letters of two brides-第45节

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ear　by　the　fire　at　night；　may　be　entirely　destitute　of　those　more
intimate　charms　which　a　woman　values。　On　the　other　hand；　an　ugly；
boorish；　badly…dressed　figure　may　mark　a　man　endowed　with　the　very
genius　of　love；　and　who　has　a　perfect　mastery　over　situations　which
might　baffle　us　with　our　superficial　graces。　A　man　whose　conventional
aspect　accords　with　his　real　nature；　who；　in　the　intimacy　of　wedded
love；　possesses　that　inborn　grace　which　can　be　neither　given　nor
acquired；　but　which　Greek　art　has　embodied　in　statuary；　that　careless
innocence　of　the　ancient　poets　which；　even　in　frank　undress；　seems　to
clothe　the　soul　as　with　a　veil　of　modestythis　is　our　ideal；　born　of
our　own　conceptions；　and　linked　with　the　universal　harmony　which　seems
to　be　the　reality　underlying　all　created　things。　To　find　this　ideal　in
life　is　the　problem　which　haunts　the　imagination　of　every　womanin
Gaston　I　have　found　it。

Ah！　dear；　I　did　not　know　what　love　could　be；　united　to　youth；　talent；
and　beauty。　Gaston　has　no　affectations；　he　moves　with　an　instinctive
and　unstudied　grace。　When　we　walk　alone　together　in　the　woods；　his　arm
round　my　waist；　mine　resting　on　his　shoulder；　body　fitting　to　body；
and　head　touching　head；　our　step　is　so　even；　uniform；　and　gentle；　that
those　who　see　us　pass　by　night　take　the　vision　for　a　single　figure
gliding　over　the　graveled　walks；　like　one　of　Homer's　immortals。　A　like
harmony　exists　in　our　desires；　our　thoughts；　our　words。　More　than　once
on　some　evening　when　a　passing　shower　has　left　the　leaves　glistening
and　the　moist　grass　bright　with　a　more　vivid　green；　it　has　chanced
that　we　ended　our　walk　without　uttering　a　word；　as　we　listened　to　the
patter　of　falling　drops　and　feasted　our　eyes　on　the　scarlet　sunset；
flaring　on　the　hilltops　or　dyeing　with　a　warmer　tone　the　gray　of　the
tree　trunks。

Beyond　a　doubt　our　thoughts　then　rose　to　Heaven　in　silent　prayer；
pleading　as　it　were；　for　our　happiness。　At　times　a　cry　would　escape　us
at　the　moment　when　some　sudden　bend　on　the　path　opened　up　fresh
beauties。　What　words　can　tell　how　honey…sweet；　how　full　of　meaning；　is
a　kiss　half…timidly　exchanged　within　the　sanctuary　of　natureit　is　as
though　God　had　created　us　to　worship　in　this　fashion。

And　we　return　home；　each　more　deeply　in　love　than　ever。

A　love　so　passionate　between　old　married　people　would　be　an　outrage　on
society　in　Paris；　only　in　the　heart　of　the　woods；　like　lovers；　can　we
give　scope　to　it。

To　come　to　particulars；　Gaston　is　of　middle　heightthe　height　proper
to　all　men　of　purpose。　Neither　stout　nor　thin；　his　figure　is　admirably
made；　with　ample　fulness　in　the　proportions；　while　every　motion　is
agile；　he　leaps　a　ditch　with　the　easy　grace　of　a　wild　animal。　Whatever
his　attitude；　he　seems　to　have　an　instinctive　sense　of　balance；　and
this　is　very　rare　in　men　who　are　given　to　thought。　Though　a　dark　man；
he　has　an　extraordinarily　fair　complexion；　his　jet…black　hair
contrasts　finely　with　the　lustreless　tints　of　the　neck　and　forehead。
He　has　the　tragic　head　of　Louis　XIII。　His　moustache　and　tuft　have　been
allowed　to　grow；　but　I　made　him　shave　the　whiskers　and　beard；　which
were　getting　too　common。　An　honorable　poverty　has　been　his　safeguard；
and　handed　him　over　to　me；　unsoiled　by　the　loose　life　which　ruins　so
many　young　men。　His　teeth　are　magnificent；　and　he　has　a　constitution
of　iron。　His　keen　blue　eyes；　for　me　full　of　tenderness；　will　flash
like　lightning　at　any　rousing　thought。

Like　all　men　of　strong　character　and　powerful　mind；　he　has　an
admirable　temper；　its　evenness　would　surprise　you；　as　it　did　me。　I
have　listened　to　the　tale　of　many　a　woman's　home　troubles；　I　have
heard　of　the　moods　and　depression　of　men　dissatisfied　with　themselves；
who　either　won't　get　old　or　age　ungracefully；　men　who　carry　about
through　life　the　rankling　memory　of　some　youthful　excess；　whose　veins
run　poison　and　whose　eyes　are　never　frankly　happy；　men　who　cloak
suspicion　under　bad　temper；　and　make　their　women　pay　for　an　hour's
peace　by　a　morning　of　annoyance；　who　take　vengeance　on　us　for　a　beauty
which　is　hateful　to　them　because　they　have　ceased　themselves　to　be
attractive；all　these　are　horrors　unknown　to　youth。　They　are　the
penalty　of　unequal　unions。　Oh！　my　dear；　whatever　you　do；　don't　marry
Athenais　to　an　old　man！

But　his　smilehow　I　feast　on　it！　A　smile　which　is　always　there；　yet
always　fresh　through　the　play　of　subtle　fancy；　a　speaking　smile　which
makes　of　the　lips　a　storehouse　for　thoughts　of　love　and　unspoken
gratitude；　a　smile　which　links　present　joys　to　past。　For　nothing　is
allowed　to　drop　out　of　our　common　life。　The　smallest　works　of　nature
have　become　part　and　parcel　of　our　joy。　In　these　delightful　woods
everything　is　alive　and　eloquent　of　ourselves。　An　old　moss…grown　oak；
near　the　woodsman's　house　on　the　roadside；　reminds　us　how　we　sat
there；　wearied；　under　its　shade；　while　Gaston　taught　me　about　the
mosses　at　our　feet　and　told　me　their　story；　till；　gradually　ascending
from　science　to　science；　we　touched　the　very　confines　of　creation。

There　is　something　so　kindred　in　our　minds　that　they　seem　to　me　like
two　editions　of　the　same　book。　You　see　what　a　literary　tendency　I　have
developed！　We　both　have　the　habit；　or　the　gift；　of　looking　at　every
subject　broadly；　of　taking　in　all　its　points　of　view；　and　the　proof　we
are　constantly　giving　ourselves　of　the　singleness　of　our　inward　vision
is　an　ever…new　pleasure。　We　have　actually　come　to　look　on　this
community　of　mind　as　a　pledge　of　love；　and　if　it　ever　failed　us；　it
would　mean　as　much　to　us　as　would　a　breach　of　fidelity　in　an　ordinary
home。

My　life；　full　as　it　is　of　pleasures；　would　seem　to　you；　nevertheless；
extremely　laborious。　To　begin　with；　my　dear；　you　must　know　that
Louise…Armande…Marie　de　Chaulieu　does　her　own　room。　I　could　not　bear
that　a　hired　menial；　some　woman　or　girl　from　the　outside；　should
become　initiatedliterary　touch　again！into　the　secrets　of　my
bedroom。　The　veriest　trifles　connected　with　the　worship　of　my　heart
partake　of　its　sacred　character。　This　is　not　jealousy；　it　is　self…
respect。　Thus　my　room　is　done　out　with　all　the　care　a　young　girl　in
love　bestows　on　her　person；　and　with　the　precision　of　an　old　maid。　My
dressing…room　is　no　chaos　of　litter；　on　the　contrary；　it　makes　a
charming　boudoir。　My　keen　eye　has　foreseen　all　contingencies。　At
whatever　hour　the　lord　and　master　enters；　he　will　find　nothing　to
distress；　surprise；　or　shock　him；　he　is　greeted　by　flowers；　scents；
and　everything　that　can　please　the　eye。

I　get　up　in　the　early　dawn；　while　he　is　still　sleeping；　and；　without
disturbing　him；　pass　into　the　dressing…room；　where；　profiting　by　my
mother's　experience；　I　remove　the　traces　of　sleep　by　bathing　in　cold
water。　For　during　sleep　the　skin；　being　less　active；　does　not　perform
its　functions　adequately；　it　becomes　warm　and　covered　with　a　sort　of
mist　or　atmosphere　of　sticky　matter；　visible　to　the　eye。　From　a
sponge…bath　a　woman　issues　ten　years　younger；　and　this；　perhaps；　is
the　interpretation　of　the　myth　of　Venus　rising　from　the　sea。　So　the
cold　water　restores　to　me　the　saucy　charm　of　dawn；　and；　having　combed
and　scented　my　hair　and　made　a　most　fastidious　toilet；　I　glide　back；
snake…like；　in　order　that　my　master　may　find　me；　dainty　as　a　spring
morning；　at　his　wakening。　He　is　charmed　with　this　freshness；　as　of　a
newly…opened　flower；　without　having　the　least　idea　how　it　is　produced。

The　regular　toilet　of　the　day　is　a　matter　for　my　maid；　and　this　takes
place　later　in　a　larger　room；　set　aside　for　the　purpose。　As　you　may
suppose；　there　is　also　a　toilet　for　going　to　bed。　Three　times　a　day；
you　see；　or　it　may　be　four；　do　I　array　myself　for　the　delight　of　my
husband；　which；　again；　dear　one；　is　suggestive　of　certain　ancient
myths。

But　our　work　is　not　all　play。　We　take　a　great　deal　of　interest　in　our
flowers；　in　the　beauties　of　the　hothouse；　and　in　our　trees。　We　give
ourselves　in　all　seriousness　to　horticulture；　and　embosom　the　chalet
in　flowers；　of　which　we　are　passionately　fond。　Our　lawns　are　always
green；　our　shrubberies　as　well　tended　as　those　of　a　millionaire。　And
nothing　I　assure　you；　can　match　the　beauty　of　our　walled　garden。　We
are　regular　gluttons　over　our　fruit；　and　watch　with　tender　interest
our　Montreuil　peaches；　our　hotbeds；　our　laden　trellises；　and　pyramidal
pear…trees。

But　lest　these　rural　pursuits　should　fail　to　satisfy　my　beloved's
mind；　I　have　advised　him　to　finish；　in　the　quiet　of　this　retreat；　some
plays　which　were　begun　in　his　starvation　days；　and　which　are　really
very　fine。　This　is　the　only　kind　of　literary　work　which　can　be　done　in
odd　moments；　for　it　requires　long　intervals　of　reflection；　and　does
not　demand　the　elaborate　pruning　essential　to　a　finished　style。　One
can't　make　a　task…work　of　dialogue；　there　must　be　biting　touches；
summings…up；　and　flashes　of　wit；　which　are　the　blossoms　of　the　mind；
and　come　rather　by　inspiration　than　reflection。　This　sort　of
intellectual　sport　is　very　much　in　my　line。　I　assist　Gaston　in　his
work；　and　in　this　way　manage　to　accompany　him　even　in　the　boldest
flights　of　his　imagination。　Do　you　see　now　how　it　is　that　my　winter
evenings　never　drag？

Our　servants　have　such　an　easy　time；　that　never