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Imperialist　flood；　like　a　starfish　rolling　up　a　beach。



My　feminist　views　had　earnt　the　mistrust　of　the　party；　and　I　do　not　

think　I　should　have　got　the　chance　of　Handitch　or　indeed　any　chance　

at　all　of　Parliament　for　a　long　time；　if　it　had　not　been　that　the　

seat　with　its　long　record　of　Liberal　victories　and　its　Liberal　

majority　of　3642　at　the　last　election；　offered　a　hopeless　contest。　　

The　Liberal　dissensions　and　the　belated　but　by　no　means　contemptible　

Socialist　candidate　were　providential　interpositions。　　I　think；　

however；　the　conduct　of　Gane；　Crupp；　and　Tarvrille　in　coming　down　to　

fight　for　me；　did　count　tremendously　in　my　favour。　　〃We　aren't　going　

to　win；　perhaps；〃　said　Crupp；　〃but　we　are　going　to　talk。〃　　And　until　

the　very　eve　of　victory；　we　treated　Handitch　not　so　much　as　a　

battlefield　as　a　hoarding。　　And　so　it　was　the　Endowment　of　

Motherhood　as　a　practical　form　of　Eugenics　got　into　English　

politics。



Plutus；　our　agent；　was　scared　out　of　his　wits　when　the　thing　began。



〃They're　ascribing　all　sorts　of　queer　ideas　to　you　about　the　

Family；〃　he　said。



〃I　think　the　Family　exists　for　the　good　of　the　children；〃　I　said；　

〃is　that　queer？〃



〃Not　when　you　explain　itbut　they　won't　let　you　explain　it。　　And　

about　marriage？〃



〃I'm　all　right　about　marriagetrust　me。〃



〃Of　course；　if　YOU　had　children；〃　said　Plutus；　rather　

inconsiderately。　。　。　。



They　opened　fire　upon　me　in　a　little　electioneering　rag　call　the　

HANDITCH　SENTINEL；　with　a　string　of　garbled　quotations　and　

misrepresentations　that　gave　me　an　admirable　text　for　a　speech。　　I　

spoke　for　an　hour　and　ten　minutes　with　a　more　and　more　crumpled　copy　

of　the　SENTINEL　in　my　hand；　and　I　made　the　fullest　and　completest　

exposition　of　the　idea　of　endowing　motherhood　that　I　think　had　ever　

been　made　up　to　that　time　in　England。　　Its　effect　on　the　press　was　

extraordinary。　　The　Liberal　papers　gave　me　quite　unprecedented　space　

under　the　impression　that　I　had　only　to　be　given　rope　to　hang　

myself；　the　Conservatives　cut　me　down　or　tried　to　justify　me；　the　

whole　country　was　talking。　　I　had　had　a　pamphlet　in　type　upon　the　

subject；　and　I　revised　this　carefully　and　put　it　on　the　book…stalls　

within　three　days。　　It　sold　enormously　and　brought　me　bushels　of　

letters。　　We　issued　over　three　thousand　in　Handitch　alone。　　At　

meeting　after　meeting　I　was　heckled　upon　nothing　else。　　Long　before　

polling　day　Plutus　was　converted。



〃It's　catching　on　like　old　age　pensions；〃　he　said。　　〃We've　dished　

the　Liberals！　　To　think　that　such　a　project　should　come　from　our　

side！〃



But　it　was　only　with　the　declaration　of　the　poll　that　my　battle　was　

won。　　No　one　expected　more　than　a　snatch　victory；　and　I　was　in　by　

over　fifteen　hundred。　　At　one　bound　Cossington's　papers　passed　from　

apologetics　varied　by　repudiation　to　triumphant　praise。　　〃A　

renascent　England；　breeding　men；〃　said　the　leader　in　his　chief　daily　

on　the　morning　after　the　polling；　and　claimed　that　the　Conservatives　

had　been　ever　the　pioneers　in　sanely　bold　constructive　projects。



I　came　up　to　London　with　a　weary　but　rejoicing　Margaret　by　the　night　

train。







CHAPTER　THE　SECOND



THE　IMPOSSIBLE　POSITION







1





To　any　one　who　did　not　know　of　that　glowing　secret　between　Isabel　

and　myself；　I　might　well　have　appeared　at　that　time　the　most　

successful　and　enviable　of　men。　　I　had　recovered　rapidly　from　an　

uncongenial　start　in　political　life；　I　had　become　a　considerable　

force　through　the　BLUE　WEEKLY；　and　was　shaping　an　increasingly　

influential　body　of　opinion；　I　had　re…entered　Parliament　with　quite　

dramatic　distinction；　and　in　spite　of　a　certain　faltering　on　the　

part　of　the　orthodox　Conservatives　towards　the　bolder　elements　in　

our　propaganda；　I　had　loyal　and　unenvious　associates　who　were　making　

me　a　power　in　the　party。　　People　were　coming　to　our　group；　

understandings　were　developing。　　It　was　clear　we　should　play　a　

prominent　part　in　the　next　general　election；　and　that；　given　a　

Conservative　victory；　I　should　be　assured　of　office。　　The　world　

opened　out　to　me　brightly　and　invitingly。　　Great　schemes　took　shape　

in　my　mind；　always　more　concrete；　always　more　practicable；　the　years　

ahead　seemed　falling　into　order；　shining　with　the　credible　promise　

of　immense　achievement。



And　at　the　heart　of　it　all；　unseen　and　unsuspected；　was　the　secret　

of　my　relations　with　Isabellike　a　seed　that　germinates　and　

thrusts；　thrusts　relentlessly。



From　the　onset　of　the　Handitch　contest　onward；　my　meetings　with　her　

had　been　more　and　more　pervaded　by　the　discussion　of　our　situation。　　

It　had　innumerable　aspects。　　It　was　very　present　to　us　that　we　

wanted　to　be　together　as　much　as　possiblewe　were　beginning　to　long　

very　much　for　actual　living　together　in　the　same　house；　so　that　one　

could　come　as　it　were　carelesslyunawaresupon　the　other；　busy　

perhaps　about　some　trivial　thing。　　We　wanted　to　feel　each　other　in　

the　daily　atmosphere。　　Preceding　our　imperatively　sterile　passion；　

you　must　remember；　outside　it；　altogether　greater　than　it　so　far　as　

our　individual　lives　were　concerned；　there　had　grown　and　still　grew　

an　enormous　affection　and　intellectual　sympathy　between　us。　　We　

brought　all　our　impressions　and　all　our　ideas　to　each　other；　to　see　

them　in　each　other's　light。　　It　is　hard　to　convey　that　quality　of　

intellectual　unison　to　any　one　who　has　not　experienced　it。　　I　

thought　more　and　more　in　terms　of　conversation　with　Isabel；　her　

possible　comments　upon　things　would　flash　into　my　mind；　oh！with　

the　very　sound　of　her　voice。



I　remember；　too；　the　odd　effect　of　seeing　her　in　the　distance　going　

about　Handitch；　like　any　stranger　canvasser；　the　queer　emotion　of　

her　approach　along　the　street；　the　greeting　as　she　passed。　　The　

morning　of　the　polling　she　vanished　from　the　constituency。　　I　saw　

her　for　an　instant　in　the　passage　behind　our　Committee　rooms。



〃Going？〃　said　I。



She　nodded。



〃Stay　it　out。　　I　want　you　to　see　the　fun。　　I　rememberthe　other　

time。〃



She　didn't　answer　for　a　moment　or　so；　and　stood　with　face　averted。



〃It's　Margaret's　show；〃　she　said　abruptly。　　〃If　I　see　her　smiling　

there　like　a　queen　by　your　side！　　She　didlast　time。　　I　

remember。〃　　She　caught　at　a　sob　and　dashed　her　hand　across　her　face　

impatiently。　　〃Jealous　fool；　mean　and　petty；　jealous　fool！　。　。　。　　

Good　luck；　old　man；　to　you！　　You're　going　to　win。　　But　I　don't　want　

to　see　the　end　of　it　all　the　same。　。　。　。〃



〃Good…bye！〃　said　I；　clasping　her　hand　as　some　supporter　appeared　in　

the　passage。　。　。　。



I　came　back　to　London　victorious；　and　a　little　flushed　and　coarse　

with　victory；　and　so　soon　as　I　could　break　away　I　went　to　Isabel's　

flat　and　found　her　white　and　worn；　with　the　stain　of　secret　weeping　

about　her　eyes。　　I　came　into　the　room　to　her　and　shut　the　door。



〃You　said　I'd　win；〃　I　said；　and　held　out　my　arms。



She　hugged　me　closely　for　a　moment。



〃My　dear；〃　I　whispered；　〃it's　nothingwithout　younothing！〃



We　didn't　speak　for　some　seconds。　　Then　she　slipped　from　my　hold。　　

〃Look！〃　she　said；　smiling　like　winter　sunshine。　　〃I've　had　in　all　

the　morning　papersthe　pile　of　them；　and　youresounding。〃



〃It's　more　than　I　dared　hope。〃



〃Or　I。〃



She　stood　for　a　moment　still　smiling　bravely；　and　then　she　was　

sobbing　in　my　arms。　　〃The　bigger　you　arethe　more　you　show；〃　she　

said〃　the　more　we　are　parted。　　I　know；　I　know〃



I　held　her　close　to　me；　making　no　answer。



Presently　she　became　still。　　〃Oh；　well；〃　she　said；　and　wiped　her　

eyes　and　sat　down　on　the　little　sofa　by　the　fire；　and　I　sat　down　

beside　her。



〃I　didn't　know　all　there　was　in　love；〃　she　said；　staring　at　the　

coals；　〃when　we　went　love…making。〃



I　put　my　arm　behind　her　and　took　a　handful　of　her　dear　soft　hair　in　

my　hand　and　kissed　it。



〃You've　done　a　great　thing　this　time；〃　she　said。　　〃Handitch　will　

make　you。〃



〃It　opens　big　chances；〃　I　said。　　〃But　why　are　you　weeping；　dear　

one？〃



〃Envy；〃　she　said；　〃and　love。〃



〃You're　not　lonely？〃



〃I've　plenty　to　doand　lots　of　people。〃



〃Well？〃



〃I　want　you。〃



〃You've　got　me。〃



She　put　her　arm　about　me　and　kissed　me。　　〃I　want　you；〃　she　said；　

〃just　as　if　I　had　nothing　of　you。　　You　don't　understandhow　a　woman　

wants　a　man。　　I　thought　once　if　I　just　gave　myself　to　you　it　would　

be　enough。　　It　was　nothingit　was　just　a　step　across　the　threshold。　　

My　dear；　every　moment　you　are　away　I　ache　for　youache！　　I　want　to　

be　about　when　it　isn't　love…making　or　talk。　　I　want　to　be　doing　

things　for　you；　and　watching　you　when　you're　not　thinking　of　me。　　

All　those　safe；　careless；　intimate　things。　　And　something　else〃　

She　stopped。　　〃Dear；　I　don't　want　to　bother　you。　　I　just　want　you　to　

know　I　love　you。　。　。　。〃



She　caught　my　head　in　her　hands　and　kissed　it；　then　stood　up　

abruptly。



I　looked　up　at　her；　a　little　perplex