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one from another: but Henri was really its head。 Having heard that a

quarrel had arisen between his brother and his mother; he wrote to Frédéric

in reprimand; gently scolding him and begging him to set matters right;

〃even if all the wrongs were not on his side。〃



〃My father; in one of his letters; complains that in spite of your nearness

you have not yet been to see them。 I know very well there is some reason

for sulking; but what matter? Give it up: forget everything; do your best

to put an end to all these petty and ugly estrangements。 You will do so;

won't you? I count on it; for the happiness of all。〃 (2/11。)



He was their arbitrator; their adviser; their oracle; their bond of union。



With all this; he was ready to attempt the two examinations which were to

decide his future。 Very shortly; at Montpellier; he passed almost

successively; at an interval of only a few months the examinations for both

his baccalauréats; and then the two licentiate examinations in mathematics

and physical science。



While he was ardently studying for these examinations; sorrow for the first

time knocked at his door。 His first…born fell suddenly ill; and in a few

days died。 On this occasion all his ardent spirituality asserted itself;

though in stricken accents; in the letter which he wrote to his brother to

announce his loss: 



〃After a few days of a marked improvement; which made me think he was

saved; two large teeth were cut。。。and in three days a dreadful fever took

him; not from us; who will follow him; but from this miserable world。 Ah;

poor child; I shall always see you as you were during those last moments;

turning those wide; wandering eyes toward heaven; seeking the way to your

new country。 With a heart full of tears; I shall often let my thoughts go

straying after you; but alas! with the eyes of the body I shall never see

you again。 I shall see you no more: yet only a few days ago I was making

the finest plans for you。 I used to work for you only; in my studies I

thought only of you。 Grow up; I used to say; and I will pour into your mind

all the knowledge which has cost me so dear; which I am hoarding little by

little。。。But reflection leads me to higher thoughts。 I choke back the tears

in my heart; and I congratulate him that Heaven has mercifully spared him

this life of trials。。。My poor child。。。you will never; like your father;

have to struggle against poverty and misfortune; you will never know the

bitterness of life; and the difficulties of creating a position at a time

when there are so many paths that lead to failure。。。I weep for you because

we have lost you; but I rejoice because you are happy。。。You are happy; and

this is not the mad hope of a father broken by sorrow; no; your last glance

told me so; too eloquently for me to doubt it。 Oh; how beautiful you were

in your mortal pallor; the last sigh on your lips; your gaze upon heaven;

and your soul ready to fly into the bosom of God! Your last day was the

most beautiful!〃 (2/12。)



Although study was his refuge; although he was thereby able to live through

these evil days without too greatly feeling their weight; his position was

hateful; and he lived a wretched life 〃from one day to another; like a

beggar。〃



In those troublous times; when education was of no account; it often

happened that his teacher's salary was several months in arrears; and the

city of Carpentras; 〃not being in funds;〃 paid it only by instalments; and

even so kept him a long time waiting。 〃One has to besiege the paymaster's

door merely to obtain a trifle on account。 I am ashamed of the whole

business; and I would gladly abandon my claim if I knew where to raise any

money。〃 (2/13。)



The genius of Balzac has recorded some unforgettable types of those poor

and notable lives; at once so humble and so lofty。 He has described the

village curé and the country doctor。 But how we should have loved to

encounter in his gallery; among so many living portraits; a picture of the

university life of fifty years ago; and above all a picture of the small

schoolmaster of other days; living a life so narrow; so slavish; so

painful; and yet so full of worth; so imbued with the sense of duty; and

withal so resigned; a portrait for which Fabre might have served as model

and prototype; and for which he himself has drawn an unforgettable sketch。



He awaited impatiently the news of his removal; very modestly limiting his

ambitions to the hope of entering some lycée as professor of the sciences。

His rector was not unnaturally astonished that a young man of such unusual

worth; already twice a licentiate; should be so little appreciated by those

in high places and allowed to stagnate so long in an inferior post; and one

unworthy of him。



In the end; however; after much patient waiting; he became indignant; as

always; he could see nothing ahead。 The chair of mathematics at Tournon

escaped him。 Another position; at Avignon; also 〃slipped through his

fingers〃; why or how he never knew。 He 〃began to see clearly what life is;

and how difficult it is to make one's mark amid all this army of schemers;

beggars and imbeciles who besiege every vacant post。〃



But his heart was 〃none the less hot with indignation〃; he had had enough

of 〃Carpentras; that accursed little hole〃; and when the vacations came

round once more he 〃plainly considered the question〃 and declared 〃that he

would never again set foot inside a communal school。〃 (2/14。)



He wrote to the rector: 〃If instead of crushing me into the narrow round of

a primary school they would give me some employment of the kind for which

my studies and ideas fit me; they would know then what is hatching in my

head and what untirable activity there is in me。〃 (2/15。)



He resigned himself nevertheless; he cursed and swore and stormed at his

fate; but he had once more to put up with it 〃for want of a better。〃 All

the same 〃the injustice was too unheard…of; and no one had ever seen or

would ever see the like: to give him two licentiate's diplomas; and to make

him conjugate verbs for a pack of brats! It was too much!〃 (2/16。)





CHAPTER 3。 CORSICA。



At last the chair of physics fell vacant at the college of Ajaccio; the

salary being 72 pounds sterling; and he left for Corsica。 His stay there

was well calculated to impress him。 There the intense impressionability

which the little peasant of Aveyron received at birth could only be

confirmed and increased。 He felt that this superb and luxuriant nature was

made for him; and that he was born for it; to understand and interpret it。

He would lose himself in a delicious intoxication; amid the deep woodlands;

the mountains rich with scented flowers; wandering through the maquis; the

myrtle scrub; through jungles of lentisk and arbutus; barely containing his

emotion when he passed beneath the great secular chestnut…trees of

Bastelica; with their enormous trunks and leafy boughs; whose sombre

majesty inspired in him a sort of melancholy at once poetic and religious。

Before the sea; with its infinite distances; he lingered in ecstasy;

listening to the song of the waves; and gathering the marvellous shells

which the snow…white breakers left upon the beach; and whose unfamiliar

forms filled him with delight。



He was soon so accustomed to his new life in peaceful Ajaccio; whose

surroundings; decked in eternal verdure; are so captivating and so

beautiful; that in spite of a vague desire for change he now dreaded to

leave it。 He never wearied of admiring and exalting the beautiful and

majestic aspects of his new home。 How he longed to share his enthusiasm

with his father or his brother; as he rambled through the neighbouring

maquis!



〃The infinite; glittering sea at my feet; the dreadful masses of granite

overhead; the white; dainty town seated beside the water; the endless

jungles of myrtle; which yield intoxicating perfumes; the wastes of

brushwood which the ploughshare has never turned; which cover the mountains

from base to summit; the fishing…boats that plough the gulf: all this forms

a prospect so magnificent; so striking; that whosoever has beheld it must

always long to see it again。〃 (3/1。)



〃What is their rock of Pierrelatte; that enormous block of stone which

overhangs the place where they dwell; a reef which rises from the surface

of the ancient sea of alluvium; compared with these blocks of uprooted

granite which lie upon the hillsides here?〃



And what were the Aubrac hills which traversed his native country; what was

the Ventoux even; that famous Alp; 〃beside the peaks which rise about the

gulf of Ajaccio; always crowned with clouds and whitened with snow; even

when the soil of the plains is scorching and rings like a fired brick?〃



Time did nothing to abate these first impressions; and after more than a

year on the island he was still full of wonder 〃at the sight of these

granite crests; corroded by the severities of the cli

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