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give up so many of the comforts of life。 I answered that I was very
sure I liked it passably well; I was not joking。 And so I went home
to my bed; and left him to pick his way through the darkness and the
mud to Brighton or Bright…town which place he would reach some
time in the morning。
Any prospect of awakening or coming to life to a dead man makes
indifferent all times and places。 The place where that may occur is
always the same; and indescribably pleasant to all our senses。 For
the most part we allow only outlying and transient circumstances to
make our occasions。 They are; in fact; the cause of our
distraction。 Nearest to all things is that power which fashions
their being。 Next to us the grandest laws are continually being
executed。 Next to us is not the workman whom we have hired; with
whom we love so well to talk; but the workman whose work we are。
〃How vast and profound is the influence of the subtile powers of
Heaven and of Earth!〃
〃We seek to perceive them; and we do not see them; we seek to
hear them; and we do not hear them; identified with the substance of
things; they cannot be separated from them。〃
〃They cause that in all the universe men purify and sanctify
their hearts; and clothe themselves in their holiday garments to
offer sacrifices and oblations to their ancestors。 It is an ocean
of subtile intelligences。 They are everywhere; above us; on our
left; on our right; they environ us on all sides。〃
We are the subjects of an experiment which is not a little
interesting to me。 Can we not do without the society of our gossips
a little while under these circumstances have our own thoughts to
cheer us? Confucius says truly; 〃Virtue does not remain as an
abandoned orphan; it must of necessity have neighbors。〃
With thinking we may be beside ourselves in a sane sense。 By a
conscious effort of the mind we can stand aloof from actions and
their consequences; and all things; good and bad; go by us like a
torrent。 We are not wholly involved in Nature。 I may be either the
driftwood in the stream; or Indra in the sky looking down on it。 I
may be affected by a theatrical exhibition; on the other hand; I may
not be affected by an actual event which appears to concern me much
more。 I only know myself as a human entity; the scene; so to speak;
of thoughts and affections; and am sensible of a certain doubleness
by which I can stand as remote from myself as from another。 However
intense my experience; I am conscious of the presence and criticism
of a part of me; which; as it were; is not a part of me; but
spectator; sharing no experience; but taking note of it; and that is
no more I than it is you。 When the play; it may be the tragedy; of
life is over; the spectator goes his way。 It was a kind of fiction;
a work of the imagination only; so far as he was concerned。 This
doubleness may easily make us poor neighbors and friends sometimes。
I find it wholesome to be alone the greater part of the time。
To be in company; even with the best; is soon wearisome and
dissipating。 I love to be alone。 I never found the companion that
was so companionable as solitude。 We are for the most part more
lonely when we go abroad among men than when we stay in our
chambers。 A man thinking or working is always alone; let him be
where he will。 Solitude is not measured by the miles of space that
intervene between a man and his fellows。 The really diligent
student in one of the crowded hives of Cambridge College is as
solitary as a dervish in the desert。 The farmer can work alone in
the field or the woods all day; hoeing or chopping; and not feel
lonesome; because he is employed; but when he comes home at night he
cannot sit down in a room alone; at the mercy of his thoughts; but
must be where he can 〃see the folks;〃 and recreate; and; as he
thinks; remunerate himself for his day's solitude; and hence he
wonders how the student can sit alone in the house all night and
most of the day without ennui and 〃the blues〃; but he does not
realize that the student; though in the house; is still at work in
his field; and chopping in his woods; as the farmer in his; and in
turn seeks the same recreation and society that the latter does;
though it may be a more condensed form of it。
Society is commonly too cheap。 We meet at very short intervals;
not having had time to acquire any new value for each other。 We
meet at meals three times a day; and give each other a new taste of
that old musty cheese that we are。 We have had to agree on a
certain set of rules; called etiquette and politeness; to make this
frequent meeting tolerable and that we need not come to open war。
We meet at the post…office; and at the sociable; and about the
fireside every night; we live thick and are in each other's way; and
stumble over one another; and I think that we thus lose some respect
for one another。 Certainly less frequency would suffice for all
important and hearty communications。 Consider the girls in a
factory never alone; hardly in their dreams。 It would be better
if there were but one inhabitant to a square mile; as where I live。
The value of a man is not in his skin; that we should touch him。
I have heard of a man lost in the woods and dying of famine and
exhaustion at the foot of a tree; whose loneliness was relieved by
the grotesque visions with which; owing to bodily weakness; his
diseased imagination surrounded him; and which he believed to be
real。 So also; owing to bodily and mental health and strength; we
may be continually cheered by a like but more normal and natural
society; and come to know that we are never alone。
I have a great deal of company in my house; especially in the
morning; when nobody calls。 Let me suggest a few comparisons; that
some one may convey an idea of my situation。 I am no more lonely
than the loon in the pond that laughs so loud; or than Walden Pond
itself。 What company has that lonely lake; I pray? And yet it has
not the blue devils; but the blue angels in it; in the azure tint of
its waters。 The sun is alone; except in thick weather; when there
sometimes appear to be two; but one is a mock sun。 God is alone
but the devil; he is far from being alone; he sees a great deal of
company; he is legion。 I am no more lonely than a single mullein or
dandelion in a pasture; or a bean leaf; or sorrel; or a horse…fly;
or a bumblebee。 I am no more lonely than the Mill Brook; or a
weathercock; or the north star; or the south wind; or an April
shower; or a January thaw; or the first spider in a new house。
I have occasional visits in the long winter evenings; when the
snow falls fast and the wind howls in the wood; from an old settler
and original proprietor; who is reported to have dug Walden Pond;
and stoned it; and fringed it with pine woods; who tells me stories
of old time and of new eternity; and between us we manage to pass a
cheerful evening with social mirth and pleasant views of things;
even without apples or cider a most wise and humorous friend;
whom I love much; who keeps himself more secret than ever did Goffe
or Whalley; and though he is thought to be dead; none can show where
he is buried。 An elderly dame; too; dwells in my neighborhood;
invisible to most persons; in whose odorous herb garden I love to
stroll sometimes; gathering simples and listening to her fables; for
she has a genius of unequalled fertility; and her memory runs back
farther than mythology; and she can tell me the original of every
fable; and on what fact every one is founded; for the incidents
occurred when she was young。 A ruddy and lusty old dame; who
delights in all weathers and seasons; and is likely to outlive all
her children yet。
The indescribable innocence and beneficence of Nature of sun
and wind and rain; of summer and winter such health; such cheer;
they afford forever! and such sympathy have they ever with our race;
that all Nature would be affected; and the sun's brightness fade;
and the winds would sigh humanely; and the clouds rain tears; and
the woods shed their leaves and put on mourning in midsummer; if any
man should ever for a just cause grieve。 Shall I not have
intelligence with the earth? Am I not partly leaves and vegetable
mould myself?
What is the pill which will keep us well; serene; contented?
Not my or thy great…grandfather's; but our great…grandmother
Nature's universal; vegetable; botanic medicines; by which she has
kept herself young always; outlived so many old Parrs in her day;
and fed her health with their decaying fatness。 For my panacea;
instead of one of those quack vials of a mixture dipped from Acheron
and the Dead Sea; which come out of those long shallow
black…schooner looking wagons which we sometimes see made to carry
bottles; let me have a draught of undiluted morning air。 Morning
air! If men will not drink of this at the fountainh