the captives-第95节
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years； a horror of being what she called 〃overlooked。〃
She had a habit of stopping； when she had climbed halfway upstairs； of suddenly jerking her head round to see whether any one were looking at her。 You would have sworn； had you seen her； that she was deeply engaged upon some nefarious and underhand plot； yet it was not so…she was simply going to dust some of her hideous china treasures in her bedroom。
Always after breakfast there was this pleasant ritual。 She would plod all round the house； duster in hand； picking things up。 giving them a little flick and putting them back again； patting treasures that she especially loved； sighing heavily with satisfaction at the pleasant sight of all her possessions tranquilly in their right places。 As she looked around the ugly sitting…room and saw the red glazed pots with the ferns； the faded football…groups； the worsted mats and the china shepherdesses； a rich warm feeling rose in her heart and filled her whole body。 It was like a fine meal to a hungry man： every morning at half…past nine she was hungry in this fashion； and every morning by eleven o'clock she was satisfied。 Her thick body thus promenaded the house； she was like a stolid policeman in female attire； going his rounds to see that all was well。 From room to room she went； pausing to pant for breath on the stairs； stumbling always because of her short sight at the three dark little steps just outside Paul's bedroom； always sitting down on her bed 〃to take a breath〃 and to get a full gaze at the crucifix of bright yellow wood； that hung just under her mother's picture。 Tramp； tramp； tramp round the house she went。
It was incredible how deeply Maggie had interfered with this ritual。 She had certainly not intended to do so。 After that first effort to change certain things in the house she had retired from the battle； had completely capitulated。 Nevertheless she had interfered with all Grace's movements and； as the terror of her grew； it seemed to pervade every nook and corner of the house； so that Grace felt that she could go nowhere without that invasion。 Oh； how she resented it； and how afraid she was！ After Paul and Maggie returned from that summer holiday she saw that Paul too felt Maggie's strangeness。 To Grace； from the beginning of that autumn； every movement and gesture of Maggie's was strange。 The oddity of her appearance； her ignorance of everything that seemed to Grace to be life； her strange； half… mocking； half…wondering attitude to the Church and its affairs （〃like a heathen in Central Africa〃）； her dislike of the Maxses and the Pynsents and her liking for the Toms and Caroline Purdie； her odd silences and still odder speeches； all these things increased the atmosphere that separated her from the rest of the world。
Then came the day when Grace； dusting in Maggie's bedroom； discovered the bundle of letters。 She read them； read them with shame at her own dishonesty and anger at Maggie for making her dishonest。 To her virgin ignorance the passion in them spoke of illicit love and the grossest immorality。 Her heart burnt with a strange mingling of envy； jealousy； loneliness； shame； and eagerness to know more 。 。 。
Then came Uncle Mathew's visit； then Caroline Purdie's disgrace。 The count was fully charged。 Maggie； that strange girl found in the heart of London's darkness； alone； without friends or parents； was a witch； a devilish； potion…dealing witch； who might； at any time； fly through the night…sky on a broom…stick as surely as any mediaeval old hag。 These visions might be exaggerated for many human beings； not so for Grace。 Having no imagination she was soaked in superstition。 She clung to a few simple pictures； and was exposed to every terror that those pictures could supply。
Maggie now haunted her day and night。 Everywhere she could feel Maggie's eyes piercing her。 A thousand times an hour she looked up to see whether Maggie were not there in the room watching her。 She hated her now with terror that was partly fear for her own safety； partly love and jealousy for Paul； partly outraged modesty and tradition； partly sheer panic。
She had； as yet； said very little to Paul。 She waited the right moment。 Maggie's absence showed her how deep and devastating this fear had been。 She saw that it embraced the whole life of Paul and herself in Skeaton。 She had grown fond of Skeaton； she was a woman who would inevitably care for anything when she had become thoroughly accustomed to its ways and was assured that it would do her no harm。
She liked the shops and the woods； the sand and the sea。 Above all； she adored the Church。 During a large part of every day she was there； pottering about； talking to the caretaker； poking her nose into the hymn…books to see whether the choir…boys had drawn pictures in them； rubbing the brasses； making tidy the vestry。 The house too she loved； and the garden and the bottles on the wall。 She might have known that she was not popular in the place； she cannot have failed to realise that she had no woman friend and that she was seldom invited to dinner。 This did not matter to her。 Her affectionsand they were very real and genuinewere all for her brother。 Had she Paul she wanted no one else。 That was enough。
And now it might be that they would have to leave the place。 Already the talk about Maggie was intolerable。 Grace heard it on every side。 After Mathew Cardinal's visit the talk rose to a shriek。 Grace knew that those sudden silences on her entrance into the room meant lively and excited discussion。 〃How terrible for the poor rector！〃 〃Such an odd girltaken out of the slums。〃 〃Yes； quite drunk。 He knocked Mrs。 Maxse down。〃 〃Oh I assure you that she went to see Caroline Purdie the very day after。 She did indeed 。 。 。〃
Yes。 Grace knew all about it。 Unless things changed Paul would have to go。 His life was ruined by this girl。
Nevertheless for a whole happy week the world seemed to sink back into its old accustomed apathy。 The very house seemed to take on its old atmosphere。 Paul came out of his study and went about paying calls。 That hour； from six to seven； when he was at home to his parishioners seemed once again to be crowded with anxious old women and men out of work and girls in trouble。 He took Grace with him on his rounds。 Every one was very friendly。 Grace was able to reassume some of her old importance。
Her old flow of conversationchecked recently by the sense of Maggie's strangenessreturned to her。 In the morning she would stand by her brother's study…table； duster in hand； and pour out her heart。
〃You know； Paul； it's all very well； you may say what you like； but if Mrs。 Maxse thinks she's going to have the whole of that second pew she's mistaken。 It's only for a week or two that she's got the Broadbents staying with her； and I know what she's after。 Just fancy！ What she wants is to put the Broadbents in that second seat the two Sundays they're here and then stick to it after they're gone。 Just fancy what Miss Beats and Miss Hopwood will feel about it！ What I mean is that they've had that seat for nearly eight years and now to be turned out！ But I assure you； Paul； from what Linda Maxse said to me yesterday I believe she intends that； I do indeed。 She thinks Miss Beats and Miss Hopwood will get used to sitting somewhere else after two Sundays。 'I'm sure they won't mindpoor old things；' she said only yesterday。 'Poor old things。' Just fancy！ Why； Mary Beats is very little older than I。 You'll have to put your foot down about it； you will； indeed； Paul。 Yes； you will。 Give Linda Maxse an inch and she takes a mile； I always saidand this is just the kind of thing 。 。 。〃
So happily Grace ran on and Paul looked up from his desk at her； digging his fingers into his white hair； smiling at her in just the old confidential way that he used to have before Maggie came。
She revived； too； her old habit of talking to herself。 This had always been an immense relief to herit had helped her to feel reassurance。 Lately she had felt that Maggie was overhearing her and was laughing at her； this had checked her and made her suspicious。 Now as she began to mount the stairs she would murmur to herself： 〃It might be better to tell Jenny to go to Bartletts。 After all； it's quicker that way； and she'll be able to tell the boy to bring the things back。 She needn't wait。 All the same she's stupid； she'll make a muddle of it as likely as not。 And Womball's boy is livelier than Bartletts'。 That's something after all。 But if she goes out at two…thirty she'll never be back by fourunless she went by Smith's lane of courseshe might do that 。 。 。 Oh； dear； these stairs are a trial 。 。 。 yes； she might do that； and then she'd only be an hour altogether。 I'll suggest that 。 。 。〃
Her murmur was a cheerful monotonous sound accompanying her as she went。 She would stop and rub the side of her nose with her thumb； considering。 In the house； when there was no fear of callers； she wore large loose slippers that tap…tapped as she went。 In the evenings she sat in Paul's study all amongst the Cornhills； The Temple Bars； and The Bible Concordances。 They were very cosy and happy； and she talked incessantly。 For some reason she did not dare to ask him whether he were not happier now that Maggie was
