the alkahest-第11节
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She kept silence; and hid the cruel struggle in her soul。 Her husband;
sole arbiter of the family fate; was the master by whose will it must
be guided; he was responsible to God only。 Besides; could she reproach
him for the use he now made of his fortune; after the
disinterestedness he had shown to her for many happy years? Was she to
judge his purposes? And yet her conscience; in keeping with the spirit
of the law; told her that parents were the depositaries and guardians
of property; and possessed no right to alienate the material welfare
of the children。 To escape replying to such stern questions she
preferred to shut her eyes; like one who refuses to see the abyss into
whose depths he knows he is about to fall。
For more than six months her husband had given her no money for the
household expenses。 She sold secretly; in Paris; the handsome diamond
ornaments her brother had given her on her marriage; and placed the
family on a footing of the strictest economy。 She sent away the
governess of her children; and even the nurse of little Jean。 Formerly
the luxury of carriages and horses was unknown among the burgher
families; so simple were they in their habits; so proud in their
feelings; no provision for that modern innovation had therefore been
made at the House of Claes; and Balthazar was obliged to have his
stable and coach…house in a building opposite to his own house: his
present occupations allowed him no time to superintend that portion of
his establishment; which belongs exclusively to men。 Madame Claes
suppressed the whole expense of equipages and servants; which her
present isolation from the world rendered unnecessary; and she did so
without pretending to conceal the retrenchment under any pretext。 So
far; facts had contradicted her assertions; and silence for the future
was more becoming: indeed the change in the family mode of living
called for no explanation in a country where; as in Flanders; any one
who lives up to his income is considered a madman。
And yet; as her eldest daughter; Marguerite; approached her sixteenth
birthday; Madame Claes longed to procure for her a good marriage; and
to place her in society in a manner suitable to a daughter of the
Molinas; the Van Ostron…Temnincks; and the Casa…Reals。 A few days
before the one on which this story opens; the money derived from the
sale of the diamonds had been exhausted。 On the very day; at three
o'clock in the afternoon; as Madame Claes was taking her children to
vespers; she met Pierquin; who was on his way to see her; and who
turned and accompanied her to the church; talking in a low voice of
her situation。
〃My dear cousin;〃 he said; 〃unless I fail in the friendship which
binds me to your family; I cannot conceal from you the peril of your
position; nor refrain from begging you to speak to your husband。 Who
but you can hold him back from the gulf into which he is plunging? The
rents from the mortgaged estates are not enough to pay the interest on
the sums he has borrowed。 If he cuts the wood on them he destroys your
last chance of safety in the future。 My cousin Balthazar owes at this
moment thirty thousand francs to the house of Protez and Chiffreville。
How can you pay them? What will you live on? If Claes persists in
sending for reagents; retorts; voltaic batteries; and other such
playthings; what will become of you? Your whole property; except the
house and furniture; has been dissipated in gas and carbon; yesterday
he talked of mortgaging the house; and in answer to a remark of mine;
he cried out; 'The devil!' It was the first sign of reason I have
known him show for three years。〃
Madame Claes pressed the notary's arm; and said in a tone of
suffering; 〃Keep it secret。〃
Overwhelmed by these plain words of startling clearness; the poor
woman; pious as she was; could not pray; she sat still on her chair
between her children; with her prayer…book open; but not turning its
leaves; her mind was sunk in meditations as absorbing as those of her
husband。 The Spanish sense of honor; the Flemish integrity; resounded
in her soul with a peal louder than any organ。 The ruin of her
children was accomplished! Between them and their father's honor she
must no longer hesitate。 The necessity of a coming struggle with her
husband terrified her; in her eyes he was so great; so majestic; that
the mere prospect of his anger made her tremble as at a vision of the
divine wrath。 She must now depart from the submission she had sacredly
practised as a wife。 The interests of her children compelled her to
oppose; in his most cherished tastes; the man she idolized。 Must she
not daily force him back to common matters from the higher realms of
Science; drag him forcibly from a smiling future and plunge him into a
materialism hideous to artists and great men? To her; Balthazar Claes
was a Titan of science; a man big with glory; he could only have
forgotten her for the riches of a mighty hope。 Then too; was he not
profoundly wise? she had heard him talk with such good sense on every
subject that he must be sincere when he declared he worked for the
glory and prosperity of his family。 His love for his wife and family
was not only vast; it was infinite。 That feeling could not be extinct;
it was magnified; and reproduced in another form。
Noble; generous; timid as she was; she prepared herself to ring into
the ears of this noble man the word and the sound of money; to show
him the sores of poverty; and force him to hear cries of distress when
he was listening only for the melodious voice of Fame。 Perhaps his
love for her would lessen! If she had had no children; she would
bravely and joyously have welcomed the new destiny her husband was
making for her。 Women who are brought up in opulence are quick to feel
the emptiness of material enjoyments; and when their hearts; more
wearied than withered; have once learned the happiness of a constant
interchange of real feelings; they feel no shrinking from reduced
outward circumstances; provided they are still acceptable to the man
who has loved them。 Their wishes; their pleasures; are subordinated to
the caprices of that other life outside of their own; to them the only
dreadful future is to lose him。
At this moment; therefore; her children came between Pepita and her
true life; just as Science had come between herself and Balthazar。 And
thus; when she reached home after vespers; and threw herself into the
deep armchair before the window of the parlor; she sent away her
children; directing them to keep perfectly quiet; and despatched a
message to her husband; through Lemulquinier; saying that she wished
to see him。 But although the old valet did his best to make his master
leave the laboratory; Balthazar scarcely heeded him。 Madame Claes thus
gained time for reflection。 She sat thinking; paying no attention to
the hour nor the light。 The thought of owing thirty thousand francs
that could not be paid renewed her past anguish and joined it to that
of the present and the future。 This influx of painful interests;
ideas; and feelings overcame her; and she wept。
As Balthazar entered at last through the panelled door; the expression
of his face seemed to her more dreadful; more absorbed; more
distracted than she had yet seen it。 When he made her no answer she
was magnetized for a moment by the fixity of that blank look emptied
of all expression; by the consuming ideas that issued as if distilled
from that bald brow。 Under the shock of this impression she wished to
die。 But when she heard the callous voice; uttering a scientific wish
at the moment when her heart was breaking; her courage came back to
her; she resolved to struggle with that awful power which had torn a
lover from her arms; a father from her children; a fortune from their
home; happiness from all。 And yet she could not repress a trepidation
which made her quiver; in all her life no such solemn scene as this
had taken place。 This dreadful momentdid it not virtually contain
her future; and gather within it all the past?
Weak and timid persons; or those whose excessive sensibility magnifies
the smallest difficulties of life; men who tremble involuntarily
before the masters of their fate; can now; one and all; conceive the
rush of thoughts that crowded into the brain of this woman; and the
feelings under the weight of which her heart was crushed as her
husband slowly crossed the room towards the garden…door。 Most women
know that agony of inward deliberation in which Madame Claes was
writhing。 Even one whose heart has been tried by nothing worse than
the declaration to a husband of some extravagance; or a debt to a
dress…maker; will understand how its pulses swell and quicken when the
matter is one of life itself。
A beautiful or graceful woman might have thrown herself at her
husband's feet; might have called to her aid the attitudes of grief;
but to Madame Claes the se