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think it possible I overworked yesterday。 Well; we'll see
to…morrow … perhaps try again later。 It is indeed the hope
of trying later that keeps me writing to you。 If I take to
my pipe; I know myself … all is over for the morning。
Hurray; I'll correct proofs!
PAGO…PAGO; WEDNESDAY。
After I finished on Sunday I passed a miserable day; went out
weeding; but could not find peace。 I do not like to steal my
dinner; unless I have given myself a holiday in a canonical
manner; and weeding after all is only fun; the amount of its
utility small; and the thing capable of being done faster and
nearly as well by a hired boy。 In the evening Sewall came up
(American consul) and proposed to take me on a malaga; which
I accepted。 Monday I rode down to Apia; was nearly all day
fighting about drafts and money; the silver problem does not
touch you; but it is (in a strange and I hope passing phase)
making my situation difficult in Apia。 About eleven; the
flags were all half…masted; it was old Captain Hamilton
(Samesoni the natives called him) who had passed away。 In
the evening I walked round to the U。S。 Consulate; it was a
lovely night with a full moon; and as I got round to the hot
corner of Matautu I heard hymns in front。 The balcony of the
dead man's house was full of women singing; Mary (the widow;
a native) sat on a chair by the doorstep; and I was set
beside her on a bench; and next to Paul the carpenter; as I
sat down I had a glimpse of the old captain; who lay in a
sheet on his own table。 After the hymn was over; a native
pastor made a speech which lasted a long while; the light
poured out of the door and windows; the girls were sitting
clustered at my feet; it was choking hot。 After the speech
was ended; Mary carried me within; the captain's hands were
folded on his bosom; his face and head were composed; he
looked as if he might speak at any moment; I have never seen
this kind of waxwork so express or more venerable; and when I
went away; I was conscious of a certain envy for the man who
was out of the battle。 All night it ran in my head; and the
next day when we sighted Tutuila; and ran into this beautiful
land…locked loch of Pago Pago (whence I write); Captain
Hamilton's folded hands and quiet face said a great deal more
to me than the scenery。
I am living here in a trader's house; we have a good table;
Sewall doing things in style; and I hope to benefit by the
change; and possibly get more stuff for Letters。 In the
meanwhile; I am seized quite MAL…A…PROPOS with desire to
write a story; THE BLOODY WEDDING; founded on fact … very
possibly true; being an attempt to read a murder case … not
yet months old; in this very place and house where I now
write。 The indiscretion is what stops me; but if I keep on
feeling as I feel just now it will have to be written。 Three
Star Nettison; Kit Nettison; Field the Sailor; these are the
main characters: old Nettison; and the captain of the man of
war; the secondary。 Possible scenario。 Chapter I。。。。
CHAPTER VII
SATURDAY; APRIL 18TH。
MY DEAR COLVIN; … I got back on Monday night; after twenty…
three hours in an open boat; the keys were lost; the Consul
(who had promised us a bottle of Burgundy) nobly broke open
his store…room; and we got to bed about midnight。 Next
morning the blessed Consul promised us horses for the
daybreak; forgot all about it; worthy man; set us off at last
in the heat of the day; and by a short cut which caused
infinite trouble; and we were not home till dinner。 I was
extenuated; and have had a high fever since; or should have
been writing before。 To…day for the first time; I risk it。
Tuesday I was pretty bad; Wednesday had a fever to kill a
horse; Thursday I was better; but still out of ability to do
aught but read awful trash。 This is the time one misses
civilisation; I wished to send out for some police novels;
Montepin would have about suited my frozen brain。 It is a
bother when all one's thought turns on one's work in some
sense or other; could not even think yesterday; I took to
inventing dishes by way of entertainment。 Yesterday; while I
lay asleep in the afternoon; a very lucky thing happened; the
Chief Justice came to call; met one of our employes on the
road; and was shown what I had done to the road。
'Is this the road across the island?' he asked。
'The only one;' said Innes。
'And has one man done all this?'
'Three times;' said the trusty Innes。 'It has had to be made
three times; and when Mr。 Stevenson came; it was a track like
what you see beyond。'
'This must be put right;' said the Chief Justice。
SUNDAY。
The truth is; I broke down yesterday almost as soon as I
began; and have been surreptitiously finishing the entry to…
day。 For all that I was much better; ate all the time; and
had no fever。 The day was otherwise uneventful。 I am
reminded; I had another visitor on Friday; and Fanny and
Lloyd; as they returned from a forest raid; met in our
desert; untrodden road; first Father Didier; Keeper of the
conscience of Mataafa; the rising star; and next the Chief
justice; sole stay of Laupepa; the present and unsteady star;
and remember; a few days before we were close to the sick bed
and entertained by the amateur physician of Tamasese; the
late and sunken star。 'That is the fun of this place;'
observed Lloyd; 'everybody you meet is so important。'
Everybody is also so gloomy。 It will come to war again; is
the opinion of all the well informed … and before that to
many bankruptcies; and after that; as usual; to famine。
Here; under the microscope; we can see history at work。
WEDNESDAY。
I have been very neglectful。 A return to work; perhaps
premature; but necessary; has used up all my possible
energies and made me acquainted with the living headache。 I
just jot down some of the past notabilia。 Yesterday B。; a
carpenter; and K。; my (unsuccessful) white man; were absent
all morning from their work; I was working myself; where I
hear every sound with morbid certainty; and I can testify
that not a hammer fell。 Upon inquiry I found they had passed
the morning making ice with our ice machine and taking the
horizon with a spirit level! I had no sooner heard this than
… a violent headache set in; I am a real employer of labour
now; and have much of the ship captain when aroused; and if I
had a headache; I believe both these gentlemen had aching
hearts。 I promise you; the late … was to the front; and K。;
who was the most guilty; yet (in a sense) the least
blameable; having the brains and character of a canary…bird;
fared none the better for B。's repartees。 I hear them hard
at work this morning; so the menace may be blessed。 It was
just after my dinner; just before theirs; that I administered
my redoubtable tongue … it is really redoubtable … to these
skulkers (Paul used to triumph over Mr。 J。 for weeks。 'I am
very sorry for you;' he would say; 'you're going to have a
talk with Mr。 Stevenson when he comes home: you don't know
what that is!') In fact; none of them do; till they get it。
I have known K。; for instance; for months; he has never heard
me complain; or take notice; unless it were to praise; I have
used him always as my guest; and there seems to be something
in my appearance which suggests endless; ovine long…
suffering! We sat in the upper verandah all evening; and
discussed the price of iron roofing; and the state of the
draught…horses; with Innes; a new man we have taken; and who
seems to promise well。
One thing embarrasses me。 No one ever seems to understand my
attitude about that book; the stuff sent was never meant for
other than a first state; I never meant it to appear as a
book。 Knowing well that I have never had one hour of
inspiration since it was begun; and have only beaten out my
metal by brute force and patient repetition; I hoped some day
to get a 'spate of style' and burnish it … fine mixed
metaphor。 I am now so sick that I intend; when the Letters
are done and some more written that will be wanted; simply to
make a book of it by the pruning…knife。
I cannot fight longer; I am sensible of having done worse
than I hoped; worse than I feared; all I can do now is to do
the best I can for the future; and clear the book; like a
piece of bush; with axe and cutlass。 Even to produce the MS。
of this will occupy me; at the most favourable opinion; till
the middle of next year; really five years were wanting; when
I could have made a book; but I have a family; and … perhaps
I could not make the book after all。
CHAPTER VIII
APRIL 29TH; '91。
MY DEAR COLVIN; … I begin again。 I was awake this morning
about half…pas