the professor at the breakfast table-第32节
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was; that we need not wait for hearts to break out in flames to know
that they are full of combustibles and that a spark has got among
them。 I don't pretend to say or know what it is that brings these
two persons together;and when I say together; I only mean that
there is an evident affinity of some kind or other which makes their
commonest intercourse strangely significant; as that each seems to
understand a look or a word of the other。 When the young girl laid
her hand on the Little Gentleman's arm;which so greatly shocked
the Model; you may remember;I saw that she had learned the lion…
tamer's secret。 She masters him; and yet I can see she has a kind
of awe of him; as the man who goes into the cage has of the monster
that he makes a baby of。
One of two things must happen。 The first is love; downright love;
on the part of this young girl; for the poor little misshapen man。
You may laugh; if you like。 But women are apt to love the men who
they think have the largest capacity of loving;and who can love
like one that has thirsted all his life long for the smile of youth
and beauty; and seen it fly his presence as the wave ebbed from the
parched lips of him whose fabled punishment is the perpetual type of
human longing and disappointment? What would become of him; if this
fresh soul should stoop upon him in her first young passion; as the
flamingo drops out of the sky upon some lonely and dark lagoon in
the marshes of Cagliari; with a flutter of scarlet feathers and a
kindling of strange fires in the shadowy waters that hold her
burning image?
Marry her; of course?Why; no; not of course。 I should think the
chance less; on the whole; that he would be willing to marry her
than she to marry him。
There is one other thing that might happen。 If the interest he
awakes in her gets to be a deep one; and yet has nothing of love in
it; she will glance off from him into some great passion or other。
All excitements run to love in women of a certainlet us not say
age; but youth。 An electrical current passing through a coil of
wire makes a magnet of a bar of iron lying within it; but not
touching it。 So a woman is turned into a love…magnet by a tingling
current of life running round her。 I should like to see one of them
balanced on a pivot properly adjusted; and watch if she did not turn
so as to point north and south;as she would; if the love…currents
are like those of the earth our mother。
Pray; do you happen to remember Wordsworth's 〃Boy of Windermere〃?
This boy used to put his hands to his mouth; and shout aloud;
mimicking the hooting of the owls; who would answer him
〃with quivering peals;
And long halloos and screams; and echoes loud
Redoubled and redoubled。〃
When they failed to answer him; and he hung listening intently for
their voices; he would sometimes catch the faint sound of far
distant waterfalls; or the whole scene around him would imprint
itself with new force upon his perceptions。 Read the sonnet; if
you please;it is Wordsworth all over;trivial in subject; solemn
in style; vivid in description; prolix in detail; true meta…
physically; but immensely suggestive of 〃imagination;〃 to use a mild
term; when related as an actual fact of a sprightly youngster。
All I want of it is to enforce the principle; that; when the door of
the soul is once opened to a guest; there is no knowing who will
come in next。
Our young girl keeps up her early habit of sketching heads and
characters。 Nobody is; I should think; more faithful and exact in
the drawing of the academical figures given her as lessons; but
there is a perpetual arabesque of fancies that runs round the margin
of her drawings; and there is one book which I know she keeps to run
riot in; where; if anywhere; a shrewd eye would be most likely to
read her thoughts。 This book of hers I mean to see; if I can get at
it honorably。
I have never yet crossed the threshold of the Little Gentleman's
chamber。 How he lives; when he once gets within it; I can only
guess。 His hours are late; as I have said; often; on waking late in
the night; I see the light through cracks in his window…shutters on
the wall of the house opposite。 If the times of witchcraft were not
over; I should be afraid to be so close a neighbor to a place from
which there come such strange noises。 Sometimes it is the dragging
of something heavy over the floor; that makes me shiver to hear it;…
…it sounds so like what people that kill other people have to do now
and then。 Occasionally I hear very sweet strains of music;whether
of a wind or stringed instrument; or a human voice; strange as it
may seem; I have often tried to find out; but through the partition
I could not be quite sure。 If I have not heard a woman cry and
moan; and then again laugh as though she would die laughing; I have
heard sounds so like them thatI am a fool to confess itI have
covered my head with the bedclothes; for I have had a fancy in my
dreams; that I could hardly shake off when I woke up; about that so…
called witch that was his great…grandmother; or whatever it was;a
sort of fancy that she visited the Little Gentleman;a young woman
in old…fashioned dress; with a red ring round her white neck;not a
neck…lace; but a dull…stain。
Of course you don't suppose that I have any foolish superstitions
about the matter;I; the Professor; who have seen enough to take
all that nonsense out of any man's head! It is not our beliefs that
frighten us half so much as our fancies。 A man not only believes;
but knows he runs a risk; whenever he steps into a railroad car; but
it does n't worry him much。 On the other hand; carry that man
across a pasture a little way from some dreary country…village; and
show him an old house where there were strange deaths a good many
years ago; and there are rumors of ugly spots on the walls;the old
man hung himself in the garret; that is certain; and ever since the
country…people have called it 〃the haunted house;〃the owners
have n't been able to let it since the last tenants left on account
of the noises;so it has fallen into sad decay; and the moss grows
on the rotten shingles of the roof; and the clapboards have turned
black; and the windows rattle like teeth that chatter with fear; and
the walls of the house begin to lean as if its knees were shaking;
take the man who did n't mind the real risk of the cars to that old
house; on some dreary November evening; and ask him to sleep there
alone;how do you think he will like it? He doesn't believe one
word of ghosts;but then he knows; that; whether waking or
sleeping; his imagination will people the haunted chambers with
ghostly images。 It is not what we believe; as I said before; that
frightens us commonly; but what we conceive。 A principle that
reaches a good way if I am not mistaken。 I say; then; that; if
these odd sounds coming from the Little Gentleman's chamber
sometimes make me nervous; so that I cannot get to sleep; it is not
because I suppose he is engaged in any unlawful or mysterious way。
The only wicked suggestion that ever came into my head was one that
was founded on the landlady's story of his having a pile of gold; it
was a ridiculous fancy; besides; I suspect the story of sweating
gold was only one of the many fables got up to make the Jews odious
and afford a pretext for plundering them。 As for the sound like a
woman laughing and crying; I never said it was a woman's voice; for;
in the first place; I could only hear indistinctly; and; secondly;
he may have an organ; or some queer instrument or other; with what
they call the vox humana stop。 If he moves his bed round to get
away from the window; or for any such reason; there is nothing very
frightful in that simple operation。 Most of our foolish conceits
explain themselves in some such simple way。 And; yet; for all that;
I confess; that; when I woke up the other evening; and heard; first
a sweet complaining cry; and then footsteps; and then the dragging
sound;nothing but his bed; I am quite sure;I felt a stirring in
the roots of my hair as the feasters did in Keats's terrible poem of
〃Lamia。〃
There is nothing very odd in my feeling nervous when I happen to lie
awake and get listening for sounds。 Just keep your ears open any
time after midnight; when you are lying in bed in a lone attic of a
dark night。 What horrid; strange; suggestive; unaccountable noises
you will hear! The stillness of night is a vulgar error。 All the
dead things seem to be alive。 Crack! That is the old chest of
drawers; you never hear it crack in the daytime。 Creak! There's a
door ajar; you know you shut them all。
Where can that latch be that rattles so? Is anybody trying it
softly? or; worse than any body; is? (Cold shiver。) Then a
sudden gust that jars all the windows;very strange!there does
not seem to be any wind about that it belongs to。 Wh