in the cage-第20节
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She was left confronted with her habitual critics。 〃'If it's wrong
it's all right!'〃 she extravagantly quoted to them。
The counter…clerk was really awe…stricken。 〃But how did you know;
dear?〃
〃I remembered; love!〃
Mr。 Buckton; on the contrary; was rude。 〃And what game is that;
miss?〃
No happiness she had ever known came within miles of it; and some
minutes elapsed before she could recall herself sufficiently to
reply that it was none of his business。
CHAPTER XXIV
If life at Cocker's; with the dreadful drop of August; had lost
something of its savour; she had not been slow to infer that a
heavier blight had fallen on the graceful industry of Mrs。 Jordan。
With Lord Rye and Lady Ventnor and Mrs。 Bubb all out of town; with
the blinds down on all the homes of luxury; this ingenious woman
might well have found her wonderful taste left quite on her hands。
She bore up; however; in a way that began by exciting much of her
young friend's esteem; they perhaps even more frequently met as the
wine of life flowed less free from other sources; and each; in the
lack of better diversion; carried on with more mystification for
the other an intercourse that consisted not a little in peeping out
and drawing back。 Each waited for the other to commit herself;
each profusely curtained for the other the limits of low horizons。
Mrs。 Jordan was indeed probably the more reckless skirmisher;
nothing could exceed her frequent incoherence unless it was indeed
her occasional bursts of confidence。 Her account of her private
affairs rose and fell like a flame in the windsometimes the
bravest bonfire and sometimes a handful of ashes。 This our young
woman took to be an effect of the position; at one moment and
another; of the famous door of the great world。 She had been
struck in one of her ha'penny volumes with the translation of a
French proverb according to which such a door; any door; had to be
either open or shut; and it seemed part of the precariousness of
Mrs。 Jordan's life that hers mostly managed to be neither。 There
had been occasions when it appeared to gape widefairly to woo her
across its threshold; there had been others; of an order distinctly
disconcerting; when it was all but banged in her face。 On the
whole; however; she had evidently not lost heart; these still
belonged to the class of things in spite of which she looked well。
She intimated that the profits of her trade had swollen so as to
float her through any state of the tide; and she had; besides this;
a hundred profundities and explanations。
She rose superior; above all; on the happy fact that there were
always gentlemen in town and that gentlemen were her greatest
admirers; gentlemen from the City in especialas to whom she was
full of information about the passion and pride excited in such
breasts by the elements of her charming commerce。 The City men did
in short go in for flowers。 There was a certain type of awfully
smart stockbrokerLord Rye called them Jews and bounders; but she
didn't carewhose extravagance; she more than once threw out; had
really; if one had any conscience; to be forcibly restrained。 It
was not perhaps a pure love of beauty: it was a matter of vanity
and a sign of business; they wished to crush their rivals; and that
was one of their weapons。 Mrs。 Jordan's shrewdness was extreme;
she knew in any case her customershe dealt; as she said; with all
sorts; and it was at the worst a race for hera race even in the
dull monthsfrom one set of chambers to another。 And then; after
all; there were also still the ladies; the ladies of stockbroking
circles were perpetually up and down。 They were not quite perhaps
Mrs。 Bubb or Lady Ventnor; but you couldn't tell the difference
unless you quarrelled with them; and then you knew it only by their
making…up sooner。 These ladies formed the branch of her subject on
which she most swayed in the breeze; to that degree that her
confidant had ended with an inference or two tending to banish
regret for opportunities not embraced。 There were indeed tea…gowns
that Mrs。 Jordan describedbut tea…gowns were not the whole of
respectability; and it was odd that a clergyman's widow should
sometimes speak as if she almost thought so。 She came back; it was
true; unfailingly to Lord Rye; never; evidently; quite losing sight
of him even on the longest excursions。 That he was kindness itself
had become in fact the very moral it all pointedpointed in
strange flashes of the poor woman's nearsighted eyes。 She launched
at her young friend portentous looks; solemn heralds of some
extraordinary communication。 The communication itself; from week
to week; hung fire; but it was to the facts over which it hovered
that she owed her power of going on。 〃They are; in one way and
another;〃 she often emphasised; 〃a tower of strength〃; and as the
allusion was to the aristocracy the girl could quite wonder why; if
they were so in 〃one way;〃 they should require to be so in two。
She thoroughly knew; however; how many ways Mrs。 Jordan counted in。
It all meant simply that her fate was pressing her close。 If that
fate was to be sealed at the matrimonial altar it was perhaps not
remarkable that she shouldn't come all at once to the scratch of
overwhelming a mere telegraphist。 It would necessarily present to
such a person a prospect of regretful sacrifice。 Lord Ryeif it
WAS Lord Ryewouldn't be 〃kind〃 to a nonentity of that sort; even
though people quite as good had been。
One Sunday afternoon in November they went; by arrangement; to
church together; after whichon the inspiration of the moment the
arrangement had not included itthey proceeded to Mrs。 Jordan's
lodging in the region of Maida Vale。 She had raved to her friend
about her service of predilection; she was excessively 〃high;〃 and
had more than once wished to introduce the girl to the same comfort
and privilege。 There was a thick brown fog and Maida Vale tasted
of acrid smoke; but they had been sitting among chants and incense
and wonderful music; during which; though the effect of such things
on her mind was great; our young lady had indulged in a series of
reflexions but indirectly related to them。 One of these was the
result of Mrs。 Jordan's having said to her on the way; and with a
certain fine significance; that Lord Rye had been for some time in
town。 She had spoken as if it were a circumstance to which little
required to be addedas if the bearing of such an item on her life
might easily be grasped。 Perhaps it was the wonder of whether Lord
Rye wished to marry her that made her guest; with thoughts straying
to that quarter; quite determine that some other nuptials also
should take place at Saint Julian's。 Mr。 Mudge was still an
attendant at his Wesleyan chapel; but this was the least of her
worriesit had never even vexed her enough for her to so much as
name it to Mrs。 Jordan。 Mr。 Mudge's form of worship was one of
several thingsthey made up in superiority and beauty for what
they wanted in numberthat she had long ago settled he should take
from her; and she had now moreover for the first time definitely
established her own。 Its principal feature was that it was to be
the same as that of Mrs。 Jordan and Lord Rye; which was indeed very
much what she said to her hostess as they sat together later on。
The brown fog was in this hostess's little parlour; where it acted
as a postponement of the question of there being; besides; anything
else than the teacups and a pewter pot and a very black little fire
and a paraffin lamp without a shade。 There was at any rate no sign
of a flower; it was not for herself Mrs。 Jordan gathered sweets。
The girl waited till they had had a cup of teawaited for the
announcement that she fairly believed her friend had; this time;
possessed herself of her formally at last to make; but nothing
came; after the interval; save a little poke at the fire; which was
like the clearing of a throat for a speech。
CHAPTER XXV
〃I think you must have heard me speak of Mr。 Drake?〃 Mrs。 Jordan
had never looked so queer; nor her smile so suggestive of a large
benevolent bite。
〃Mr。 Drake? Oh yes; isn't he a friend of Lord Rye?〃
〃A great and trusted friend。 AlmostI may saya loved friend。〃
Mrs。 Jordan's 〃almost〃 had such an oddity that her companion was
moved; rather flippantly perhaps; to take it up。 〃Don't people as
good as love their friends when they I trust them?〃
It pulled up a little the eulogist of Mr。 Drake。 〃Well; my dear; I
love YOU〃
〃But you don't trust me?〃 the girl unmercifully asked。
Again Mrs。 Jordan pausedstill she looked queer。 〃Yes;〃 she
replied with a certain austerity; 〃that's exactly what I'm about to
give you rather a remarkable proof of。〃 The sense of its being
remarkable was already so strong that; while she bridled a little;
this held her