the heir of redclyffe-第139节
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there was an excitability of brain and nerves which made care
requisite; but depression of spirits was the chief thing to guard
against; and a London life; provided he did not overwork himself; was
better for him than solitude at Redclyffe。
Accordingly Philip went to Thorndale; and was returned for Moorworth
without opposition。 Markham sent his nephew to transact business with
him at Thorndale; for he could not bear to meet him himself; and while
there was any prospect of his coming to Redclyffe; walked about in
paroxysms of grunting and ill…humour。 The report that Mr。 Morville was
engaged to the other Miss Edmonstone did but render him more furious;
for he regarded it as a sort of outrage to Lady Morville's feelings
that a courtship should be carried on in the house with her。 She was
at present the object of all his devoted affection for the family; and
he would not believe; but that she had been as much disappointed at the
birth of her daughter; as he was himself。 He would not say one word
against Mr。 Morville; but looked and growled enough to make Mr。 Ashford
afraid that the new squire would find him very troublesome。
The Ashfords were in a state of mind themselves to think that Mr。
Morville ought to be everything excellent to make up for succeeding Sir
Guy; but having a very high opinion of him to begin with; they were
very sorry to find all Redclyffe set against him。 In common with the
parish; they were very anxious for the first report of his arrival and
at length he came。 James Thorndale; as before; drove him thither;
coming to the Ashfords while he was busy with Markham。 He would not go
up to the Park; he only went through some necessary business with
Markham; and then walked down to the Cove; afterwards sitting for about
ten minutes in Mrs。 Ashford's drawing…room。
The result of the visit was that old James Robinson reported that the
new squire took on as much about poor Sir Guy as any one could do; and
turned as pale as if he had been going into a swoon; when he spoke his
name and gave Ben his message。 And as to poor Ben; the old man said;
he regularly did cry like a child; and small blame to him; to hear that
Sir Guy had took thought of him at such a time and so far away; and he
verily believed Ben could never take again to his bad ways; after such
a message as that。
Markham was gruff with the Robinsons for some time after and was even
heard to mutter something about worshipping the rising sun; an act of
idolatry of which he could not be accused; since it was in the most
grudging manner that he allowed; that Mr。 Morville's sole anxiety
seemed to be to continue all Sir Guy had undertaken; while Mrs。
Ashford; on the other hand was much affected by the account her cousin
James had been giving her of the grief that he had suffered at Sir
Guy's death; his long illness; his loss of spirits; the reluctance he
had shown to come here at all; and his present unconquerable dread of
going to the Park。
He was soon after in London; where; as far as could be judged in such
early days; he seemed likely to distinguish himself according to the
fondest hopes that Margaret or Laura could ever have entertained。
Laura was only afraid he was overworking himself; especially as; having
at present little command of ready money; he lived in a small lodging;
kept no horse; and did not enter into society; but she was reassured
when he came to Hollywell for a day or two at Whitsuntide; not having
indeed regained flesh or colour; but appearing quite well; in better
spirits; and very eager about political affairs。
All would have been right that summer; but that; as Philip observed;
the first evening of his arrival; Amabel was not looking as well as she
had done at the time of the christening。 She had; just after it; tried
her strength and spirits too much; and had ever since been not exactly
unwell; but sad and weary; more dejected than ever before; unable to
bear the sight of flowers or the sound of music; and evidently
suffering much under the recurrence of the season; which had been that
of her great happinessthe summer sunshine; the long evenings; the
nightingale's songs。 She was fatigued by the most trifling exertion;
and seemed able to take interest in nothing but her baby; and a young
widow in the village; who was in a decline; and though she was willing
to do all that was asked of her; it was in a weary; melancholy manner;
as if she had no peace but in being allowed to sit alone; drooping over
her child。
From society she especially shrunk; avoiding every chance of meeting
visitors; and distressed and harassed when her father brought home some
of his casual dinner guests; and was vexed not to see her come into the
drawing…room in the evening。 If she did make the effort of coming; to
please him; she was so sure to be the worse for it; that her mother
would keep her up…stairs the next time; and try to prevent her from
knowing that her father was put out; and declared it was nonsense to
expect poor Amy to get up her spirits; while she never saw a living
soul; and only sat moping in the dressing…room。
A large dinner…party did not interfere with her; for even he could not
expect her to appear at it; and one of these he gave during Philip's
visit; for the pleasure of exhibiting such company as the M。P。 for
Moorworth。 After dinner; Charlotte told Mary Ross to go and see Amy。
Not finding her in the dressing…room; she knocked at her own door。
'Come in;' answered the low soft voice; and in the window; overhung by
the long shoots of the roses; Amabel's close cap and small head were
seen against the deep…blue evening sky; as she sat in the summer
twilight; her little one asleep in her cot。
'Thank you for coming;' said she。 'I thought you would not mind
sitting here with baby and me。 I have sent Anne out walking。'
'How pretty she looks!' said Mary; stooping over the infant。 'Sleep is
giving her quite a colour; and how fast she grows!'
'Poor little woman!' said Amy; sighing。
'Tired; Amy?' said Mary; sitting down; and taking up the little
lambswool shoe; that Amy had been knitting。
'Nno; thank you;' said Amy; with another sigh。
'I am afraid you are。 You have been walking to Alice Lamsden's again。'
'I don't think that tires me。 Indeed; I believe the truth is;' and her
voice sounded especially sad in the subdued tone in which she spoke;
that she might not disturb the child; 'I am not so much tired with what
I do; which is little enough; as of the long; long life that is before
me。'
Mary's heart was full; but she did not show her thought otherwise than
by a look towards the babe。
'Yes; poor little darling;' said Amabel; 'I know there is double
quantity to be done for her; but I am so sorry for her; when I think
she must grow up without knowing him。'
'She has you; though;' Mary could not help saying; as she felt that
Amabel was superior to all save her husband。
Perhaps Amy did not hear; she went up to the cot; and went on:'If he
had but once seen her; if she had but had one kiss; one touch that I
could tell her of by and by; it would not seem as if she was so very
fatherless。 Oh no; baby; I must wait; that you may know something
about; him; for no one else can tell you so well what he was; though I
can't tell much!' She presently returned to her seat。 'No; I don't
believe I really wish I was like poor Alice;' said she; 'I hope not; I
am sure I don't for her sake。 But; Mary; I never knew till I was well
again how much I had reckoned on dying when she was born。 I did not
think I was wishing it; but it seemed likely; and I was obliged to
arrange things in case of it。 Then somehow; as he came back last
spring; after that sad winter; it seemed as if this spring; though he
would not come back to me; I might be going to him。'
'But then she comforted you。'
'Yes; that she did; my precious one; I was so glad of her; it was a
sort of having him again; and so it is still sometimes; and will be
more so; I dare say。 I am very thankful for her; indeed I am; and I
hope I am not repining; for it does not signify after all; in the end;
if I am weary and lonely sometimes。 I wish I was sure it was not
wrong。 I know I don't wish to alter things。'
'No; I am sure you don't。'
'Ah!' said Amabel; smiling; 'it is only the old; silly little Amy that
does feel such a heart…aching and longing for one glance of his eye; or
touch of his hand; or sound of his foot in the passage。 Oh; Mary; the
worst of all is to wake up; after dreaming I have heard his voice。
There is nothing for it but to take our baby and hold her very tight。'
'Dearest Amy! But you are not blaming yourself for these feelings。 It
might be wrong to indulge them and foster them; but while you struggle
wi