the marriage contract-第6节
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therefore committed himself in his own mind all the more because he
saw no effort on Madame Evangelista's part to bind him。 She fairly
seduced him one evening by remarking that to superior women as well as
men there came a period of life when ambition superseded all the
earlier emotions of life。
〃That woman is fitted;〃 thought Paul; as he left her; 〃to advance me
in diplomacy before I am even made a deputy。〃
If; in all the circumstances of life a man does not turn over and over
both things and ideas in order to examine them thoroughly under their
different aspects before taking action; that man is weak and
incomplete and in danger of fatal failure。 At this moment Paul was an
optimist; he saw everything to advantage; and did not tell himself
than an ambitious mother…in…law might prove a tyrant。 So; every
evening as he left the house; he fancied himself a married man;
allured his mind with its own thought; and slipped on the slippers of
wedlock cheerfully。 In the first place; he had enjoyed his freedom too
long to regret the loss of it; he was tired of a bachelor's life;
which offered him nothing new; he now saw only its annoyances; whereas
if he thought at times of the difficulties of marriage; its pleasures;
in which lay novelty; came far more prominently before his mind。
〃Marriage;〃 he said to himself; 〃is disagreeable for people without
means; but half its troubles disappear before wealth。〃
Every day some favorable consideration swelled the advantages which he
now saw in this particular alliance。
〃No matter to what position I attain; Natalie will always be on the
level of her part;〃 thought he; 〃and that is no small merit in a
woman。 How many of the Empire men I've seen who suffered horribly
through their wives! It is a great condition of happiness not to feel
one's pride or one's vanity wounded by the companion we have chosen。 A
man can never be really unhappy with a well…bred wife; she will never
make him ridiculous; such a woman is certain to be useful to him。
Natalie will receive in her own house admirably。〃
So thinking; he taxed his memory as to the most distinguished women of
the faubourg Saint…Germain; in order to convince himself that Natalie
could; if not eclipse them; at any rate stand among them on a footing
of perfect equality。 All comparisons were to her advantage; for they
rested on his own imagination; which followed his desires。 Paris would
have shown him daily other natures; young girls of other styles of
beauty and charm; and the multiplicity of impressions would have
balanced his mind; whereas in Bordeaux Natalie had no rivals; she was
the solitary flower; moreover; she appeared to him at a moment when
Paul was under the tyranny of an idea to which most men succumb at his
age。
Thus these reasons of propinquity; joined to reasons of self…love and
a real passion which had no means of satisfaction except by marriage;
led Paul on to an irrational love; which he had; however; the good
sense to keep to himself。 He even endeavored to study Mademoiselle
Evangelista as a man should who desires not to compromise his future
life; for the words of his friend de Marsay did sometimes rumble in
his ears like a warning。 But; in the first place; persons accustomed
to luxury have a certain indifference to it which misleads them。 They
despise it; they use it; it is an instrument; and not the object of
their existence。 Paul never imagined; as he observed the habits of
life of the two ladies; that they covered a gulf of ruin。 Then; though
there may exist some general rules to soften the asperities of
marriage; there are none by which they can be accurately foreseen and
evaded。 When trouble arises between two persons who have undertaken to
render life agreeable and easy to each other; it comes from the
contact of continual intimacy; which; of course; does not exist
between young people before they marry; and will never exist so long
as our present social laws and customs prevail in France。 All is more
or less deception between the two young persons about to take each
other for life;an innocent and involuntary deception; it is true。
Each endeavors to appear in a favorable light; both take a tone and
attitude conveying a more favorable idea of their nature than they are
able to maintain in after years。 Real life; like the weather; is made
up of gray and cloudy days alternating with those when the sun shines
and the fields are gay。 Young people; however; exhibit fine weather
and no clouds。 Later they attribute to marriage the evils inherent in
life itself; for there is in man a disposition to lay the blame of his
own misery on the persons and things that surround him。
To discover in the demeanor; or the countenance; or the words; or the
gestures of Mademoiselle Evangelista any indication that revealed the
imperfections of her character; Paul must have possessed not only the
knowledge of Lavater and Gall; but also a science in which there
exists no formula of doctrine;the individual and personal science of
an observer; which; for its perfection; requires an almost universal
knowledge。 Natalie's face; like that of most young girls; was
impenetrable。 The deep; serene peace given by sculptors to the virgin
faces of Justice and Innocence; divinities aloof from all earthly
agitations; is the greatest charm of a young girl; the sign of her
purity。 Nothing; as yet; has stirred her; no shattered passion; no
hope betrayed has clouded the placid expression of that pure face。 Is
that expression assumed? If so; there is no young girl behind it。
Natalie; closely held to the heart of her mother; had received; like
other Spanish women; an education that was solely religious; together
with a few instructions from her mother as to the part in life she was
called upon to play。 Consequently; the calm; untroubled expression of
her face was natural。 And yet it formed a casing in which the woman
was wrapped as the moth in its cocoon。 Nevertheless; any man clever at
handling the scalpel of analysis might have detected in Natalie
certain indications of the difficulties her character would present
when brought into contact with conjugal or social life。 Her beauty;
which was really marvellous; came from extreme regularity of feature
harmonizing with the proportions of the head and the body。 This
species of perfection augurs ill for the mind; and there are few
exceptions to the rule。 All superior nature is found to have certain
slight imperfections of form which become irresistible attractions;
luminous points from which shine vivid sentiments; and on which the
eye rests gladly。 Perfect harmony expresses usually the coldness of a
mixed organization。
Natalie's waist was round;a sign of strength; but also the
infallible indication of a will which becomes obstinacy in persons
whose mind is neither keen nor broad。 Her hands; like those of a Greek
statue; confirmed the predictions of face and figure by revealing an
inclination for illogical domination; of willing for will's sake only。
Her eyebrows met;a sign; according to some observers; which
indicates jealousy。 The jealousy of superior minds becomes emulation
and leads to great things; that of small minds turns to hatred。 The
〃hate and wait〃 of her mother was in her nature; without disguise。 Her
eyes were black apparently; though really brown with orange streaks;
contrasting with her hair; of the ruddy tint so prized by the Romans;
called auburn in England; a color which often appears in the offspring
of persons of jet black hair; like that of Monsieur and Madame
Evangelista。 The whiteness and delicacy of Natalie's complexion gave
to the contrast of color in her eyes and hair an inexpressible charm;
and yet it was a charm that was purely external; for whenever the
lines of a face are lacking in a certain soft roundness; whatever may
be the finish and grace of the details; the beauty therein expressed
is not of the soul。 These roses of deceptive youth will drop their
leaves; and you will be surprised in a few years to see hardness and
dryness where you once admired what seemed to be the beauty of noble
qualities。
Though the outlines of Natalie's face had something august about them;
her chin was slightly 〃empate;〃a painter's expression which will
serve to show the existence of sentiments the violence of which would
only become manifest in after life。 Her mouth; a trifle drawn in;
expressed a haughty pride in keeping with her hand; her chin; her
brows; and her beautiful figure。 Andas a last diagnostic to guide
the judgment of a connoisseurNatalie's pure voice; a most seductive
voice; had certain metallic tones。 Softly as that brassy ring was
managed; and in spite of the grace with which its sounds ran through
the compass of the voice; that organ revealed the character of the
Duke of Alba; from whom the Casa…Reales were collaterally descended。
These indications were those of violent pa