memoirs of carwin the biloquist-第3节
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The darkness was intense and I sought with outstretched hands for his bed。 The darkness； added to the trepidation of my thoughts； disabled me from making a right estimate of distances： I was conscious of this； and when I advanced within the room； paused。
I endeavoured to compare the progress I had made with my knowledge of the room； and governed by the result of this comparison； proceeded cautiously and with hands still outstretched in search of the foot of the bed。 At this moment lightning flashed into the room： the brightness of the gleam was dazzling； yet it afforded me an exact knowledge of my situation。 I had mistaken my way； and discovered that my knees nearly touched the bedstead； and that my hands at the next step； would have touched my father's cheek。 His closed eyes and every line in his countenance； were painted； as it were； for an instant on my sight。
The flash was accompanied with a burst of thunder； whose vehemence was stunning。 I always entertained a dread of thunder； and now recoiled； overborne with terror。 Never had I witnessed so luminous a gleam and so tremendous a shock； yet my father's slumber appeared not to be disturbed by it。
I stood irresolute and trembling； to prosecute my purpose in this state of mind was impossible。 I resolved for the present to relinquish it； and turned with a view of exploring my way out of the chamber。 Just then a light seen through the window； caught my eye。 It was at first weak but speedily increased； no second thought was necessary to inform me that the barn； situated at a small distance from the house； and newly stored with hay； was in flames； in consequence of being struck by the lightning。
My terror at this spectacle made me careless of all consequences relative to myself。 I rushed to the bed and throwing myself on my father； awakened him by loud cries。 The family were speedily roused； and were compelled to remain impotent spectators of the devastation。 Fortunately the wind blew in a contrary direction； so that our habitation was not injured。
The impression that was made upon me by the incidents of that night is indelible。 The wind gradually rose into an hurricane； the largest branches were torn from the trees； and whirled aloft into the air； others were uprooted and laid prostrate on the ground。 The barn was a spacious edifice； consisting wholly of wood； and filled with a plenteous harvest。 Thus supplied with fuel； and fanned by the wind； the fire raged with incredible fury； meanwhile clouds rolled above； whose blackness was rendered more conspicuous by reflection from the flames； the vast volumes of smoke were dissipated in a moment by the storm； while glowing fragments and cinders were borne to an immense hight； and tossed everywhere in wild confusion。 Ever and anon the sable canopy that hung around us was streaked with lightning； and the peals； by which it was accompanied； were deafning； and with scarcely any intermission。
It was； doubtless； absurd to imagine any connexion between this portentous scene and the purpose that I had meditated； yet a belief of this connexion； though wavering and obscure； lurked in my mind； something more than a coincidence merely casual； appeared to have subsisted between my situation； at my father's bed side； and the flash that darted through the window； and diverted me from my design。 It palsied my courage； and strengthened my conviction； that my scheme was criminal。
After some time had elapsed； and tranquility was； in some degree； restored in the family； my father reverted to the circumstances in which I had been discovered on the first alarm of this event。 The truth was impossible to be told。 I felt the utmost reluctance to be guilty of a falsehood； but by falsehood only could I elude detection。 That my guilt was the offspring of a fatal necessity； that the injustice of others gave it birth and made it unavoidable； afforded me slight consolation。 Nothing can be more injurious than a lie； but its evil tendency chiefly respects our future conduct。 Its direct consequences may be transient and few； but it facilitates a repetition； strengthens temptation； and grows into habit。 I pretended some necessity had drawn me from my bed； and that discovering the condition of the barn； I hastened to inform my father。
Some time after this； my father summoned me to his presence。 I had been previously guilty of disobedience to his commands； in a matter about which he was usually very scrupulous。 My brother had been privy to my offence； and had threatened to be my accuser。 On this occasion I expected nothing but arraignment and punishment。 Weary of oppression； and hopeless of any change in my father's temper and views； I had formed the resolution of eloping from his house； and of trusting； young as I was； to the caprice of fortune。 I was hesitating whether to abscond without the knowledge of the family； or to make my resolutions known to them； and while I avowed my resolution； to adhere to it in spite of opposition and remonstrances； when I received this summons。
I was employed at this time in the field； night was approaching； and I had made no preparation for departure； all the preparation in my power to make； was indeed small； a few clothes； made into a bundle； was the sum of my possessions。 Time would have little influence in improving my prospects； and I resolved to execute my scheme immediately。
I left my work intending to seek my chamber； and taking what was my own； to disappear forever。 I turned a stile that led out of the field into a bye path； when my father appeared before me； advancing in an opposite direction； to avoid him was impossible； and I summoned my fortitude to a conflict with his passion。
As soon as we met； instead of anger and upbraiding； he told me； that he had been reflecting on my aunt's proposal； to take me under her protection； and had concluded that the plan was proper； if I still retained my wishes on that head； he would readily comply with them； and that； if I chose； I might set off for the city next morning； as a neighbours waggon was preparing to go。
I shall not dwell on the rapture with which this proposal was listened to： it was with difficulty that I persuaded myself that he was in earnest in making it； nor could divine the reasons； for so sudden and unexpected a change in his maxims。 。 。 。 These I afterwards discovered。 Some one had instilled into him fears； that my aunt exasperated at his opposition to her request； respecting the unfortunate Frank； would bequeath her property to strangers； to obviate this evil； which his avarice prompted him to regard as much greater than any mischief； that would accrue to me； from the change of my abode； he embraced her proposal。
I entered with exultation and triumph on this new scene； my hopes were by no means disappointed。 Detested labour was exchanged for luxurious idleness。 I was master of my time； and the chuser of my occupations。 My kinswoman on discovering that I entertained no relish for the drudgery of colleges； and was contented with the means of intellectual gratification； which I could obtain under her roof； allowed me to pursue my own choice。
Three tranquil years passed away； during which； each day added to my happiness； by adding to my knowledge。 My biloquial faculty was not neglected。 I improved it by assiduous exercise； I deeply reflected on the use to which it might be applied。 I was not destitute of pure intentions； I delighted not in evil； I was incapable of knowingly contributing to another's misery； but the sole or principal end of my endeavours was not the happiness of others。
I was actuated by ambition。 I was delighted to possess superior power； I was prone to manifest that superiority； and was satisfied if this were done； without much solicitude concerning consequences。 I sported frequently with the apprehensions of my associates； and threw out a bait for their wonder； and supplied them with occasions for the structure of theories。 It may not be amiss to enumerate one or two adventures in which I was engaged。
Chapter III。
I had taken much pains to improve the sagacity of a favourite Spaniel。 It was my purpose； indeed； to ascertain to what degree of improvement the principles of reasoning and imitation could be carried in a dog。 There is no doubt that the animal affixes distinct ideas to sounds。 What are the possible limits of his vocabulary no one can tell。 In conversing with my dog I did not use English words； but selected simple monosyllables。 Habit likewise enabled him to comprehend my gestures。 If I crossed my hands on my breast he understood the signal and laid down behind me。 If I joined my hands and lifted them to my breast； he returned home。 If I grasped one arm above the elbow he ran before me。 If I lifted my hand to my forehead he trotted composedly behind。 By one motion I could make him bark； by another I could reduce him to silence。 He would howl in twenty different strains of mournfulness； at my bidding。 He would fetch and carry with undeviating faithfulness。
His actions being thus chiefly regulated by gestures； that to a stranger would appear indifferent or casual； it was easy to produce a belief that the animal's knowledge was much greater than in
