hemingway, ernest - garden of eden-第5节

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〃I'm　not　plenty　of　people　and　you're　not　my　damned　husband。　Please　let's　not　fight。〃

〃We　won't。　You　read　them　and　if　there's　anything　good　you　tell　me　and　if　they　say　anything　about　the　book　that's　intelligent　that　we　don't　know　you　tell　me。　The　book's　made　some　money　already；〃　he　told　her。

〃That's　wonderful。　I'm　so　glad。　But　we　know　it's　good。　If　the　reviews　had　said　it　was　worthless　and　it　never　made　a　cent　I　would　have　been　just　as　proud　and　just　as　happy。〃

I　wouldn't；　the　young　man　thought。　But　he　did　not　say　it。　He　went　on　reading　the　reviews；　unfolding　them　and　folding　them　up　again　and　putting　them　back　in　the　envelope。　The　girl　sat　opening　envelopes　and　reading　her　letters　without　interest。　Then　she　looked　out　of　the　cafe　at　the　sea。　Her　face　was　a　dark　gold　brown　and　she　had　brushed　her　hair　straight　back　from　her　forehead　the　way　the　sea　had　pulled　it　when　she　had　come　out　of　the　water　and　where　it　was　cropped　close　and　on　her　cheeks　the　sun　had　burned　it　to　white　gold　against　the　brown　of　her　skin。　She　looked　out　at　the　sea　and　her　eyes　were　very　sad。　Then　she　went　back　to　opening　letters。　There　was　one　long　typewritten　one　that　she　read　with　concentration。　Then　she　went　on　opening　and　reading　the　other　letters。　The　young　man　looked　at　her　and　thought　she　looked　a　little　as　though　she　were　shelling　peas。

〃What　was　in　the　letters？〃　the　young　man　asked。

〃There　were　checks　in　some。〃

〃Big　ones？〃

〃Two。〃

〃That's　fine；〃　he　said。

〃Don't　go　away　like　that。　You　always　said　it　never　made　any　difference。〃

〃Have　I　said　anything？〃

〃No。　You　just　went　away。

〃I'm　sorry；〃　he　said。　〃How　big　are　they？〃

〃Not　much　really。　But　good　for　us。　They've　been　deposited。　It's　because　I'm　married。　I　told　you　it　was　the　best　thing　for　us　to　be　married。　I　know　it　doesn't　mean　anything　as　capital　but　this　is　spendable。　We　can　spend　it　and　it　doesn't　hurt　anybody　and　it's　for　that。　It　doesn't　have　anything　to　do　with　regular　income　nor　what　I　get　if　I　live　to　be　twenty…five　or　if　I　ever　live　to　be　thirty。　This　is　ours　for　anything　we　want　to　do。　Neither　of　us　will　have　to　worry　about　balances　for　a　while。　It's　that　simple。〃

〃The　book　has　paid　back　the　advance　and　made　about　a　thousand　dollars；〃　he　said。

〃Isn't　that　awfully　good　when　it's　only　just　come　out？〃

〃It's　all　right。　Should　we　have　another　one　of　these？〃　he　asked。

〃Let's　drink　something　else。〃

〃How　much　vermouth　did　you　drink？〃

〃Only　the　one。　I　must　say　it　was　dull。〃

〃I　drank　two　and　didn't　even　taste　them。〃

〃What　is　there　that's　real？〃　she　said。

〃Did　you　ever　drink　Armagnac　and　soda？　That's　real　enough。〃

〃Good。　Let's　try　that。〃

The　waiter　brought　the　Armagnac　and　the　young　man　told　him　to　bring　a　cold　bottle　of　Perrier　water　instead　of　the　syphon。　The　waiter　poured　two　large　Armagnacs　and　the　young　man　put　ice　in　the　big　glasses　and　poured　in　the　Perrier。

〃This　will　fix　us；〃　he　said。　〃It's　a　hell　of　a　thing　to　drink　before　lunch　though。〃

The　girl　took　a　long　sip。　〃It's　good；〃　she　said。　〃It　has　a　fresh　clean　healthy　ugly　taste。〃　She　took　another　long　sip。　〃I　can　really　feel　it。　Can　you？〃

〃Yes；〃　he　said　and　took　a　deep　breath。　〃I　can　feel　it。〃

She　drank　from　the　glass　again　and　smiled　and　the　laugh　wrinkles　came　at　the　corner　of　her　eyes。　The　cold　Perrier　had　made　the　heavy　brandy　alive。

〃For　heroes；〃　he　said。

〃I　don't　mind　being　a　hero；〃　she　said。　〃We're　not　like　other　people。　We　don't　have　to　call　each　other　darling　or　my　dear　or　my　love　nor　any　of　that　to　make　a　point。　Darling　and　my　dearest　and　my　very　dearest　and　all　that　are　obscene　to　me　and　we　call　each　other　by　our　Christian　names。　You　know　what　I'm　trying　to　say。　Why　do　we　have　to　do　other　things　like　everyone　does？〃

〃You're　a　very　intelligent　girl。〃

〃All　right　Davie；〃　she　said。　〃Why　do　we　have　to　be　stuffy？　Why　don't　we　keep　on　and　travel　now　when　it　can　never　be　more　fun？　We'll　do　everything　you　want。　If　you'd　been　a　European　with　a　lawyer　my　money　would　have　been　yours　any　way。　It　is　yours。〃

〃The　hell　with　it。〃

〃All　right。　The　hell　with　it。　But　we'll　spend　it　and　I　think　it's　wonderful。　You　can　write　afterwards。　That　way　we　can　have　the　fun　before　I　have　a　baby　for　one　thing。　How　do　I　know　when　I'll　have　a　baby　even？　Now　it's　all　getting　dull　and　dusty　talking　about　it。　Can't　we　just　do　it　and　not　talk　about　it？〃

〃What　if　I　want　to　write？　The　minute　you're　not　going　to　do　something　it　will　probably　make　you　want　to　do　it。〃

〃Then　write；　stupid。　You　didn't　say　you　wouldn't　write。　Nobody　said　anything　about　worrying　if　you　wrote。　Did　they？〃

But　somewhere　something　had　been　said　and　now　he　could　not　remember　it　because　he　had　been　thinking　ahead。

〃If　you　want　to　write　go　ahead　and　I'll　amuse　myself。　I　don't　have　to　leave　you　when　you　write　do　I？〃

〃But　where　would　you　like　us　to　go　now　when　people　begin　to　come　here？〃

〃Anywhere　you　want　to　go。　Will　you　do　it；　David？〃

〃For　how　long？〃

〃For　as　long　as　we　want。　Six　months。　Nine　months。　A　year。〃

〃All　right；〃　he　said。

〃Really？〃
〃Sure。
〃You're　awfully　good。　If　I　didn't　love　you　for　anything　else　I'd　love　you　for　decisions。〃
〃They're　easy　to　make　when　you　haven't　seen　how　too　many　of　them　can　turn　out。〃
He　drank　the　hero　drink　but　it　did　not　taste　so　good　and　he　ordered　a　fresh　bottle　of　cold　Perrier　and　made　a　short　drink　without　ice。
〃Make　me　one　please。　Short　like　yours。　And　then　let's　let　it　start　and　have　lunch。〃


Chapter　Three

THAT　NIGHT　IN　BED　when　they　were　still　awake　she　said　in　the　dark；　〃We　don't　always　have　to　do　the　devil　things　either。　Please　know　that。〃

〃I　know。〃

〃I　love　it　the　way　we　were　before　and　I'm　always　your　girl。　Don't　ever　be　lonely。　You　know　that。　I'm　how　you　want　but　I'm　how　I　want　too　and　it　isn't　as　though　it　wasn't　for　us　both。　You　don't　have　to　talk。　I'm　only　telling　a　story　to　put　you　to　sleep　because　you're　my　good　lovely　husband　and　my　brother　too。　I　love　you　and　when　we　go　to　Africa　I'll　be　your　African　girl　too。〃

〃Are　we　going　to　Africa？〃

〃Aren't　we？　Don't　you　remember？　That　was　what　it　was　about　today。　So　we　could　go　there　or　anywhere。　Isn't　that　where　we're　going？〃

〃Why　didn't　you　say　it？〃

〃I　didn't　want　to　interfere。　I　said　wherever　you　wanted。　I'd　go　anywhere。　But　I　thought　that　was　where　you　wanted。〃

〃It's　too　early　to　go　to　Africa　now。　It's　the　big　rains　and　after　wards　the　grass　is　too　high　and　it's　very　cold。〃
〃We　could　go　to　bed　and　keep　warm　and　hear　the　rain　on　a　tin　roof。〃
〃No；　it's　too　early。　The　roads　turn　to　mud　and　you　can't　get　around　and　everything　is　like　a　swamp　and　the　grass　gets　so　tall　you　cans　t　see。
〃Then　where　should　we　go？〃
〃We　can　go　to　Spain　but　Sevilla　is　over　and　so　is　San　Isidro　in　Madrid　and　it's　early　for　there　too。　It's　too　early　for　the　Basque　coast。　It's　still　cold　and　rainy。　It　rains　everywhere　there　now。〃
〃Isn't　there　a　hot　part　where　we　could　swim　the　way　we　do　here？〃
'You　can't　swim　in　Spain　the　way　we　do　here。　You'd　get　arrested。〃
〃What　a　bore。　Let's　wait　to　go　there　then　because　I　want　us　to　get　darker。〃
〃Why　do　you　want　to　be　so　dark？〃
〃I　don't　know。　Why　do　you　want　anything？　Right　now　it's　the　thing　that　I　want　most。　That　we　don't　have　I　mean。　Doesn't　it　make　you　excited　to　have　me　getting　so　dark？〃
〃Uh…huh。　I　love　it。
〃Did　you　think　I　could　ever　be　this　dark？〃
〃No；　because　you're　blond。〃
〃I　can　because　I'm　lion　color　and　they　can　go　dark。　But　I　want　every　part　of　me　dark　and　it's　getting　that　way　and　you'll　be　darker　than　an　Indian　and　that　takes　us　further　away　from　other　people。　You　see　why　it's　important。〃
〃What　will　we　be？〃
〃I　don't　know。　Maybe　we'll　just　be　us。　Only　changed。　That's　maybe　the　best　thing。　And　we　will　keep　on　won't　we？〃
〃Sure。　We　can　go　over　by　the　Est6rel　and　explore　and　find　another　place　the　way　we　found　this　one。
〃We　can　do　that。　There　are　lots　of　wild　places　and　nobody　is　there　in　the　summer。　We　could　get　a　car　and　then　we　could

go　everywhere。　Spain　too　when　we　want。　Once　we're　really　dark　it　won't　be　hard　to　keep　unless　we　had　to　live　in　towns。　We　don't　want　to　be　in　towns　in　the　summer。

〃How　dark　are　you　going　to　get？〃

〃As　dark　as　I　can。　We'll　have　to　see。　I　wish　I　had　some　Indian　blood。　I'm　going　to　be　so　dark　you　won't　be　able　to　stand　it。　I　can't　wait　to　go　up　on　the　beach　tomorrow。〃

She　went　to　sleep　that　way　with　her　head　back　and　her　chin　up　as　though　she　were　in　the　sun　on　the　beach；　breathing　softly；　and　then　she　curled　toward　him　on　her　side　and　the　young　man　lay　awake　and　thought　about　the　day。　It　is　very　possible　that　I　couldn't　get　started；　he　thought；　and　it　probably　is　sound　to　not　think　about　it　at　all　and　just　enjoy　what　we　have。　When　I　have　to　work　I　will。　Nothing　can　stop　that。　The　last　book　is　good　and　I　must　make　a　better　one　now。　This　nonsense　that　we　do　is　fun　although　I　don't　know　how　much　of　it　is　nonsense　and　how　much　is　serious。　Drinking　brandy　at　noon　is　no　damn　good　and　already　the　simple　aperitifs　mean　nothing。　That　is　not　a　good　sign。　She　changes　from　a　girl　into　a　boy　and　ba｛ck　to　a　girl　care　lessly　and　happily。　She　sleeps　easily　and　beautifully　and　you　will　sleep　too　because　all　you　truly　know　is　that　you　feel　good。　You　did　not　sell　anything　for　the　money；　he　thought。　Everyth