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me recall to youbut the task must be briefthe odd and wayward fates of my youth； and the misfortunes or my manhood。
〃The former； you will say； had nothing very appalling。 All was not for the best； but all was tolerable。 My father； the eldest son of an ancient but reduced family； left me with little； save the name of the head of the house； to the protection of his more fortunate brothers。 They were so fond of me that they almost quarrelled about me。 My uncle； the bishop； would have had me in orders； and offered me a livingmy uncle； the merchant； would have put me into a counting…house； and proposed to give me a share in the thriving concern of Mannering and Marshall； in Lombard' StreetSo； between these two stools； or rather these two soft； easy； well…stuffed chairs of divinity and commerce； my unfortunate person slipped down； and pitched upon a dragoon saddle。 Again； the bishop wished me to marry the niece and heiress of the Dean of Lincoln； and my uncle； the alderman； proposed to me the only daughter of old Sloethorn； the great wine…merchant； rich enough to play at span…counters with moidores； and make thread…papers of bank notesand somehow I slipped my neck out of both nooses； and marriedpoorpoor Sophia Wellwood。
〃You will say； my military career in India； when I followed my regiment there； should have given me some satisfaction； and so it assuredly has。 You will remind me also； that if I disappointed the hopes of my guardians； I did not incur their displeaslurethat the bishop； at his death； bequeathed me his blessing； his manuscript sermons； and a curious portfolio； containing the heads of eminent divines of the Church of England； and that my uncle； Sir Paul Mannering； left me sole heir and executor to his large fortune。
〃Yet this availeth me nothingI told you I had that upon my mind which I should carry to my grave with me； a perpetual aloes in the draught of existence。 I will tell you the cause more in detail than I had the heart to do while under your hospitable roof。 You will often hear it mentioned； and perhaps with different and unfounded circumstances。 I will； therefore； speak it out； and then let the event itself； and the sentiments of melancholy with which it has impressed me； never again be subject of discussion between us。
〃Sophia； as you well know； followed me to India。 She was as innocent as gay； but； unfortunately for us both； as gay as innocent。 My own manners were partly formed by studies I had forsaken； and habits of seclusion； not quite consistent with my situation as commandant of a regiment in a country； where universal hospitality is offered and expected by every settler claiming the rank of a gentleman。 In a moment of peculiar pressure （you know how hard we were sometimes run to obtain white faces to countenance our line…of…battle）； a young man； named Brown； joined our regiment as a volunteer； and finding the military duty more to his fancy than commerce； in which he had been engaged； remained with us as a cadet。 Let me do my unhappy victim justicehe behaved with such gallantry on every occasion that offered； that the first vacant commission was considered as his due。 I was absent for some weeks upon a distant expedition； when I returned； I found this young fellow established quite as the friend of the house； and habitual attendant of my wife and daughter。 It was an arrangement which displeased me in many particulars； though no objection could be made to his manners or characterYet I might have been reconciled to his familiarity in my family； but for the suggestions of another。 If you read overwhat I never dare openthe play of Othello； you will have some idea of what followedI mean of my motivesmy actions； thank God！ were less reprehensible。 There was another cadet ambitious of the vacant situation。 He called my attention to what he led me to term coquetry between my wife and this young man。 Sophia was virtuous； but proud of her virtue； and； irritated by my jealousy； she was so imprudent as to press and encourage an intimacy which she saw I disapproved and regarded with suspicion。 Between Brown and me there existed a sort of internal dislike。 He made an effort or two to overcome my prejudice； but； prepossessed as I was； I placed them to a wrong motive。 Feeling himself repulsed； and with scorn； he desisted； and as he was without family and friends； he was naturally more watchful of the deportment of one who had both。
〃It is odd with what torture I write this letter； I feel inclined； nevertheless； to protract the operation； just as if my doing so could put off the catastrophe which has so long embittered my life。 Butit must he told； and it shall be told briefly。
〃My wife； though no longer young； was still eminently handsome； andlet me say thus far in my own justificationshe was fond of being thought soI am repeating what I said beforeIn a word； of her virtue I never entertained a doubt； but； pushed by the artful suggestions of Archer； I thought she cared little for my peace of mind； and that the young fellow； Brown； paid his attentions in my despite； and in defiance of me。 He perhaps considered me； on his part； as an oppressive aristocratic man； who made my rank in society； and in the army； the means of galling those whom circumstances placed beneath me。 And if he discovered my silly jealousy； he probably considered the fretting me in that sore point of my character； as one means of avenging the petty indignities to which I had it in my power to subject him。 Yet an acute friend of mine gave a more harmless； or at least a less offensive； construction to his attentions； which he conceived to be meant for my daughter Julia； though immediately addressed to propitiate the influence of her mother。 This could have been no very flattering or pleasing enterprise on the part of an obscure and nameless young man； but I should not have been offended at this folly； as I was at the higher degree of presumption I suspected。 Offended； however； I was； and in a mortal degree。
〃A very slight spark will kindle a flame where everything lies open to catch it。 I have absolutely forgot the proximate cause of quarrel； but it was some trifle which occurred at the card…table； which occasioned high words and a challenge。 We met in the morning beyond the walls and esplanade of the fortress which I then commanded； on the frontiers of the settlement。 This was arranged for Brown's safety； had he escaped。 I almost wish he had； though at my own expense but he fell by the first fire。 We strove to assist him but some of these Loolies； a species of native banditti who were always on the watch for prey； poured in upon us。 Archer and I gained our horses with difficulty； and cut our way through them after a hard conflict； in the course of which he received some desperate wounds。 To complete the misfortunes of this miserable day； my wife； who suspected the design with which I left the fortress； had ordered her palanquin to follow me； and was alarmed and almost made prisoner by another troop of these plunderers。 She was quickly released by a party of our cavalry； but I cannot disguise from myself； that the incidents of this fatal morning gave a severe shock to health already delicate。 The confession of Archer； who thought himself dying； that he had invented some circumstances； and； for his purposes； put the worst construction upon others； and the full explanation and exchange of forgiveness with me which this produced； could not check the progress of her disorder。 She died within about eight months after this incident； bequeathing me only the girl； of whom Mrs。 Mervyn is so good as to undertake the temporary charge。 Julia was also extremely ill； so much so； that I was induced to throw up my command and return to Europe； where her native air； time； and the novelty of the scenes around her； have contributed to dissipate her dejection； and restore her health。
〃Now that you know my story； you will no longer ask me the reason of my melancholy； but permit me to brood upon it as I may。 There is； surely； in the above narrative； enough to embitter； though not to poison； the chalice； which the fortune and fame you so often mention had prepared to regale my years of retirement。
〃I could add circumstances which our old tutor would have quoted as instances of day fatality；you would laugh were I to mention such particulars； especially as you know I put no faith in them。 Yet； since I have come to the very house from which I now write； I have learned a singular coincidence； which； if I find it truly established by tolerable evidence； will serve us hereafter for subject of curious discussion。 But I will spare you at present； as I expect a person to speak about a purchase of property now open in this part of the country。 It is a place to which I have a foolish partiality； and I hope my purchasing may be convenient to those who are parting with it； as there is a plan for buying it under the value。 My respectful compliments to Mrs。 Mervyn； and I will trust you； though you boast to be so lively a young gentleman； to kiss Julia for me。
〃Adieu； dear Mervyn。
Mr。 Mac…Morlan now entered the room。 The well…known character of Colonel Mannering at once disposed this gentleman； who was a man of intelligence and probity； to be open and confidential。 He e
