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in his dislikes; resolute; fearless; incapable of half measuresa

man; every inch of him。  He was not generally popularstiff; hard;

unsympathetic; people called him。  From one point of view; and one

only; he perhaps deserved the epithets。  If a woman lost his

respect she seemed to lose his pity too。  Like a mediaeval monk; he

looked upon such rather as the cause than the result of male

depravity; and his contempt for them mingled with anger; almost; as

I sometimes thought; with hatred。  And this attitude was; I have no

doubt; resented by the men of his own class and set; who shared

neither his faults nor his virtues。  But in other ways he was not

hard。  He could love; I; at least; have cause to know it。  If you

would hear his story rightly from my lips; Evie; you must try and

see him with my eyes。  The friend who loved me; and whom I loved

with the passion which; if not the strongest; is certainly; I

believe; the most enduring of which men are capable;that perfect

brother's love; which so grows into our being that when it is at

peace we are scarcely conscious of its existence; and when it is

wounded our very life…blood seems to flow at the stroke。  Brothers

do not always love like that: I can only wish that we had not done

so。





VII





〃Well; about five years ago; before I had taken my degree; I became

acquainted with a woman whom I will call 'Delia;'it is near

enough to the name by which she went。  She was a few years older

than myself; very beautiful; and I believed her to be what she

described herselfthe innocent victim of circumstance and false

appearance; a helpless prey to the vile calumnies of worldlings。

In sober fact; I am afraid that; whatever her life may have been

actually at the time that I knew hera subject which I have never

cared to investigateher past had been not only bad enough

irretrievably to fix her position in society; but bad enough to

leave her without an ideal in the world; though still retaining

within her heart the possibilities of a passion which; from the

moment that it came to life; was strong enough to turn her whole

existence into one desperate reckless straining after an object

hopelessly beyond her reach。  That was the woman with whom; at the

age of twenty; I fancied myself in love。  She wanted to get a

husband; and she thought merightlyass enough to accept the

post。  I was very young then even for my years;a student; an

idealist; with an imagination highly developed; and no knowledge

whatever of the world as it actually is。  Anyhow; before I had

known her a month; I had determined to make her my wife。  My

parents were abroad at the time; George and Lucy here; so that it

was to Jack that I imparted the news of my resolve。  As you may

imagine; he did all that he could to shake it。  But I was

immovable。  I disbelieved his facts; and despised his contempt from

the standpoint of my own superior morality。  This state of things

continued for several weeks; during the greater part of which time

I was at Oxford。  I only knew that while I was there; Jack had made

Delia's acquaintance; and was apparently cultivating it

assiduously。



〃One day; during the Easter vacation; I got a note from her asking

me to supper at her house。  Jack was invited too: we lodged

together while my people were away。



〃There is no need to dwell upon that supper。  There were two or

three women there of her own sort; or worse; and a dozen men from

among the most profligate in London。  The conversation was; I

should think; bad even for that class; and she; the goddess of my

idolatry; outstripped them all by the foul; coarse shamelessness of

her language and behavior。  Before the entertainment was half over;

I rose and took my leave; accompanied by Jack and another man;

Legard was his name;who I presume was bored。  Just as we had

passed through into the anteroom; which lay beyond the one in which

we had been eating; Delia followed us; and laying her hand on

Jack's arm; said that she must speak with him。  Legard and I went

into the outer hall; and we had not been there more than a minute

when the door from the anteroom opened; and we heard Delia's voice。

I remember the words well;that was not the only occasion on which

I was to hear them。  'I will keep the ring as a record of my love;'

she said; 'and understand; that though you may forget; I never

shall。'  Jack came through; the door closed; and as we went out I

glanced towards his left hand; and saw; as I expected to see; the

absence of the ring which he usually wore there。  It contained a

gem which my mother had picked up in the East; and I knew that he

valued it quite peculiarly。  We always called it Jack's talisman。



〃A miserable time followed; a time for me of agonizing wonder and

doubt; during which regret for my dead illusion was entirely

swallowed up in the terrible dread of my brother's degradation。

Then came the announcement of his engagement to Lady Sylvia Grey;

and a week later; the very day after I had finally returned to

London from Oxford; I received a summons from Delia to come and see

her。  Curiosity; and the haunting fear about Jack; which still hung

round me; induced me to consent to what otherwise would have been

intolerably repellent to me; and I went。  I found her in a mad

passion of fury。  Jack had refused to see her or to answer her

letters; and she had sent for me; that I might give him her

message;tell him that he belonged to her and her only; and that

he never should marry another woman。  Angry at my interference;

Jack disdained even to repudiate her claims; only sending back a

threat of appealing to the police if she ventured upon any further

annoyance。  I wrote as she told me; and she emphasized my silence

on the subject by writing back to me a more definite and explicit

assertion of her rights。  Beyond that for some weeks she made no

sign。  I have no doubt that she had means of keeping watch upon

both his movements and mine; and during that time; as she

relinquished gradually all hopes of inducing him to abandon his

purpose; she was being driven to her last despairing resolve。



〃Later; when all was over; Jack told me the story of that spring

and summer。  He told me how; when he found me immovable on the

subject; he had resolved to stop the marriage somehow through Delia

herself。  He had made her acquaintance; and sought her society

frequently。  She had taken a fancy to him; and he admitted that he

had availed himself of this fact to increase his intimacy with her;

and; as he hoped ultimately; his power over her。  But he was not

conscious of ever having varied in his manner towards her of

contemptuous indifference。  This contradictory behavior;his being

constantly near her; yet always beyond her reach;was probably the

very thing which excited her fancy into passion; the one strong

passion of the poor woman's life。  Then came his deliberate demand

that she should by her own act unmask herself in my sight。  The

unfortunate woman tried to bargain for some proof of affection in

return; and on this occasion had first openly declared her feelings

towards him。  He did not believe her; he refused her terms; but

when as her payment she asked for the ring which was so especially

associated with himself; he agreed to give it to her。  Otherwise

hoping; no doubt against hope; dreading above all things a quarrel

and final separation; she submitted unconditionally。  And from the

time of that evening; when Legard and I had overheard her parting

words; Jack never saw her again until the last and final

catastrophe。



〃It was in July。  My parents had returned to England; but had come

straight on here。  Jack and I were dining together with Lady Sylvia

at her father's househer brother; young Grey; making the fourth

at dinner。  I had arranged to go to a party with your mother; and I

told the servants that a lady would call for me early in the

evening。  The house stood in Park Lane; and after dinner we all

went out on to the broad balcony which opened from the drawing…

room。  There was a strong wind blowing that night; and I remember

well the vague; disquieted feeling of unreality that possessed me;

sweeping through me; as it were; with each gust of wind。  Then;

suddenly; a servant stood behind me; saying that the lady had come

for me; and was in the drawing…room。  Shocked that my aunt should

have troubled herself to come so far; I turned quickly; stepped

back into the room; and found myself face to face with Delia。  She

was fully dressed for the evening; with a long silk opera…cloak

over her shoulders; her face as white as her gown; her splendid

eyes strangely wide open and shining。  I don't know what I said or

did; I tried to get her away; but it was too late。  The others had

heard us; and appeared at the open window。  Jack came forward at

once; speaking rapidly; fiercely; telling her to leave the house at

once; promising desperately that he would 

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