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The Holly…Tree
by Charles Dickens
FIRST BRANCHMYSELF
I have kept one secret in the course of my life。 I am a bashful
man。 Nobody would suppose it; nobody ever does suppose it; nobody
ever did suppose it; but I am naturally a bashful man。 This is the
secret which I have never breathed until now。
I might greatly move the reader by some account of the innumerable
places I have not been to; the innumerable people I have not called
upon or received; the innumerable social evasions I have been guilty
of; solely because I am by original constitution and character a
bashful man。 But I will leave the reader unmoved; and proceed with
the object before me。
That object is to give a plain account of my travels and discoveries
in the Holly…Tree Inn; in which place of good entertainment for man
and beast I was once snowed up。
It happened in the memorable year when I parted for ever from Angela
Leath; whom I was shortly to have married; on making the discovery
that she preferred my bosom friend。 From our school…days I had
freely admitted Edwin; in my own mind; to be far superior to myself;
and; though I was grievously wounded at heart; I felt the preference
to be natural; and tried to forgive them both。 It was under these
circumstances that I resolved to go to Americaon my way to the
Devil。
Communicating my discovery neither to Angela nor to Edwin; but
resolving to write each of them an affecting letter conveying my
blessing and forgiveness; which the steam…tender for shore should
carry to the post when I myself should be bound for the New World;
far beyond recall;I say; locking up my grief in my own breast; and
consoling myself as I could with the prospect of being generous; I
quietly left all I held dear; and started on the desolate journey I
have mentioned。
The dead winter…time was in full dreariness when I left my chambers
for ever; at five o'clock in the morning。 I had shaved by candle…
light; of course; and was miserably cold; and experienced that
general all…pervading sensation of getting up to be hanged which I
have usually found inseparable from untimely rising under such
circumstances。
How well I remember the forlorn aspect of Fleet Street when I came
out of the Temple! The street…lamps flickering in the gusty north…
east wind; as if the very gas were contorted with cold; the white…
topped houses; the bleak; star…lighted sky; the market people and
other early stragglers; trotting to circulate their almost frozen
blood; the hospitable light and warmth of the few coffee…shops and
public…houses that were open for such customers; the hard; dry;
frosty rime with which the air was charged (the wind had already
beaten it into every crevice); and which lashed my face like a steel
whip。
It wanted nine days to the end of the month; and end of the year。
The Post…office packet for the United States was to depart from
Liverpool; weather permitting; on the first of the ensuing month;
and I had the intervening time on my hands。 I had taken this into
consideration; and had resolved to make a visit to a certain spot
(which I need not name) on the farther borders of Yorkshire。 It was
endeared to me by my having first seen Angela at a farmhouse in that
place; and my melancholy was gratified by the idea of taking a
wintry leave of it before my expatriation。 I ought to explain;
that; to avoid being sought out before my resolution should have
been rendered irrevocable by being carried into full effect; I had
written to Angela overnight; in my usual manner; lamenting that
urgent business; of which she should know all particulars by…and…by…
…took me unexpectedly away from her for a week or ten days。
There was no Northern Railway at that time; and in its place there
were stage…coaches; which I occasionally find myself; in common with
some other people; affecting to lament now; but which everybody
dreaded as a very serious penance then。 I had secured the box…seat
on the fastest of these; and my business in Fleet Street was to get
into a cab with my portmanteau; so to make the best of my way to the
Peacock at Islington; where I was to join this coach。 But when one
of our Temple watchmen; who carried my portmanteau into Fleet Street
for me; told me about the huge blocks of ice that had for some days
past been floating in the river; having closed up in the night; and
made a walk from the Temple Gardens over to the Surrey shore; I
began to ask myself the question; whether the box…seat would not be
likely to put a sudden and a frosty end to my unhappiness。 I was
heart…broken; it is true; and yet I was not quite so far gone as to
wish to be frozen to death。
When I got up to the Peacock;where I found everybody drinking hot
purl; in self…preservation;I asked if there were an inside seat to
spare。 I then discovered that; inside or out; I was the only
passenger。 This gave me a still livelier idea of the great
inclemency of the weather; since that coach always loaded
particularly well。 However; I took a little purl (which I found
uncommonly good); and got into the coach。 When I was seated; they
built me up with straw to the waist; and; conscious of making a
rather ridiculous appearance; I began my journey。
It was still dark when we left the Peacock。 For a little while;
pale; uncertain ghosts of houses and trees appeared and vanished;
and then it was hard; black; frozen day。 People were lighting their
fires; smoke was mounting straight up high into the rarified air;
and we were rattling for Highgate Archway over the hardest ground I
have ever heard the ring of iron shoes on。 As we got into the
country; everything seemed to have grown old and gray。 The roads;
the trees; thatched roofs of cottages and homesteads; the ricks in
farmers' yards。 Out…door work was abandoned; horse…troughs at road…
side inns were frozen hard; no stragglers lounged about; doors were
close shut; little turnpike houses had blazing fires inside; and
children (even turnpike people have children; and seem to like them)
rubbed the frost from the little panes of glass with their chubby
arms; that their bright eyes might catch a glimpse of the solitary
coach going by。 I don't know when the snow begin to set in; but I
know that we were changing horses somewhere when I heard the guard
remark; 〃That the old lady up in the sky was picking her geese
pretty hard to…day。〃 Then; indeed; I found the white down falling
fast and thick。
The lonely day wore on; and I dozed it out; as a lonely traveller
does。 I was warm and valiant after eating and drinking;
particularly after dinner; cold and depressed at all other times。 I
was always bewildered as to time and place; and always more or less
out of my senses。 The coach and horses seemed to execute in chorus
Auld Lang Syne; without a moment's intermission。 They kept the time
and tune with the greatest regularity; and rose into the swell at
the beginning of the Refrain; with a precision that worried me to
death。 While we changed horses; the guard and coachman went
stumping up and down the road; printing off their shoes in the snow;
and poured so much liquid consolation into themselves without being
any the worse for it; that I began to confound them; as it darkened
again; with two great white casks standing on end。 Our horses
tumbled down in solitary places; and we got them up;which was the
pleasantest variety I had; for it warmed me。 And it snowed and
snowed; and still it snowed; and never left off snowing。 All night
long we went on in this manner。 Thus we came round the clock; upon
the Great North Road; to the performance of Auld Lang Syne by day
again。 And it snowed and snowed; and still it snowed; and never
left off snowing。
I forget now where we were at noon on the second day; and where we
ought to have been; but I know that we were scores of miles
behindhand; and that our case was growing worse every hour。 The
drift was becoming prodigiously deep; landmarks were getting snowed
out; the road and the fields were all one; instead of having fences
and hedge…rows to guide us; we went crunching on over an unbroken
surface of ghastly white that might sink beneath us at any moment
and drop us down a whole hillside。 Still the coachman and guard
who kept together on the box; always in council; and looking well
about themmade out the track with astonishing sagacity。
When we came in sight of a town; it looked; to my fancy; like a
large drawing on a slate; with abundance of slate…pencil expended on
the churches and houses where the snow lay thickest。 When we came
within a town; and found the church clocks all stopped; the dial…
faces choked with snow; and the inn…signs blotted out; it seemed as
if the whole place were overgrown with white moss。 As to the coach;
it was a mere snowball; similarly; the men and boys who ran along
beside us to the to