under western eyes-第17节
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Haldin stood suddenly before him in the room with an
extraordinary completeness of detail。 Though the short winter
day had passed already into the sinister twilight of a land
buried in snow; Razumov saw plainly the narrow leather strap
round the Tcherkess coat。 The illusion of that hateful presence
was so perfect that he half expected it to ask; 〃Is the outer
door closed?〃 He looked at it with hatred and contempt。 Souls do
not take a shape of clothing。 Moreover; Haldin could not be
dead yet。 Razumov stepped forward menacingly; the vision
vanishedand turning short on his heel he walked out
of his room with infinite disdain。
But after going down the first flight of stairs it occurred to
him that perhaps the superior authorities of police meant to
confront him with Haldin in the flesh。 This thought struck him
like a bullet; and had he not clung with both hands to the
banister he would have rolled down to the next landing most
likely。 His legs were of no use for a considerable time。 。 。 。
But why? For what conceivable reason? To what end?
There could be no rational answer to these questions; but Razumov
remembered the promise made by the General to Prince K…。 His
action was to remain unknown。
He got down to the bottom of the stairs; lowering himself as it
were from step to step; by the banister。 Under the gate he
regained much of his firmness of thought and limb。 He went out
into the street without staggering visibly。 Every moment he felt
steadier mentally。 And yet he was saying to himself that General
T… was perfectly capable of shutting him up in the fortress for
an indefinite time。 His temperament fitted his remorseless task;
and his omnipotence made him inaccessible to reasonable argument。
But when Razumov arrived at the Secretariat he discovered that he
would have nothing to do with General T…。 It is evident from
Mr。 Razumov's diary that this dreaded personality was to remain
in the background。 A civilian of superior rank received him in a
private room after a period of waiting in outer offices where a
lot of scribbling went on at many tables in a heated and stuffy
atmosphere。
The clerk in uniform who conducted him said in the corridor
〃You are going before Gregor Matvieitch Mikulin。〃
There was nothing formidable about the man bearing that name。
His mild; expectant glance was turned on the door already when
Razumov entered。 At once; with the penholder he was holding in
his hand; he pointed to a deep sofa between two windows。 He
followed Razumov with his eyes while that last crossed the room
and sat down。 The mild gaze rested on him; not curious; not
inquisitivecertainly not suspiciousalmost without expression。
In its passionless persistence there was something resembling
sympathy。
Razumov; who had prepared his will and his intelligence to
encounter General T… himself; was profoundly troubled。 All the
moral bracing up against the possible excesses of power and
passion went for nothing before this sallow man; who wore a full
unclipped beard。 It was fair; thin; and very fine。 The light
fell in coppery gleams on the protuberances of a high; rugged
forehead。 And the aspect of the broad; soft physiognomy was so
homely and rustic that the careful middle parting of the hair
seemed a pretentious affectation。
The diary of Mr。 Razumov testifies to some irritation on his
part。 I may remark here that the diary proper consisting of the
more or less daily entries seems to have been begun on that very
evening after Mr。 Razumov had returned home。
Mr。 Razumov; then; was irritated。 His strung…up individuality
had gone to pieces within him very suddenly。
〃I must be very prudent with him;〃 he warned himself in the
silence during which they sat gazing at each other。 It lasted
some little time; and was characterized (for silences have their
character) by a sort of sadness imparted to it perhaps by the
mild and thoughtful manner of the bearded official。 Razumov
learned later that he was the chief of a department in the
General Secretariat; with a rank in the civil service equivalent
to that of a colonel in the army。
Razumov's mistrust became acute。 The main point was; not to be
drawn into saying too much。 He had been called there for some
reason。 What reason? To be given to understand that he was a
suspectand also no doubt to be pumped。 As to what precisely?
There was nothing。 Or perhaps Haldin had been telling lies。 。 。 。
Every alarming uncertainty beset Razumov。 He could bear the
silence no longer; and cursing himself for his weakness spoke
first; though he had promised himself not to do so on any
account。
〃I haven't lost a moment's time;〃 he began in a hoarse; provoking
tone; and then the faculty of speech seemed to leave him and
enter the body of Councillor Mikulin; who chimed in approvingly
〃Very proper。 Very proper。 Though as a matter of fact。 。 。
But the spell was broken; and Razumov interrupted him boldly;
under a sudden conviction that this was the safest attitude to
take。 With a great flow of words he complained of being totally
misunderstood。 Even as he talked with a perception of his own
audacity he thought that the word 〃misunderstood〃 was better than
the word 〃mistrusted;〃 and he repeated it again with insistence。
Suddenly he ceased; being seized with fright before the attentive
immobility of the official。 〃What am I talking about?〃 he
thought; eyeing him with a vague gaze。 Mistrustednot
misunderstoodwas the right symbol for these people。
Misunderstood was the other kind of curse。 Both had been brought
on his head by that fellow Haldin。 And his head ached terribly。
He passed his hand over his browan involuntary gesture of
suffering; which he was too careless to restrain。
End