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goodness is roasted out of it拭 And can't you see that all that nice察 red
gravy is completely dried away'
'Well察I think the BEEF will suit you。'
The beef was set before him察and he began to carve察but with the most
rueful expressions of discontent。
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'What is the matter with the BEEF察 Mr。 Bloomfield拭 I'm sure I
thought it was very nice。'
'And so it WAS very nice。 A nicer joint could not be察but it is QUITE
spoiled' replied he察dolefully。
'How so'
'How so Why察don't you see how it is cut拭 Dear ´ dear it is quite
shocking'
'They must have cut it wrong in the kitchen察then察for I'm sure I carved
it quite properly here察yesterday。'
'No DOUBT they cut it wrong in the kitchen ´ the savages Dear ´
dear Did ever any one see such a fine piece of beef so completely
ruined拭 But remember that察 in future察 when a decent dish leaves this
table察 they shall not TOUCH it in the kitchen。 Remember THAT察 Mrs。
Bloomfield'
Notwithstanding the ruinous state of the beef察the gentleman managed
to out himself some delicate slices察part of which he ate in silence。 When
he next spoke察it was察in a less querulous tone察to ask what there was for
dinner。
'Turkey and grouse' was the concise reply。
'And what besides'
'Fish。'
'What kind of fish'
'I don't know。'
'YOU DON'T KNOW' cried he察looking solemnly up from his plate察
and suspending his knife and fork in astonishment。
'No。 I told the cook to get some fish ´ I did not particularize what。'
'Well察 that beats everything A lady professes to keep house察 and
doesn't even know what fish is for dinner professes to order fish察 and
doesn't specify what'
'Perhaps察Mr。 Bloomfield察you will order dinner yourself in future。'
Nothing more was said察 and I was very glad to get out of the room
with my pupils察for I never felt so ashamed and uncomfortable in my life
for anything that was not my own fault。
In the afternoon we applied to lessons again此 then went out again察
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then had tea in the schoolroom察then I dressed Mary Ann for dessert察and
when she and her brother had gone down to the dining´ room察I took the
opportunity of beginning a letter to my dear friends at home此 but the
children came up before I had half completed it。 At seven I had to put
Mary Ann to bed察then I played with Tom till eight察when he察too察went察
and I finished my letter and unpacked my clothes察 which I had hitherto
found no opportunity for doing察and察finally察went to bed myself。
But this is a very favourable specimen of a day's proceedings。
My task of instruction and surveillance察instead of becoming easier as
my charges and I got better accustomed to each other察 became more
arduous as their characters unfolded。 The name of governess察 I soon
found察 was a mere mockery as applied to me此 my pupils had no more
notion of obedience than a wild察unbroken colt。 The habitual fear of their
father's peevish temper察and the dread of the punishments he was wont to
inflict when irritated察kept them generally within bounds in his immediate
presence。 The girls察too察had some fear of their mother's anger察and the
boy might occasionally be bribed to do as she bid him by the hope of
reward察but I had no rewards to offer察and as for punishments察I was given
to understand察 the parents reserved that privilege to themselves察 and yet
they expected me to keep my pupils in order。 Other children might be
guided by the fear of anger and the desire of approbation察but neither the
one nor the other had any effect upon these。
Master Tom察not content with refusing to be ruled察must needs set up
as a ruler察and manifested a determination to keep察not only his sisters察but
his governess in order察by violent manual and pedal applications察and察as
he was a tall察 strong boy of his years察 this occasioned no trifling
inconvenience。 A few sound boxes on the ear察on such occasions察might
have settled the matter easily enough此 but as察in that case察he might make
up some story to his mother which she would be sure to believe察as she
had such unshaken faith in his veracity ´ though I had already discovered
it to be by no means unimpeachable ´ I determined to refrain from striking
him察 even in self´defence察 and察 in his most violent moods察 my only
resource was to throw him on his back and hold his hands and feet till the
frenzy was somewhat abated。 To the difficulty of preventing him from
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doing what he ought not察 was added that of forcing him to do what he
ought。 Often he would positively refuse to learn察or to repeat his lessons察
or even to look at his book。 Here察again察a good birch rod might have been
serviceable察but察as my powers were so limited察I must make the best use
of what I had。
As there were no settled hours for study and play察I resolved to give
my pupils a certain task察 which察 with moderate attention察 they could
perform in a short time察and till this was done察however weary I was察or
however perverse they might be察 nothing short of parental interference
should induce me to suffer them to leave the schoolroom察even if I should
sit with my chair against the door to keep them in。 Patience察Firmness察
and Perseverance were my only weapons察and these I resolved to use to
the utmost。 I determined always strictly to fulfil the threats and promises
I made察 and察 to that end察 I must be cautious to threaten and promise
nothing that I could not perform。 Then察I would carefully refrain from all
useless irritability and indulgence of my own ill´temper此 when they
behaved tolerably察I would be as kind and obliging as it was in my power
to be察in order to make the widest possible distinction between good and
bad conduct察 I would reason with them察 too察 in the simplest and most
effective manner。 When I reproved them察 or refused to gratify their
wishes察 after a glaring fault察 it should be more in sorrow than in anger此
their little hymns and prayers I would make plain and clear to their
understanding察when they said their prayers at night and asked pardon for
their offences察I would remind them of the sins of the past day察solemnly察
but in perfect kindness察to avoid raising a spirit of opposition察penitential
hymns should be said by the naughty察cheerful ones by the comparatively
good察and every kind of instruction I would convey to them察as much as
possible察by entertaining discourse ´ apparently with no other object than
their present amusement in view。
By these means I hoped in time both to benefit the children and to gain
the approbation of their parents察and also to convince my friends at home
that I was not so wanting in skill and prudence as they supposed。 I knew
the difficulties I had to contend with were great察 but I knew at least I
believed unremitting patience and perseverance could overcome them察
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and night and morning I implored Divine assistance to this end。 But
either the children were so incorrigible察 the parents so unreasonable察 or
myself so mistaken in my views察or so unable to carry them out察that my
best intentions and most strenuous efforts seemed productive of no better
result than sport to the children察 dissatisfaction to their parents察 and
torment to myself。
The task of instruction was as arduous for the body as the mind。 I
had to run after my pupils to catch them察to carry or drag the