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taking up his weapon and proceeding towards the house。 'Damme察 but
the lad has some spunk in him察too。 Curse me察if ever I saw a nobler little
scoundrel than that。 He's beyond petticoat government already此 by God
he defies mother察granny察governess察and all Ha察ha察ha Never mind察
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Tom察I'll get you another brood to´morrow。'
'If you do察Mr。 Robson察I shall kill them too' said I。
'Humph' replied he察 and having honoured me with a broad stare ´
which察 contrary to his expectations察 I sustained without flinching ´ he
turned away with an air of supreme contempt察and stalked into the house。
Tom next went to tell his mamma。 It was not her way to say much on
any subject察but察when she next saw me察her aspect and demeanour were
doubly dark and chilled。 After some casual remark about the weather察
she observed ´ 'I am sorry察 Miss Grey察 you should think it necessary to
interfere with Master Bloomfield's amusements察 he was very much
distressed about your destroying the birds。'
'When Master Bloomfield's amusements consist in injuring sentient
creatures' I answered察'I think it my duty to interfere。'
'You seemed to have forgotten' said she察 calmly察 'that the creatures
were all created for our convenience。'
I thought that doctrine admitted some doubt察 but merely replied ´ 'If
they were察we have no right to torment them for our amusement。'
'I think' said she察 'a child's amusement is scarcely to be weighed
against the welfare of a soulless brute。'
'But察for the child's own sake察it ought not to be encouraged to have
such amusements' answered I察as meekly as I could察to make up for such
unusual pertinacity。 ';Blessed are the merciful察 for they shall obtain
mercy。;'
'Oh of course察but that refers to our conduct towards each other。'
';The merciful man shows mercy to his beast察' I ventured to add。
'I think YOU have not shown much mercy' replied she察with a short察
bitter laugh察'killing the poor birds by wholesale in that shocking manner察
and putting the dear boy to such misery for a mere whim。'
I judged it prudent to say no more。 This was the nearest approach to
a quarrel I ever had with Mrs。 Bloomfield察as well as the greatest number
of words I ever exchanged with her at one time察since the day of my first
arrival。
But Mr。 Robson and old Mrs。 Bloomfield were not the only guests
whose coming to Wellwood House annoyed me察 every visitor disturbed
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me more or less察not so much because they neglected me though I did feel
their conduct strange and disagreeable in that respect察as because I found
it impossible to keep my pupils away from them察 as I was repeatedly
desired to do此 Tom must talk to them察and Mary Ann must be noticed by
them。 Neither the one nor the other knew what it was to feel any degree
of shamefacedness察 or even common modesty。 They would indecently
and clamorously interrupt the conversation of their elders察tease them with
the most impertinent questions察roughly collar the gentlemen察climb their
knees uninvited察hang about their shoulders or rifle their pockets察pull the
ladies' gowns察disorder their hair察tumble their collars察and importunately
beg for their trinkets。
Mrs。 Bloomfield had the sense to be shocked and annoyed at all this察
but she had not sense to prevent it此 she expected me to prevent it。 But
how could I ´ when the guests察 with their fine clothes and new faces察
continually flattered and indulged them察 out of complaisance to their
parents ´ how could I察 with my homely garments察 every´day face察 and
honest words察 draw them away拭 I strained every nerve to do so此 by
striving to amuse them察I endeavoured to attract them to my side察by the
exertion of such authority as I possessed察and by such severity as I dared
to use察 I tried to deter them from tormenting the guests察 and by
reproaching their unmannerly conduct察to make them ashamed to repeat it。
But they knew no shame察they scorned authority which had no terrors to
back it察 and as for kindness and affection察 either they had no hearts察 or
such as they had were so strongly guarded察and so well concealed察that I察
with all my efforts察had not yet discovered how to reach them。
But soon my trials in this quarter came to a close ´ sooner than I either
expected or desired察for one sweet evening towards the close of May察as I
was rejoicing in the near approach of the holidays察 and congratulating
myself upon having made some progress with my pupils as far as their
learning went察at least察for I HAD instilled SOMETHING into their heads察
and I had察 at length察 brought them to be a little ´ a very little ´ more
rational about getting their lessons done in time to leave some space for
recreation察 instead of tormenting themselves and me all day long to no
purpose察 Mrs。 Bloomfield sent for me察 and calmly told me that after
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Midsummer my services would be no longer required。 She assured me
that my character and general conduct were unexceptionable察 but the
children had made so little improvement since my arrival that Mr。
Bloomfield and she felt it their duty to seek some other mode of
instruction。 Though superior to most children of their years in abilities察
they were decidedly behind them in attainments察 their manners were
uncultivated察and their tempers unruly。 And this she attributed to a want
of sufficient firmness察and diligent察persevering care on my part。
Unshaken firmness察 devoted diligence察 unwearied perseverance察
unceasing care察were the very qualifications on which I had secretly prided
myself察and by which I had hoped in time to overcome all difficulties察and
obtain success at last。 I wished to say something in my own justification察
but in attempting to speak察I felt my voice falter察 and rather than testify
any emotion察or suffer the tears to overflow that were already gathering in
my eyes察I chose to keep silence察and bear all like a self´convicted culprit。
Thus was I dismissed察and thus I sought my home。 Alas what would
they think of me拭unable察after all my boasting察to keep my place察even for
a single year察 as governess to three small children察 whose mother was
asserted by my own aunt to be a 'very nice woman。' Having been thus
weighed in the balance and found wanting察I need not hope they would be
willing to try me again。 And this was an unwelcome thought察for vexed察
harassed察disappointed as I had been察and greatly as I had learned to love
and value my home察I was not yet weary of adventure察nor willing to relax
my efforts。 I knew that all parents were not like Mr。 and Mrs。
Bloomfield察and I was certain all children were not like theirs。 The next
family must be different察 and any change must be for the better。 I had
been seasoned by adversity察 and tutored by experience察 and I longed to
redeem my lost honour in the eyes of those whose opinion was more than
that of all the world to me。
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CHAPTER VI ´ THE
PARSONAGE AGAIN
FOR a few months I remained peaceably at home察 in the quiet
enjoyment of liberty and rest察and genuine friendship察from all of which I
had fasted so long察and in the earnest prosecution of my studies察to recover
what I had lost during my stay at Wellwood House察 and to lay in new
stores for future use。 My father's health