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German and the English consuls besought Lloyd not to go。  But 

he stuck to his purpose; and with my approval。  It's a poor 

thing if people are to give up a pleasure party for a MALO 

that has never done anything for us but draw taxes; and is 

going to go pop; and leave us at the mercy of the identical 

Mataafa; whom I have not visited for more than a year; and 

who is probably furious。



The sense of my helplessness here has been rather bitter; I 

feel it wretched to see this dance of folly and injustice and 

unconscious rapacity go forward from day to day; and to be 

impotent。  I was not consulted … or only by one man; and that 

on particular points; I did not choose to volunteer advice 

till some pressing occasion; I have not even a vote; for I am 

not a member of the municipality。



What ails you; miserable man; to talk of saving material?  I 

have a whole world in my head; a whole new society to work; 

but I am in no hurry; you will shortly make the acquaintance 

of the Island of Ulufanua; on which I mean to lay several 

stories; the BLOODY WEDDING; possibly the HIGH WOODS … (O; 

it's so good; the High Woods; but the story is craziness; 

that's the trouble;) … a political story; the LABOUR SLAVE; 

etc。  Ulufanua is an imaginary island; the name is a 

beautiful Samoan word for the TOP of a forest; ulu … leaves 

or hair; fanua=land。  The ground or country of the leaves。  

'Ulufanua the isle of the sea;' read that verse dactylically 

and you get the beat; the u's are like our double oo; did 

ever you hear a prettier word?



I do not feel inclined to make a volume of Essays; but if I 

did; and perhaps the idea is good … and any idea is better 

than South Seas … here would be my choice of the Scribner 

articles: DREAMS; BEGGARS; LANTERN…BEARERS; RANDOM MEMORIES。  

There was a paper called the OLD PACIFIC CAPITAL in Fraser; 

in Tulloch's time; which had merit; there were two on 

Fontainebleau in the MAGAZINE OF ART in Henley's time。  I 

have no idea if they're any good; then there's the EMIGRANT 

TRAIN。  PULVIS ET UMBRA is in a different key; and wouldn't 

hang on with the rest。



I have just interrupted my letter and read through the 

chapter of the HIGH WOODS that is written; a chapter and a 

bit; some sixteen pages; really very fetching; but what do 

you wish? the story is so wilful; so steep; so silly … it's a 

hallucination I have outlived; and yet I never did a better 

piece of work; horrid; and pleasing; and extraordinarily 

TRUE; it's sixteen pages of the South Seas; their essence。  

What am I to do?  Lose this little gem … for I'll be bold; 

and that's what I think it … or go on with the rest; which I 

don't believe in; and don't like; and which can never make 

aught but a silly yarn?  Make another end to it?  Ah; yes; 

but that's not the way I write; the whole tale is implied; I 

never use an effect; when I can help it; unless it prepares 

the effects that are to follow; that's what a story consists 

in。  To make another end; that is to make the beginning all 

wrong。  The denouement of a long story is nothing; it is just 

a 'full close;' which you may approach and accompany as you 

please … it is a coda; not an essential member in the rhythm; 

but the body and end of a short story is bone of the bone and 

blood of the blood of the beginning。  Well; I shall end by 

finishing it against my judgment; that fragment is my 

Delilah。  Golly; it's good。  I am not shining by modesty; but 

I do just love the colour and movement of that piece so far 

as it goes。



I was surprised to hear of your fishing。  And you saw the 

'Pharos;' thrice fortunate man; I wish I dared go home; I 

would ask the Commissioners to take me round for old sake's 

sake; and see all my family pictures once more from the Mull 

of Galloway to Unst。  However; all is arranged for our 

meeting in Ceylon; except the date and the blooming pounds。  

I have heard of an exquisite hotel in the country; airy; 

large rooms; good cookery; not dear; we shall have a couple 

of months there; if we can make it out; and converse or … as 

my grandfather always said … 'commune。'  'Communings with Mr。 

Kennedy as to Lighthouse Repairs。'  He was a fine old fellow; 

but a droll。





EVENING。





Lloyd has returned。  Peace and war were played before his 

eyes at heads or tails。  A German was stopped with levelled 

guns; he raised his whip; had it fallen; we might have been 

now in war。  Excuses were made by Mataafa himself。  Doubtless 

the thing was done … I mean the stopping of the German … a 

little to show off before Lloyd。  Meanwhile … was up here; 

telling how the Chief Justice was really gone for five or 

eight weeks; and begging me to write to the TIMES and 

denounce the state of affairs; many strong reasons he 

advanced; and Lloyd and I have been since his arrival and …'s 

departure; near half an hour; debating what should be done。  

Cedarcrantz is gone; it is not my fault; he knows my views on 

that point … alone of all points; … he leaves me with my 

mouth sealed。  Yet this is a nice thing that because he is 

guilty of a fresh offence … his flight … the mouth of the 

only possible influential witness should be closed?  I do not 

like this argument。  I look like a cad; if I do in the man's 

absence what I could have done in a more manly manner in his 

presence。  True; but why did he go?  It is his last sin。  And 

I; who like the man extremely … that is the word … I love his 

society … he is intelligent; pleasant; even witty; a 

gentleman … and you know how that attaches … I loathe to seem 

to play a base part; but the poor natives … who are like 

other folk; false enough; lazy enough; not heroes; not saints 

… ordinary men damnably misused … are they to suffer because 

I like Cedarcrantz; and Cedarcrantz has cut his lucky?  This 

is a little tragedy; observe well … a tragedy!  I may be 

right; I may be wrong in my judgment; but I am in treaty with 

my honour。  I know not how it will seem to…morrow。  Lloyd 

thought the barrier of honour insurmountable; and it is an 

ugly obstacle。  He (Cedarcrantz) will likely meet my wife 

three days from now; may travel back with her; will be 

charming if he does; suppose this; and suppose him to arrive 

and find that I have sprung a mine … or the nearest approach 

to it I could find … behind his back?  My position is pretty。  

Yes; I am an aristocrat。  I have the old petty; personal view 

of honour?  I should blush till I die if I do this; yet it is 

on the cards that I may do it。  So much I have written you in 

bed; as a man writes; or talks; in a BITTRE WAHL。  Now I 

shall sleep; and see if I am more clear。  I will consult the 

missionaries at least … I place some reliance in M。 also … or 

I should if he were not a partisan; but a partisan he is。  

There's the pity。  To sleep!  A fund of wisdom in the 

prostrate body and the fed brain。  Kindly observe R。 L。 S。 in 

the talons of politics!  'Tis funny … 'tis sad。  Nobody but 

these cursed idiots could have so driven me; I cannot bear 

idiots。



My dear Colvin; I must go to sleep; it is long past ten … a 

dreadful hour for me。  And here am I lingering (so I feel) in 

the dining…room at the Monument; talking to you across the 

table; both on our feet; and only the two stairs to mount; 

and get to bed; and sleep; and be waked by dear old George … 

to whom I wish my kindest remembrances … next morning。  I 

look round; and there is my blue room; and my long lines of 

shelves; and the door gaping on a moonless night; and no word 

of S。 C。 but his twa portraits on the wall。  Good…bye; my 

dear fellow; and goodnight。  Queer place the world!





MONDAY。





No clearness of mind with the morning; I have no guess what I 

should do。  'Tis easy to say that the public duty should 

brush aside these little considerations of personal dignity; 

so it is that politicians begin; and in a month you find them 

rat and flatter and intrigue with brows of brass。  I am 

rather of the old view; that a man's first duty is to these 

little laws; the big he does not; he never will; understand; 

I may be wrong about the Chief Justice and the Baron and the 

state of Samoa; I cannot be wrong about the vile attitude I 

put myself in if I blow the gaff on Cedarcrantz behind his 

back。





TUESDAY。





One more word about the South Seas; in answer to a question I 

observe I have forgotten to answer。  The Tahiti part has 

never turned up; because it has never been written。  As for 

telling you where I went or when; or anything about Honolulu; 

I would rather die; that is fair and plain。  How can anybody 

care when or how I left Honolulu?  A man of upwards of forty 

cannot waste his time in communicating matter of that 

indifference。  The letters; it appears; are tedious; they 

would be more tedious still if I wasted my time upon such 

infantile

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