an answer in his face that induced him to go on； with
growing earnestness。
“And then； if you would talk to the Poysers—if you would talk
the matter over with Mr。 Irwine—he means to see you to…
morrow—and then if you would join your arguments to his to
prevail on them not to go 。 。 。 I know； of course； that they would not
accept any favour from me—I mean nothing of that kind—but I’m
sure they would suffer less in the end。 Irwine thinks so too。 And
Mr。 Irwine is to have the chief authority on the estate—he has
consented to undertake that。 They will really be under no man but
one whom they respect and like。 It would be the same with you；
Adam； and it could be nothing but a desire to give me worse pain
that could incline you to go。”
Arthur was silent again for a little while； and then said； with
some agitation in his voice； “I wouldn’t act so towards you； I know。
If you were in my place and I in yours； I should try to help you to
do the best。”
Adam made a hasty movement on his chair and looked on the
ground。 Arthur went on； “Perhaps you’ve never done anything
you’ve had bitterly to repent of in your life； Adam； if you had； you
would be more generous。 You would know then that it’s worse for
me than for you。”
Arthur rose from his seat with the last words； and went to one
of the windows； looking out and turning his back on Adam； as he
continued； passionately；
“Haven’t I loved her too？ Didn’t I see her yesterday？ Shan’t I
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carry the thought of her about with me as much as you will？ And
don’t you think you would suffer more if you’d been in fault？”
There was silence for several minutes； for the struggle
