rasalvatore.attackoftheclones-第24节

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　〃Attachment　is　forbidden；〃　Anakin　began；　his　voice　dispassionate；　as　if　he　was　reciting。　〃Possession　is　forbidden。　passion；　which　I　would　define　as　unconditional　love；　is　central　to　a　Jedi's　life；　so　you　might　say　we're　encouraged　to　love。〃　〃You　have　changed　so　much；〃　Padme　heard　herself　saying；　and　in　a　tone　that　seemed　inappropriate　to　her；　seemed　to　invite。。。
　
　She　blinked　as　Anakin　turned　her　words　back　on　her。　〃You　haven't　changed　a　bit。　You're　exactly　the　way　I　remember　you　in　my　dreams。　I　doubt　if　Naboo　has　changed　much　either。〃
　〃It　hasn't。　。　。〃　Padme's　voice　was　breathless。　They　were　too　close　together。　She　knew　that。　She　knew　that　she　was　in　dangerous　territory　here；　both　for　herself　and　for　Anakin。　He　was　a　Padawan　learner；　a　Jedi；　and　Jedi　were　not　allowed　。　。　。
　
　And　what　about　her？　What　about　all　that　she　had　worked　so　hard　for　all　her　adult　life？　What　about　the　Senate；　and　the　all…important　vote　against　the　creation　of　an　army？　If　Padme　got　involved　with　a　Jedi；　the　implications　concerning　her　vote　would　bee　huge！　The　army；　if　one　was　created；　would　be　made　to　stand　beside　the　Jedi　and　their　duties；　and　yet　Padme　would　stand　against　that　army；　and　so　。。。
　
　And　so？
　
　It　was　all　so　plicated；　but　even　more　important　than　that；　it　was　all　so　dangerous。　She　thought　of　her　sister　then；　and　their　last　conversation　before　Padme　had　flown　back　to　Coruscant。　She　thought　of　Ryoo　and　Pooja。
　〃You　were　dreaming　about　your　mother　earlier；〃　she　remarked；　needing　to　change　the　subject。　She　sat　back；　putting　some　distance　between　her　and　Anakin；　gaining　some　margin　of　safety　between　them。　〃Weren't　you？〃　Anakin　leaned　back　and　looked　away；　nodding　slowly。　〃I　left　Tatooine　so　long　ago。　My　memory　of　her　is　fading。〃　He　snapped　his　intense　gaze　back　over　Padme。　〃I　don't　want　to　lose　that　memory。　I　don't　want　to　stop　seeing　her　face。〃
　
　She　started　to　say；　〃I　know；〃　and　started　to　lift　her　hand　to　stroke　his　cheek；　but　she　held　back　and　let　him　continue。
　〃I've　been　seeing　her　in　my　dreams。　Vivid　dreams。　Scary　dreams。　I　worry　about　her。〃
　〃I'd　be　disappointed　in　you　if　you　didn't；〃　Padme　answered　him；　her　voice　soft　and　full　of　sympathy。　〃You　didn't　leave　her　in　the　best　of　circumstances。〃
　
　Anakin　winced；　as　if　those　words　had　hurt　him。
　〃But　it　was　right　that　you　left；〃　Padme　reminded　him；　taking　his　arm。　She　held　his　gaze　with　her　own。　〃Your　leaving　was　what　your　mother　wanted　for　you。　What　she　needed　for　you。　The　opportunity　that　Qui…Gon　offered　you　gave　her　hope。　That's　what　a　parent　needs　for　her　child；　to　know　that　he；　that　you；　had　been　given　a　chance　at　a　better　life。〃
　〃But　the　dreams…〃
　〃You　can't　help　but　feel　a　little　guilty　about　leaving；　I　suppose；〃　Padm　answered；　and　Anakin　was　shaking　his　head；　as　if　she　was　missing　the　point。　But　she　didn't　believe　that　to　be　the　case；　so　she　continued。　〃It's　only　natural　that　you'd　want　your　mother　off　Tatooine；　out　here　with　you；　perhaps。　Or　on　Naboo；　or　Coruscant；　or　someplace　that　you　feel　is　safer；　and　more　beautiful。　Trust　me；　Anakin；〃　she　said　softly　but　intently；　and　she　put　her　hand　on　his　forearm　again。　〃You　did　the　right　thing　in　going。　For　yourself；　but　more　importantly；　for　your　mother。〃
　
　Her　expression；　so　full　of　passion；　so　full　of　caring；　was　not　one　that　Anakin　Skywalker　could　argue　against。
　
　　The　great　port　city　of　Theed　was　in　many　ways　akin　to　Coruscant；　with　freighters　and　shuttles　ing　down　from　the　skies　in　lines。　Unlike　Coruscant；　though；　this　city　on　Naboo　was　soft　in　appearance；　with　few　towering；　imposing　skyscrapers　of　hard　metal　and　shining　transparisteel。　The　buildings　here　were　of　stone　and　many　other　materials；　with　rounded　rooflines　and　delicate　colors。　Vines　of　all　sorts　were　everywhere；　crawling　up　the　sides　of　the　buildings；　adding　vibrancy　and　scents。　Adding　fort。　Anakin　and　Padme　lugged　their　bags　across　a　familiar　square；　a　place　where　they　had　seen　battle　a　decade　before　against　the　droids　of　the　Trade　Federation。　R2…D2　came　behind　them；　rolling　along　easily；　whistling　a　happy　song；　as　if　he　were　an　extension　of　the　fortable　aura　of　Theed。　Padme　kept　covertly　glancing　at　Anakin；　noting　the　serenity　on　his　face；　the　widening　grin。
　〃If　I　grew　up　here；　I　don't　think　I'd　ever　leave；〃　Anakin　remarked。
　
　Padme　laughed。　〃I　doubt　that。〃
　〃No；　really。　When　I　started　my　training；　I　was　very　homesick　and　very　lonely。　This　city　and　my　mom　were　the　only　pleasant　things　I　had　to　think　about。〃
　
　Padme's　expression　turned　to　one　of　curiosity　and　confusion。　Anakin's　time　here　had　been　spent；　mostly；　in　deadly　battle！　Had　he　so　obsessed　about　her；　about　Naboo；　that　even　the　bad　memories　paled　against　his　warm　feelings？
　
　〃The　problem　was；〃　Anakin　went　on；　〃the　more　I　thought　about　my　mom；　the　worse　I　felt。　But　I　would　feel　better　if　I　thought　about　Naboo　and　the　palace。〃
　
　He　didn't　say　it　outright；　but　Padme　knew　that　what　he　really　meant　was　that　he　felt　better　when　he　thought　about　her；　or　at　least　that　he　would　include　her　in　those　pleasant　thoughts。
　〃The　way　the　palace　shimmers　in　the　sunlight；　the　way　the　air　always　smells　of　flowers。〃
　〃And　the　soft　sound　of　the　distant　waterfalls；〃　Padme　added。　She　could　not　deny　the　sincerity　in　Anakin's　voice　and　in　his　words；　and　she　found　herself　agreeing　and　embracing　that　truth　of　Naboo；　despite　her　resolve　to　stay　away　from　those　feelings。　〃The　first　time　I　saw　the　capital；　I　was　very　young。　I'd　never　seen　a　waterfall　before。　I　thought　they　were　so　beautiful。　I　never　thought　that　one　day　I'd　live　in　the　palace。〃
　〃Well；　tell　me；　did　you　dream　of　power　and　politics　when　you　were　a　little　girl？〃
　
　Again　Padme　had　to　laugh　aloud。　〃No；　that　was　the　last　thing　I　thought　of。〃　She　could　feel　the　wistfulness　creeping　into　her；　the　memories　of　those　long…ago　days　before　her　innocence　had　been　shattered　by　war；　and　even　more　so；　by　the　constant　deceptions　and　conniving　of　politics。　She　could　hardly　believe　that　she　was　opening　up　to　Anakin　like　this。　〃My　dream　was　to　work　in　the　Refugee　Relief　Movement。　I　never　thought　of　running　for　elected　office。　But　the　more　history　I　studied；　the　more　I　realized　how　much　good　politicians　could　do。　So　when　I　was　eight；　I　joined　the　Apprentice　Legislators；　which　is　like　making　a　formal　announcement　that　you're　entering　public　service　here　on　Naboo。　From　there；　I　went　on　to　bee　a　Senatorial　Adviser；　and　attacked　my　duties　with　such　a　passion　that　before　I　knew　it；　I　was　elected　Queen。〃
　
　Padme　looked　at　Anakin　and　shrugged；　trying　not　to　throw　all　humility　away。　〃Partly　because　I　scored　so　high　on　my　education　certificate；〃　she　explained。　〃But　for　the　most　part；　my　ascent　was　because　of　my　conviction　that　reform　was　possible。　The　people　of　Naboo　embraced　that　dream　wholeheartedly；　so　much　so　that　my　age　was　hardly　an　issue　in　the　campaign。　I　wasn't　the　youngest　Queen　ever　elected；　but　now　that　I　think　back　on　it；
　
　I'm　not　sure　I　was　old　enough。〃　She　paused　and　locked　stares　with　Anakin。
　〃I'm　not　sure　I　was　ready。〃　　　〃The　people　you　served　thought　you　did　a　good　job；〃　Anakin　reminded　her。　〃I　heard　they　tried　to　amend　the　constitution　so　that　you　could　stay　in　office。〃
　〃Popular　rule　is　not　democracy；　Anakin。　It　gives　the　people　what　they　want；　not　what　they　need。　And　truthfully；　I　was　relieved　when　my　two　terms　were　up。〃　Padme　chuckled　as　she　continued；　adding　emphasis。　〃So　were　my　parents！　They　worried　about　me　during　the　blockade　and　couldn't　wait　for　it　all　to　be　over。　Actually；　I　was　hoping　to　have　a　family　by　now。　。　。　〃
　
　She　turned　away　a　bit；　feeling　her　face　flushing。　How　could　she　be　so　open　to　him；　and　so　quickly？　He　was　not　a　longtime　friend；　she　reminded　herself；　but　the　warning　sounded　hollow　in　her　thoughts。　She　looked　back　at　Anakin；　and　she　felt　so　at　ease；　so　fortable　with　him；　almost　as　if　they　had　been　friends　for　all　their　lives。　〃My　sister　has　the　most　amazing；　wonderful　kids。〃　Her　eyes　were　sparkling；　she　knew；　but　she　blinked　the　emotion　away；　as　Padme　had　often　blinked　away　her　personal　desires　for　the　sake　of　what　she　perceived　to　be　the　greater　good。　〃But　when　the　Queen　asked　me　to　serve　as　Senator；　I　couldn't　refuse　her；〃　she　explained。
　〃I　agree！〃　Anakin　replied。　〃I　think　the　Republic　needs　you。　I'm　glad　you　chose　to　serve…I　feel　things　are　going　to　happen　in　our　generation　that　will　change　the　galaxy　in　profound　ways。〃
　〃A　Jedi　premonition？〃　Padme　kidded。
　
　Anakin　laughed。　〃A　feeling；〃　he　explained；　or　tried　to　explain；　for　it　was　obvious　that　he　wasn't　quite　sure　what　he　was　trying　to　say。　〃It　just　seems　to　me　as　if　it's　all　grown　stale；　as　if　something　has　to　happen…〃
　〃I　think　so；　too；〃　Padme　put　in　sincerely。
　
　They　had　arrived　at　the　great　doors　of　the　palace；　and　paused　to　take　in　the　beautiful　scene。　Unlike　most　of　Coruscant's　buildings；　which　seemed　to　have　been　designed　with　utter　efficiency　in　mind；　this　structure　was　more　akin　to　the　Jedi　Temple；　an　understanding　that　aesthetics　were　important；　that　form　went　hand　in　hand　with　purpose。
　
　Padme　knew　her　way　about　the　place；　obviously；　and　she　was　well　known　by　almost　all　of　the　people　within；　and　so　the　two　walked　along　easily　to　the　throne　room；　where　they　were　announced　at　onc