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〃Oh；　I　cannot　see！　　I　cannot　see！　　Where　am　I？〃　she　cried。



When　Gregory　reached　her　she　had　fallen　with　her　face　against　the　sharp

foot　of　the　wardrobe　and　cut　her　forehead。　　Very　tenderly　he　raised　the

little　crushed　heap　of　muslin　and　ribbons；　and　laid　it　on　the　bed。　　Doss

climbed　up；　and　sat　looking　down　at　it。　　Very　softly　Gregory's　hands

disrobed　her。



〃You　will　be　stronger　tomorrow；　and　then　we　shall　try　again；〃　he　said；　but

she　neither　looked　at　him　nor　stirred。



When　he　had　undressed　her；　and　laid　her　in　bed；　Doss　stretched　himself

across　her　feet　and　lay　whining　softly。



So　she　lay　all　that　morning；　and　all　that　afternoon。



Again　and　again　Gregory　crept　close　to　the　bedside　and　looked　at　her；　but

she　did　not　speak　to　him。　　Was　it　stupor　or　was　it　sleep　that　shone　under

those　half…closed　eyelids。　　Gregory　could　not　tell。



At　last　in　the　evening　he　bent　over　her。



〃The　oxen　have　come；〃　he　said；　〃we　can　start　tomorrow　if　you　like。　　Shall　I

get　the　wagon　ready　tonight？〃



Twice　he　repeated　his　question。　　Then　she　looked　up　at　him；　and　Gregory　saw

that　all　hope　had　died　out　of　the　beautiful　eyes。　　It　was　not　stupor　that

shone　there；　it　was　despair。



〃Yes；　let　us　go；〃　she　said。



〃It　makes　no　difference；〃　said　the　doctor；　〃staying　or　going；　it　is　close

now。〃



So　the　next　day　Gregory　carried　her　out　in　his　arms　to　the　wagon　which

stood　inspanned　before　the　door。　　As　he　laid　her　down　on　the　kartel　she

looked　far　out　across　the　plain。　　For　the　first　time　she　spoke　that　day。



〃That　blue　mountain；　far　away；　let　us　stop　when　we　get　to　it；　not　before。〃　

She　closed　her　eyes　again。　　He　drew　the　sails　down　before　and　behind；　and

the　wagon　rolled　away　slowly。　　The　landlady　and　the　niggers　stood　to　watch

it　from　the　stoep。



Very　silently　the　great　wagon　rolled　along　the　grass…covered　plain。　　The

driver　on　the　front　box　did　not　clap　his　whip　or　call　to　his　oxen；　and

Gregory　sat　beside　him　with　folded　arms。　　Behind　them；　in　the　closed　wagon；

she　lay　with　the　dog　at　her　feet；　very　quiet；　with　folded　hands。　　He；

Gregory；　dared　not　be　in　there。　　Like　Hagar；　when　she　laid　her　treasure

down　in　the　wilderness；　he　sat　afar　off：〃For　Hagar　said；　Let　me　not　see

the　death　of　the　child。〃



Evening　came；　and　yet　the　blue　mountain　was　not　reached；　and　all　the　next

day　they　rode　on　slowly；　but　still　it　was　far　off。　　Only　at　evening　they

reached　it；　not　blue　now；　but　low　and　brown；　covered　with　long　waving

grasses　and　rough　stones。　　They　drew　the　wagon　up　close　to　its　foot　for　the

night。　　It　was　a　sheltered；　warm　spot。



When　the　dark　night　had　come；　when　the　tired　oxen　were　tied　to　the　wheels；

and　the　driver　and　leader　had　rolled　themselves　in　their　blankets　before

the　fire；　and　gone　to　sleep；　then　Gregory　fastened　down　the　sails　of　the

wagon　securely。　　He　fixed　a　long　candle　near　the　head　of　the　bed；　and　lay

down　himself　on　the　floor　of　the　wagon　near　the　back。　　He　leaned　his　head

against　the　kartel；　and　listened　to　the　chewing　of　the　tired　oxen；　and　to

the　crackling　of　the　fire；　till；　overpowered　by　weariness；　he　fell　into　a

heavy　sleep。　　Then　all　was　very　still　in　the　wagon。　　The　dog　slept　on　his

mistress'　feet；　and　only　two　mosquitoes；　creeping　in　through　a　gap　in　the

front　sail；　buzzed　drearily　round。



The　night　was　grown　very　old　when　from　a　long；　peaceful　sleep　Lyndall

awoke。　　The　candle　burnt　at　her　head；　the　dog　lay　on　her　feet；　but　he

shivered；　it　seemed　as　though　a　coldness　struck　up　to　him　from　his　resting…

place。　　She　lay　with　folded　hands；　looking　upward；　and　she　heard　the　oxen

chewing；　and　she　saw　the　two　mosquitoes　buzzing　drearily　round　and　round；

and　her　thoughtsher　thoughts　ran　far　back　into　the　past。



Through　these　months　of　anguish　a　mist　had　rested　on　her　mind；　it　was

rolled　together　now；　and　the　old　clear　intellect　awoke　from　its　long

torpor。　　It　looked　back　into　the　past；　it　saw　the　present；　there　was　no

future　now。　　The　old　strong　soul　gathered　itself　together　for　the　last

time；　it　knew　where　it　stood。



Slowly　raising　herself　on　her　elbow；　she　took　from　the　sail　a　glass　that

hung　pinned　there。　　Her　fingers　were　stiff　and　cold。　　She　put　the　pillow　on

her　breast；　and　stood　the　glass　against　it。　　Then　the　white　face　on　the

pillow　looked　into　the　white　face　in　the　glass。　　They　had　looked　at　each

other　often　so　before。　　It　had　been　a　child's　face　once；　looking　out　above

its　blue　pinafore；　it　had　been　a　woman's　face；　with　a　dim　shadow　in　the

eyes；　and　a　something　which　had　said；　〃We　are　not　afraid；　you　and　I；　we　are

together；　we　will　fight；　you　and　I。〃　　Now　tonight　it　had　come　to　this。



The　dying　eyes　on　the　pillow　looked　into　the　dying　eyes　in　the　glass；　they

knew　that　their　hour　had　come。　　She　raised　one　hand　and　pressed　the　stiff

fingers　against　the　glass。　　They　were　growing　very　stiff。　　She　tried　to

speak　to　it；　but　she　would　never　speak　again。　　Only　the　wonderful　yearning

light　was　in　the　eyes　still。　　The　body　was　dead　now；　but　the　soul；　clear

and　unclouded；　looked　forth。



Then　slowly；　without　a　sound；　the　beautiful　eyes　closed。　　The　dead　face

that　the　glass　reflected　was　a　thing　of　marvelous　beauty　and　tranquillity。

The　Grey　Dawn　crept　in　over　it　and　saw　it　lying　there。



Had　she　found　what　she　sought　forsomething　to　worship？　　Had　she　ceased

from　being？　　Who　shall　tell　us？　　There　is　a　veil　of　terrible　mist　over　the

face　of　the　Hereafter。





Chapter　2。XIII。　　Dreams。



〃Tell　me　what　a　soul　desires；　and　I　will　tell　you　what　it　is。〃　　So　runs　the

phrase。



〃Tell　me　what　a　man　dreams；　and　I　will　tell　you　what　he　loves。〃　　That　also

has　its　truth。



For；　ever　from　the　earliest　childhood　to　the　latest　age；　day　by　day；　and

step　by　step；　the　busy　waking　life　is　followed　and　reflected　by　the　life　of

dreamswaking　dreams；　sleeping　dreams。　　Weird；　misty；　and　distorted　as　the

inverted　image　of　a　mirage；　or　a　figure　seen　through　the　mountain　mist；

they　are　still　the　reflections　of　a　reality。



On　the　night　when　Gregory　told　his　story　Waldo　sat　alone　before　the　fire；

his　untasted　supper　before　him。　　He　was　weary　after　his　day's　worktoo

weary　to　eat。　　He　put　the　plate　down　on　the　floor　for　Doss；　who　licked　it

clean；　and　then　went　back　to　his　corner。　　After　a　time　the　master　threw

himself　across　the　foot　of　the　bed　without　undressing；　and　fell　asleep

there。　　He　slept　so　long　that　the　candle　burnt　itself　out；　and　the　room　was

in　darkness。　　But　he　dreamed　a　lovely　dream　as　he　lay　there。



In　his　dream；　to　his　right　rose　high　mountains；　their　tops　crowned　with

snow；　their　sides　clothed　with　bush　and　bathed　in　the　sunshine。　　At　their

feet　was　the　sea；　blue　and　breezy；　bluer　than　any　earthly　sea；　like　the　sea

he　had　dreamed　of　in　his　boyhood。　　In　the　narrow　forest　that　ran　between

the　mountains　and　the　sea　the　air　was　rich　that　the　scent　of　the　honey…

creeper　that　hung　from　dark　green　bushes；　and　through　the　velvety　grass

little　streams　ran　purling　down　into　the　sea。



He　sat　on　a　high　square　rock　among　the　bushes；　and　Lyndall　sat　by　him　and

sang　to　him。　　She　was　only　a　small　child；　with　a　blue　pinafore；　and　a

grave；　grave；　little　face。　　He　was　looking　up　at　the　mountains；　then

suddenly　when　he　looked　round　she　was　gone。　　He　slipped　down　from　his　rock；

and　went　to　look　for　her；　but　he　found　only　her　little　footmarks；　he　found

them　on　the　bright　green　grass；　and　in　the　moist　sand；　and　there　where　the

little　streams　ran　purling　down　into　the　sea。　　In　and　out；　in　and　out；　and

among　the　bushes　where　the　honey…creeper　hung；　he　went　looking　for　her。　　At

last；　far　off；　in　the　sunshine；　he　saw　her　gathering　shells　upon　the　sand。

She　was　not　a　child　now；　but　a　woman；　and　the　sun　shone　on　her　soft　brown

hair；　and　in　her　white　dress　she　put　the　shells　she　gathered。　　She　was

stooping；　but　when　she　heard　his　step　she　stood　up；　holding　her　skirt　close

about　her；　and　waited　for　his　coming。　　One　hand　she　put　in　his；　and

together　they　walked　on　over　the　glittering　sand　and　pink　sea…shells；　and

they　heard　the　leaves　talking；　and　they　heard　the　waters　babbling　on　their

way　to　the　sea；　and　they　heard　the　sea　singing　to　itself；　singing；　singing。



At　last　they　came　to　a　place　where　was　a　long　reach　of　pure　white　sand；

there　she　stood　still；　and　dropped　on　to　the　sand　one　by　one　the　shells

that　she　had　gathered。　　Then　she　looked　up　into　his　face　with　her　beautiful

eyes。　　She　said　nothing；　but　she　lifted　one　hand　and　laid　it　softly　on　his

forehead；　the　other　she　laid　on　his　heart。



With　a　cry　of　suppressed　agony　Waldo　sprung　from　the　bed；　flung　open　the

upper　half　of　the　door；　and　leaned　out；　breathing　heavily。



Great　God！　it　might　be　only　a　dream；　but　the　pain　was　very　real；　as　though

a　knife　ran　through　his　heart；　as　though　some　treacherous　murderer　crept　on

him　in　the　dark！　　The　strong　man　drew　his　breath　like　a　frightened　woman。



〃Only　a　dream；　but　the　pain　was　very　real；〃　he　muttered；　as　he　pressed