the lesson of the master-第6节
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Our hero gave him up; feeling a little injured; a little wounded;
at this loss of twenty coveted words。 He wasn't angry; but he
puffed his cigarette sighingly; with the sense of something rare
possibly missed。 He wandered away with his regret and moved slowly
round the room; looking at the old prints on the walls。 In this
attitude he presently felt a hand on his shoulder and a friendly
voice in his ear 〃This is good。 I hoped I should find you。 I came
down on purpose。〃 St。 George was there without a change of dress
and with a fine face … his graver one … to which our young man all
in a flutter responded。 He explained that it was only for the
Master … the idea of a little talk … that he had sat up; and that;
not finding him; he had been on the point of going to bed。
〃Well; you know; I don't smoke … my wife doesn't let me;〃 said St。
George; looking for a place to sit down。 〃It's very good for me …
very good for me。 Let us take that sofa。〃
〃Do you mean smoking's good for you?〃
〃No no … her not letting me。 It's a great thing to have a wife
who's so sure of all the things one can do without。 One might
never find them out one's self。 She doesn't allow me to touch a
cigarette。〃 They took possession of a sofa at a distance from the
group of smokers; and St。 George went on: 〃Have you got one
yourself?〃
〃Do you mean a cigarette?〃
〃Dear no … a wife。〃
〃No; and yet I'd give up my cigarette for one。〃
〃You'd give up a good deal more than that;〃 St。 George returned。
〃However; you'd get a great deal in return。 There's a something to
be said for wives;〃 he added; folding his arms and crossing his
outstretched legs。 He declined tobacco altogether and sat there
without returning fire。 His companion stopped smoking; touched by
his courtesy; and after all they were out of the fumes; their sofa
was in a far…away corner。 It would have been a mistake; St。 George
went on; a great mistake for them to have separated without a
little chat; 〃for I know all about you;〃 he said; 〃I know you're
very remarkable。 You've written a very distinguished book。〃
〃And how do you know it?〃 Paul asked。
〃Why; my dear fellow; it's in the air; it's in the papers; it's
everywhere。〃 St。 George spoke with the immediate familiarity of a
confrere … a tone that seemed to his neighbour the very rustle of
the laurel。 〃You're on all men's lips and; what's better; on all
women's。 And I've just been reading your book。〃
〃Just? You hadn't read it this afternoon;〃 said Overt。
〃How do you know that?〃
〃I think you should know how I know it;〃 the young man laughed。
〃I suppose Miss Fancourt told you。〃
〃No indeed … she led me rather to suppose you had。〃
〃Yes … that's much more what she'd do。 Doesn't she shed a rosy
glow over life? But you didn't believe her?〃 asked St。 George。
〃No; not when you came to us there。〃
〃Did I pretend? did I pretend badly?〃 But without waiting for an
answer to this St。 George went on: 〃You ought always to believe
such a girl as that … always; always。 Some women are meant to be
taken with allowances and reserves; but you must take HER just as
she is。〃
〃I like her very much;〃 said Paul Overt。
Something in his tone appeared to excite on his companion's part a
momentary sense of the absurd; perhaps it was the air of
deliberation attending this judgement。 St。 George broke into a
laugh to reply。 〃It's the best thing you can do with her。 She's a
rare young lady! In point of fact; however; I confess I hadn't
read you this afternoon。〃
〃Then you see how right I was in this particular case not to
believe Miss Fancourt。〃
〃How right? how can I agree to that when I lost credit by it?〃
〃Do you wish to pass exactly for what she represents you?
Certainly you needn't be afraid;〃 Paul said。
〃Ah; my dear young man; don't talk about passing … for the likes of
me! I'm passing away … nothing else than that。 She has a better
use for her young imagination (isn't it fine?) than in
'representing' in any way such a weary wasted used…up animal!〃 The
Master spoke with a sudden sadness that produced a protest on
Paul's part; but before the protest could be uttered he went on;
reverting to the latter's striking novel: 〃I had no idea you were
so good … one hears of so many things。 But you're surprisingly
good。〃
〃I'm going to be surprisingly better;〃 Overt made bold to reply。
〃I see that; and it's what fetches me。 I don't see so much else …
as one looks about … that's going to be surprisingly better。
They're going to be consistently worse … most of the things。 It's
so much easier to be worse … heaven knows I've found it so。 I'm
not in a great glow; you know; about what's breaking out all over
the place。 But you MUST be better … you really must keep it up。 I
haven't of course。 It's very difficult … that's the devil of the
whole thing; keeping it up。 But I see you'll be able to。 It will
be a great disgrace if you don't。〃
〃It's very interesting to hear you speak of yourself; but I don't
know what you mean by your allusions to your having fallen off;〃
Paul Overt observed with pardonable hypocrisy。 He liked his
companion so much now that the fact of any decline of talent or of
care had ceased for the moment to be vivid to him。
〃Don't say that … don't say that;〃 St。 George returned gravely; his
head resting on the top of the sofa…back and his eyes on the
ceiling。 〃You know perfectly what I mean。 I haven't read twenty
pages of your book without seeing that you can't help it。〃
〃You make me very miserable;〃 Paul ecstatically breathed。
〃I'm glad of that; for it may serve as a kind of warning。 Shocking
enough it must be; especially to a young fresh mind; full of faith
… the spectacle of a man meant for better things sunk at my age in
such dishonour。〃 St。 George; in the same contemplative attitude;
spoke softly but deliberately; and without perceptible emotion。
His tone indeed suggested an impersonal lucidity that was
practically cruel … cruel to himself … and made his young friend
lay an argumentative hand on his arm。 But he went on while his
eyes seemed to follow the graces of the eighteenth…century ceiling:
〃Look at me well; take my lesson to heart … for it IS a lesson。
Let that good come of it at least that you shudder with your
pitiful impression; and that this may help to keep you straight in
the future。 Don't become in your old age what I have in mine … the
depressing; the deplorable illustration of the worship of false
gods!〃
〃What do you mean by your old age?〃 the young man asked。
〃It has made me old。 But I like your youth。〃
Paul answered nothing … they sat for a minute in silence。 They
heard the others going on about the governmental majority。 Then
〃What do you mean by false gods?〃 he enquired。
His companion had no difficulty whatever in saying; 〃The idols of
the market; money and luxury and 'the world;' placing one's
children and dressing one's wife; everything that drives one to the
short and easy way。 Ah the vile things they make one do!〃
〃But surely one's right to want to place one's children。〃
〃One has no business to have any children;〃 St。 George placidly
declared。 〃I mean of course if one wants to do anything good。〃
〃But aren't they an inspiration … an incentive?〃
〃An incentive to damnation; artistically speaking。〃
〃You touch on very deep things … things I should like to discuss
with you;〃 Paul said。 〃I should like you to tell me volumes about
yourself。 This is a great feast for ME!〃
〃Of course it is; cruel youth。 But to show you I'm still not
incapable; degraded as I am; of an act of faith; I'll tie my vanity
to the stake for you and burn it to ashes。 You must come and see
me … you must come and see us;〃 the Master quickly substituted。
〃Mrs。 St。 George is charming; I don't know whether you've had any
opportunity to talk with her。 She'll be delighted to see you; she
likes great celebrities; whether incipient or predominant。 You
must come and dine … my wife will write to you。 Where are you to
be found?〃
〃This is my little address〃 … and Overt drew out his pocketbook and
extracted a visiting…card。 On second thoughts; however; he kept it
back; remarking that he wouldn't trouble his friend to take charge
of it but would come and see him straightway in London and leave it
at his door if he should fail to obtain entrance。
〃Ah you'll probably fail; my wife's always out … or when she isn't
out is knocked up from having been out。 You must come and dine …
though that won't do much good either; for my wife insists on big
dinners。〃 St。 George turned it over further; but then went on:
〃You must come down and see us in the country; that's the best way;
we've plenty of room; and it isn't bad。〃
〃You've a house in the country?〃 Paul asked enviously。
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