a fair penitent(由衷的忏悔)-第4节
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put into my hands。 I was appointed also to wash up the dishes； to scour
the saucepans； to draw water from a deep well； to carry each sister's
pitcher to its proper place； and to scrub the tables in the refectory。 From
these occupations I got on in time to making rope shoes for the sisterhood；
and to taking care of the great clock of the convent； this last employment
requiring me to pull up three immensely heavy weights regularly every
day。 Seven years of my life passed in this hard work； and I can honestly
say that I never murmured over it。
To return； however； to the period of my admission into the convent。
After three months of probation； I took the veil on the twentieth of
January； seventeen hundred and twenty…five。 The Archbishop did me the
honour to preside at the ceremony； and； in spite of the rigour of the season；
all Lyons poured into the church to see me take the vows。 I was deeply
affected； but I never faltered in my resolution。 I pronounced the oaths
with a firm voice； and with a tranquillity which astonished all the
spectators；a tranquillity which has never once failed me since that time。
Such is the story of my conversion。 Providence sent me into the
world with an excellent nature； with a true heart； with a remarkable
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susceptibility to the influence of estimable sentiments。 My parents
neglected my education； and left me in the world； destitute of everything
but youth； beauty； and a lively temperament。 I tried hard to be virtuous； I
vowed； before I was out of my teens； and when I happened to be struck
down by a serious illness； to leave the stage； and to keep my reputation
unblemished； if anybody would only give me two hundred livres a year to
live upon。 Nobody came forward to help me； and I fell。 Heaven
pardon the rich people of Paris who might have preserved my virtue at so
small a cost！ Heaven grant me courage to follow the better path into
which its mercy has led me； and to persevere in a life of penitence and
devotion to the end of my days！
So this singular confession ends。 Besides the little vanities and
levities which appear here and there on its surface； there is surely a strong
under…current of sincerity and frankness which fit it to appeal in some
degree to the sympathy as well as the curiosity of the reader。 It is
impossible to read the narrative without feeling that there must have been
something really genuine and hearty in Mademoiselle Gautier's nature；
and it is a gratifying proof of the honest integrity of her purpose to know
that she persevered to the last in the life of humility and seclusion which
her conscience had convinced her was the best life that she could lead。
Persons who knew her in the Carmelite convent； report that she lived and
died in it； preserving to the last； all the better part of the youthful liveliness
of her character。 She always received visitors with pleasure； always
talked to them with surprising cheerfulness； always assisted the poor； and
always willingly wrote letters to her former patrons in Paris to help the
interests of her needy friends。 Towards the end of her life； she was
afflicted with blindness； but she was a trouble to no one in consequence of
this affliction； for she continued； in spite of it； to clean her own cell； to
make her own bed； and to cook her own food just as usual。 One little
characteristic vanityharmless enough； surely？remained with her to the
last。 She never forgot her own handsome face； which all。 Paris had
admired in the by…gone time； and she contrived to get a dispensation from
the Pope which allowed her to receive visitors in the convent parlour
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without a veil。
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