the captives-第7节
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us misdemeanours。
Brother and sister shook hands； and Maggie； as she watched them； was surprised to feel within herself a certain sympathy with her uncle。 Aunt Anne's greeting was gentle and kind but infinitely distant； and had something of the tenderness with which the Pope washes the feet of the beggars in Rome。
〃I'm so glad that you were here；〃 she said in her soft voice。 〃It must have been such a comfort to Maggie。〃
〃He has been； indeed； Aunt Anne；〃 Maggie broke in eagerly。
Her uncle looked at her with great surprise； after his behaviour of last night he had not expected this。 Reassured； he began a voluble explanation of his movements and plans； rubbing his hands together and turning one boot against the other。
He had a great deal to say； because he had seen neither of his sisters for a very long time。 Then he wished to make a good impression because Maggie； the heiress； would be of importance now。 What an idiot he had been last night。 What had he done？ He could remember nothing。 It was evident that it had been nothing very bad Maggie bore him no grudgegood girl； Maggie。 He felt affectionate towards her and would have told her so had her aunt not been present。 These thoughts underlay his rambling history。 He was aware suddenly that his audience was inattentive。 He saw； indeed； that his sister was standing with her back half…turned； gazing on to the shining country beyond the window。 He ceased abruptly； gave his niece a wink； and when this was unsuccessful； muttering a few words； stumbled out of the room。
The whole village attended the funeral； not because it liked the Rev。 Charles； but because it liked funerals。 Maggie was； in all probability； the only person present who thought very deeply about the late Vicar of St。 Dreot's。 The Rev。 Tom Trefusis who conducted the ceremony was a large red…faced man who had played Rugby football for his University and spent most of his energy over the development of cricket and football clubs up and down the county。 He could not be expected to have cared very greatly for the Rev。 Charles； who had been at no period of his life and in no possible sense of the word a sportsman。 As he conducted the service his mind speculated as to the next vicar （the Rev。 Tom knew an excellent fellow； stroke of the Cambridge boat in '12； who would be just the man） the possibility of the frost breaking in time for the inter…county Rugby match at Truxe； the immediate return of his wife from London （he was very fond of his wife）； and； lastly； a certain cramp in the stomach that sometimes 〃bowled him over〃 and of which the taking of a funeral 〃here to…day and gone to…morrow〃always reminded him。
〃Wonder how long I'll last；〃 he thought as he stood over the grave of the Rev。 Charles and let his eyes wander over the little white gravestones that ran almost into the dark wall of St。 Dreot Woods as though they were trying to hide themselves。 〃Wish the frost 'ud breakground'll be as hard as nails。〃 The soil fell； thump； thump upon the coffin。 Rooks cawed in the trees； the bell tolled its cracked note。 The Rev。 Charles was crammed down with the soil by the eager spades of the sexton and his friend； who were cold and wanted a drink。
Maggie； meanwhile； watched the final disappearance of her father with an ever…growing remorse。 Ever since her declaration to her uncle during their walk yesterday this new picture of her father had grown before her eyes。 She had already forgotten many； many things that might now have made her resentful or at least critical。 She saw him as a figure most disastrously misunderstood。 Without any sentimentality in her vision she saw him lonely； proud； reserved； longing for her sympathy which she denied him。 His greed for money she saw suddenly as a determination that his daughter should not be left in want。 All those years he had striven and his apparent harshness； sharpness； unkindness had been that he might pursue his great object。
She did not cry （some of the villagers curiously watching her thought her a hard…hearted little thing）； but her heart was full of tenderness as she stood there； seeing the humped grey church that was part of her life； the green mounds with no name； the dark wood； the grey roofs of the village clustered below the hill； hearing the bell； the rooks； the healthy voice of Mr。 Trefusis； the bark of some distant dog； the creak of some distant wheel。
〃I missed my chance；〃 she thought。 〃If only now I could have told him！〃
Her aunt stood at her side and once again Maggie felt irritation at her composure。 〃After all； he was her brother；〃 she thought。 She remembered the feeling and passion with which her aunt had repeated the Twenty…third Psalm。 She was puzzled。
A moment of shrinking came upon her as she thought of the coming London life。
Then the service was over。 The villagers； with that inevitable disappointment that always lingers after a funeral； went to their homes。 The children remained until night； under the illusion that it was Sunday。
Maggie spent the rest of the day； for the most part； alone in her room and thinking of her father。 Her bedroom； an attic with a sloping roof； contained all her worldly possessions。 In part because she had always been so reserved a child； in part because there had been no one in whom she might confide even had she wished it； she had always placed an intensity of feeling around and about the few things that were hers。 Her library was very small； but this did not distress her because she had never cared for reading。 Upon the little hanging shelf above her bed （deal wood painted white； with blue cornflowers） were The Heir of Redclyffe； a shabby blue…covered copy； Ministering Children； Madame How and Lady Why； The Imitation of Christ； Robinson Crusoe； Mrs。 Beeton's Cookery Book； The Holy Bible； and The Poems of Longfellow。 These had been given her upon various Christmasses and birthdays。 She did not care for any of them except The Imitation of Christ and Robinson Crusoe。 The Bible was spoilt for her by incessant services and Sunday School classes； The Heir of Redclyffe and Ministering Children she found absurdly sentimental and unlike any life that she had ever known； Mrs。 Beeton she had never opened； and Longfellow and Kingsley's Natural History she found dull。 For Robinson Crusoe she had the intense human sympathy that all lonely people feel for that masterpiece。 The Imitation pleased her by what she would have called its common sense。 Such a passage； for example： 〃Oftentimes something lurketh within； or else occurreth from without； which draweth us after it。 Many secretly seek themselves in what they do； and know it not。〃
〃They seem also to live in good peace of mind； when things are done according to their will and opinion； but if things happen otherwise than they desire； they are straightway moved and much vexed。〃
And behind this common sense she did seem to be directly in touch with some one whom she might find had she more time and friends to advise her。 She was conscious in her lonely hours； that nothing gave her such a feeling of company as did this little battered red book； and she felt that that friendliness might one day advance to some greater intimacy。 About these things she was intensely reserved and she spoke of them to no human being。
Even for the books for whose contents she did not care she had a kindly feeling。 So often had they looked down upon her when she sat there exasperated； angry at her own tears； rebellious； after some scene with her father。 No other place but this room had seen these old agonies of hers。 She would be sorry after all to leave it。
There were not many things beside the books。 Two bowls of blue Glebeshire pottery； cheap things but precious； a box plastered with coloured shells； an amber bead necklace； a blue leather writing… case； a photograph of her father as a young clergyman with a beard and whiskers； a faded daguerreotype of her mother； last； but by no means least； a small black lacquer musical…box that played two tunes； 〃Weel may the Keel row〃 and 〃John Peel；〃these were her worldly possessions。
She sat there； as the day closed down； the trees were swept into the night； the wind rose in the dark wood； the winter's moon crept pale and cold into the sky； snow began to fall； at first thinly； then in a storm； hiding the moon； flinging the fields and roads into a white shining splendour； the wind died and the stars peeped between the flakes of whirling snow。
She sat without moving； accusing her heart of hardness； of unkindness。 She seemed to herself then deserving of every punishment。 〃If I had only gone to him；〃 she thought again and again。 She remembered how she had kept apart from him； enclosed herself in a reserve that he should never break。 She remembered the times when he had scolded her； coldly； bitterly； and she had stood； her face as a rock； her heart beating but her body without movement； then had turned and gone silently from the room。 All her wicked； cold heart that in some strange way cared for love but could not make those movements towards others that would show that it cared。 What was it in her？ Would she always； through life； miss the things for which she longed through her coldness and obstinacy？
She took her father's photograph； stared
