father goriot(高老头)-第32节
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〃But what is the matter？〃
〃You are the very last person whom I should tell；〃 she exclaimed。
〃Then I am connected in some way in this secret。 I wonder what it is？〃
〃Perhaps。 Yet； no；〃 she went on； 〃it is a domestic quarrel； which ought to be buried in the depths of the heart。 I am very unhappy； did I not tell you so the day before yesterday？ Golden chains are the heaviest of all fetters。〃
When a woman tells a young man that she is very unhappy； and when the young man is clever； and well dressed； and has fifteen hundred francs lying idle in his pocket； he is sure to think as Eugene said； and he becomes a coxcomb。
〃What can you have left to wish for？〃 he answered。 〃You are young； beautiful； beloved； and rich。〃
〃Do not let us talk of my affairs；〃 she said shaking her head mournfully。 〃We will dine together tete…a…tete； and afterwards we will go to hear the most exquisite music。 Am I to your taste？〃 she went on； rising and displaying her gown of white cashmere； covered with Persian designs in the most superb taste。
〃I wish that you were altogether mine；〃 said Eugene； 〃you are charming。〃
〃You would have a forlorn piece of property；〃 she said； smiling bitterly。 〃There is nothing about me that betrays my wretchedness； and yet； in spite of appearances； I am in despair。 I cannot sleep； my troubles have broken my night's rest； I shall grow ugly。〃
〃Oh！ that is impossible；〃 cried the law student； 〃but I am curious to know what these troubles can be that a devoted love cannot efface。〃
〃Ah！ if I were to tell you about them； you would shun me；〃 she said。 〃Your love for me is as yet only the conventional gallantry that men use to masquerade in； and； if you really loved me； you would be driven to despair。 I must keep silence； you see。 Let us talk of something else； for pity's sake；〃 she added。 〃Let me show you my rooms。〃
〃No； let us stay here；〃 answered Eugene； he sat down on the sofa before the fire； and boldly took Mme。 de Nucingen's hand in his。 She surrendered it to him； he even felt the pressure of her fingers in one of the spasmodic clutches that betray terrible agitation。
〃Listen；〃 said Rastignac； 〃if you are in trouble； you ought to tell me about it。 I want to prove to you that I love you for yourself alone。 You must speak to me frankly about your troubles； so that I can put an end to them； even if I have to kill half…a… dozen men； or I shall go； never to return。〃
〃Very well；〃 she cried； putting her hand to her forehead in an agony of despair； 〃I will put you to the proof； and this very moment。 Yes；〃 she said to herself； 〃I have no other resource left。〃
She rang the bell。
〃Are the horses put in for the master？〃 she asked of the servant。
〃Yes； madame。〃
〃I shall take his carriage myself。 He can have mine and my horses。 Serve dinner at seven o'clock。〃
〃Now； come with me；〃 she said to Eugene； who thought as he sat in the banker's carriage beside Mme。 de Nucingen that he must surely be dreaming。
〃To the Palais…Royal；〃 she said to the coachman； 〃stop near the Theatre…Francais。〃
She seemed to be too troubled and excited to answer the innumerable questions that Eugene put to her。 He was at a loss what to think of her mute resistance； her obstinate silence。
〃Another moment and she will escape me；〃 he said to himself。
When the carriage stopped at last； the Baroness gave the law student a glance that silenced his wild words； for he was almost beside himself。
〃Is it true that you love me？〃 she asked。
〃Yes；〃 he answered； and in his manner and tone there was no trace of the uneasiness that he felt。
〃You will not think ill of me； will you； whatever I may ask of you？〃
〃No。〃
〃Are you ready to do my bidding？〃
〃Blindly。〃
〃Have you ever been to a gaming…house？〃 she asked in a tremulous voice。
〃Never。〃
〃Ah！ now I can breathe。 You will have luck。 Here is my purse；〃 she said。 〃Take it！ there are a hundred francs in it； all that such a fortunate woman as I can call her own。 Go up into one of the gaming…housesI do not know where they are； but there are some near the Palais…Royal。 Try your luck with the hundred francs at a game they call roulette； lose it all or bring me back six thousand francs。 I will tell you about my troubles when you come back。〃
〃Devil take me； I'm sure； if I have a glimmer of a notion of what I am about； but I will obey you；〃 he added； with inward exultation； as he thought； 〃She has gone too far to draw back she can refuse me nothing now！〃
Eugene took the dainty little purse； inquired the way of a second…hand clothes…dealer； and hurried to number 9； which happened to be the nearest gaming…house。 He mounted the staircase； surrendered his hat； and asked the way to the roulette…table； whither the attendant took him； not a little to the astonishment of the regular comers。 All eyes were fixed on Eugene as he asked； without bashfulness； where he was to deposit his stakes。
〃If you put a louis on one only of those thirty…six numbers； and it turns up； you will win thirty…six louis；〃 said a respectable… looking； white…haired old man in answer to his inquiry。
Eugene staked the whole of his money on the number 21 （his own age）。 There was a cry of surprise； before he knew what he had done； he had won。
〃Take your money off； sir；〃 said the old gentleman； 〃you don't often win twice running by that system。〃
Eugene took the rake that the old man handed to him； and drew in his three thousand six hundred francs； and； still perfectly ignorant of what he was about； staked again on the red。 The bystanders watched him enviously as they saw him continue to play。 The disc turned； and again he won； the banker threw him three thousand six hundred francs once more。
〃You have seven thousand； two hundred francs of your own；〃 the old gentleman said in his ear。 〃Take my advice and go away with your winnings； red has turned up eight times already。 If you are charitable； you will show your gratitude for sound counsel by giving a trifle to an old prefect of Napoleon who is down on his luck。〃
Rastignac's head was swimming； he saw ten of his louis pass into the white…haired man's possession； and went down…stairs with his seven thousand francs； he was still ignorant of the game； and stupefied by his luck。
〃So； that is over； and now where will you take me？〃 he asked； as soon as the door was closed； and he showed the seven thousand francs to Mme。 de Nucingen。
Delphine flung her arms about him； but there was no passion in that wild embrace。
〃You have saved me！〃 she cried； and tears of joy flowed fast。
〃I will tell you everything； my friend。 For you will be my friend； will you not？ I am rich； you think； very rich； I have everything I want； or I seem as if I had everything。 Very well； you must know that M。 de Nucingen does not allow me the control of a single penny； he pays all the bills for the house expenses； he pays for my carriages and opera box； he does not give me enough to pay for my dress； and he reduces me to poverty in secret on purpose。 I am too proud to beg from him。 I should be the vilest of women if I could take his money at the price at which he offers it。 Do you ask how I； with seven hundred thousand francs of my own； could let myself be robbed？ It is because I was proud； and scorned to speak。 We are so young； so artless when our married life begins！ I never could bring myself to ask my husband for money； the words would have made my lips bleed； I did not dare to ask； I spent my savings first； and then the money that my poor father gave me； then I ran into debt。 Marriage for me is a hideous farce； I cannot talk about it； let it suffice to say that Nucingen and I have separate rooms； and that I would fling myself out of the window sooner than consent to any other manner of life。 I suffered agonies when I had to confess to my girlish extravagance； my debts for jewelry and trifles （for our poor father had never refused us anything； and spoiled us）； but at last I found courage to tell him about them。 After all； I had a fortune of my own。 Nucingen flew into a rage； he said that I should be the ruin of him； and used frightful language！ I wished myself a hundred feet down in the earth。 He had my dowry； so he paid my debts； but he stipulated at the same time that my expenses in future must not exceed a certain fixed sum； and I gave way for the sake of peace。 And then；〃 she went on； 〃I wanted to gratify the self…love of some one whom you know。 He may have deceived me； but I should do him the justice to say that there was nothing petty in his character。 But； after all； he threw me over disgracefully。 If； at a woman's utmost need； SOMEBODY heaps gold upon her； he ought never to forsake her； that love should last for ever！ But you； at one…and…twenty； you； the soul of honor； with the unsullied conscience of youth； will ask me how a woman can bring herself to accept money in such a way？ MON DIEU！ is it not natural to share everything with the one to whom we owe our happiness？ When all has been given； why should we pause and hesitate over a part？ Money is as nothing between us until the moment when the sentiment that bound us together ceases to exist。 Were we not bound to each other for life？ Who that believes in love foresees such an end to love？ You swear to love
