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German and the English consuls besought Lloyd not to go。 But
he stuck to his purpose; and with my approval。 It's a poor
thing if people are to give up a pleasure party for a MALO
that has never done anything for us but draw taxes; and is
going to go pop; and leave us at the mercy of the identical
Mataafa; whom I have not visited for more than a year; and
who is probably furious。
The sense of my helplessness here has been rather bitter; I
feel it wretched to see this dance of folly and injustice and
unconscious rapacity go forward from day to day; and to be
impotent。 I was not consulted … or only by one man; and that
on particular points; I did not choose to volunteer advice
till some pressing occasion; I have not even a vote; for I am
not a member of the municipality。
What ails you; miserable man; to talk of saving material? I
have a whole world in my head; a whole new society to work;
but I am in no hurry; you will shortly make the acquaintance
of the Island of Ulufanua; on which I mean to lay several
stories; the BLOODY WEDDING; possibly the HIGH WOODS … (O;
it's so good; the High Woods; but the story is craziness;
that's the trouble;) … a political story; the LABOUR SLAVE;
etc。 Ulufanua is an imaginary island; the name is a
beautiful Samoan word for the TOP of a forest; ulu … leaves
or hair; fanua=land。 The ground or country of the leaves。
'Ulufanua the isle of the sea;' read that verse dactylically
and you get the beat; the u's are like our double oo; did
ever you hear a prettier word?
I do not feel inclined to make a volume of Essays; but if I
did; and perhaps the idea is good … and any idea is better
than South Seas … here would be my choice of the Scribner
articles: DREAMS; BEGGARS; LANTERN…BEARERS; RANDOM MEMORIES。
There was a paper called the OLD PACIFIC CAPITAL in Fraser;
in Tulloch's time; which had merit; there were two on
Fontainebleau in the MAGAZINE OF ART in Henley's time。 I
have no idea if they're any good; then there's the EMIGRANT
TRAIN。 PULVIS ET UMBRA is in a different key; and wouldn't
hang on with the rest。
I have just interrupted my letter and read through the
chapter of the HIGH WOODS that is written; a chapter and a
bit; some sixteen pages; really very fetching; but what do
you wish? the story is so wilful; so steep; so silly … it's a
hallucination I have outlived; and yet I never did a better
piece of work; horrid; and pleasing; and extraordinarily
TRUE; it's sixteen pages of the South Seas; their essence。
What am I to do? Lose this little gem … for I'll be bold;
and that's what I think it … or go on with the rest; which I
don't believe in; and don't like; and which can never make
aught but a silly yarn? Make another end to it? Ah; yes;
but that's not the way I write; the whole tale is implied; I
never use an effect; when I can help it; unless it prepares
the effects that are to follow; that's what a story consists
in。 To make another end; that is to make the beginning all
wrong。 The denouement of a long story is nothing; it is just
a 'full close;' which you may approach and accompany as you
please … it is a coda; not an essential member in the rhythm;
but the body and end of a short story is bone of the bone and
blood of the blood of the beginning。 Well; I shall end by
finishing it against my judgment; that fragment is my
Delilah。 Golly; it's good。 I am not shining by modesty; but
I do just love the colour and movement of that piece so far
as it goes。
I was surprised to hear of your fishing。 And you saw the
'Pharos;' thrice fortunate man; I wish I dared go home; I
would ask the Commissioners to take me round for old sake's
sake; and see all my family pictures once more from the Mull
of Galloway to Unst。 However; all is arranged for our
meeting in Ceylon; except the date and the blooming pounds。
I have heard of an exquisite hotel in the country; airy;
large rooms; good cookery; not dear; we shall have a couple
of months there; if we can make it out; and converse or … as
my grandfather always said … 'commune。' 'Communings with Mr。
Kennedy as to Lighthouse Repairs。' He was a fine old fellow;
but a droll。
EVENING。
Lloyd has returned。 Peace and war were played before his
eyes at heads or tails。 A German was stopped with levelled
guns; he raised his whip; had it fallen; we might have been
now in war。 Excuses were made by Mataafa himself。 Doubtless
the thing was done … I mean the stopping of the German … a
little to show off before Lloyd。 Meanwhile … was up here;
telling how the Chief Justice was really gone for five or
eight weeks; and begging me to write to the TIMES and
denounce the state of affairs; many strong reasons he
advanced; and Lloyd and I have been since his arrival and …'s
departure; near half an hour; debating what should be done。
Cedarcrantz is gone; it is not my fault; he knows my views on
that point … alone of all points; … he leaves me with my
mouth sealed。 Yet this is a nice thing that because he is
guilty of a fresh offence … his flight … the mouth of the
only possible influential witness should be closed? I do not
like this argument。 I look like a cad; if I do in the man's
absence what I could have done in a more manly manner in his
presence。 True; but why did he go? It is his last sin。 And
I; who like the man extremely … that is the word … I love his
society … he is intelligent; pleasant; even witty; a
gentleman … and you know how that attaches … I loathe to seem
to play a base part; but the poor natives … who are like
other folk; false enough; lazy enough; not heroes; not saints
… ordinary men damnably misused … are they to suffer because
I like Cedarcrantz; and Cedarcrantz has cut his lucky? This
is a little tragedy; observe well … a tragedy! I may be
right; I may be wrong in my judgment; but I am in treaty with
my honour。 I know not how it will seem to…morrow。 Lloyd
thought the barrier of honour insurmountable; and it is an
ugly obstacle。 He (Cedarcrantz) will likely meet my wife
three days from now; may travel back with her; will be
charming if he does; suppose this; and suppose him to arrive
and find that I have sprung a mine … or the nearest approach
to it I could find … behind his back? My position is pretty。
Yes; I am an aristocrat。 I have the old petty; personal view
of honour? I should blush till I die if I do this; yet it is
on the cards that I may do it。 So much I have written you in
bed; as a man writes; or talks; in a BITTRE WAHL。 Now I
shall sleep; and see if I am more clear。 I will consult the
missionaries at least … I place some reliance in M。 also … or
I should if he were not a partisan; but a partisan he is。
There's the pity。 To sleep! A fund of wisdom in the
prostrate body and the fed brain。 Kindly observe R。 L。 S。 in
the talons of politics! 'Tis funny … 'tis sad。 Nobody but
these cursed idiots could have so driven me; I cannot bear
idiots。
My dear Colvin; I must go to sleep; it is long past ten … a
dreadful hour for me。 And here am I lingering (so I feel) in
the dining…room at the Monument; talking to you across the
table; both on our feet; and only the two stairs to mount;
and get to bed; and sleep; and be waked by dear old George …
to whom I wish my kindest remembrances … next morning。 I
look round; and there is my blue room; and my long lines of
shelves; and the door gaping on a moonless night; and no word
of S。 C。 but his twa portraits on the wall。 Good…bye; my
dear fellow; and goodnight。 Queer place the world!
MONDAY。
No clearness of mind with the morning; I have no guess what I
should do。 'Tis easy to say that the public duty should
brush aside these little considerations of personal dignity;
so it is that politicians begin; and in a month you find them
rat and flatter and intrigue with brows of brass。 I am
rather of the old view; that a man's first duty is to these
little laws; the big he does not; he never will; understand;
I may be wrong about the Chief Justice and the Baron and the
state of Samoa; I cannot be wrong about the vile attitude I
put myself in if I blow the gaff on Cedarcrantz behind his
back。
TUESDAY。
One more word about the South Seas; in answer to a question I
observe I have forgotten to answer。 The Tahiti part has
never turned up; because it has never been written。 As for
telling you where I went or when; or anything about Honolulu;
I would rather die; that is fair and plain。 How can anybody
care when or how I left Honolulu? A man of upwards of forty
cannot waste his time in communicating matter of that
indifference。 The letters; it appears; are tedious; they
would be more tedious still if I wasted my time upon such
infantile