memoir of fleeming jenkin-第14节
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CHAPTER IV。 1859…1868。
Fleeming's Marriage … His Married Life … Professional Difficulties
… Life at Claygate … Illness of Mrs。 F。 Jenkin; and of Fleeming …
Appointment to the Chair at Edinburgh。
ON Saturday; Feb。 26; 1859; profiting by a holiday of four days;
Fleeming was married to Miss Austin at Northiam: a place connected
not only with his own family but with that of his bride as well。
By Tuesday morning; he was at work again; fitting out cableships at
Birkenhead。 Of the walk from his lodgings to the works; I find a
graphic sketch in one of his letters: 'Out over the railway
bridge; along a wide road raised to the level of a ground floor
above the land; which; not being built upon; harbours puddles;
ponds; pigs; and Irish hovels; … so to the dock warehouses; four
huge piles of building with no windows; surrounded by a wall about
twelve feet high … in through the large gates; round which hang
twenty or thirty rusty Irish; playing pitch and toss and waiting
for employment; … on along the railway; which came in at the same
gates and which branches down between each vast block … past a
pilot…engine butting refractory trucks into their places … on to
the last block; 'and' down the branch; sniffing the guano…scented
air and detecting the old bones。 The hartshorn flavour of the
guano becomes very strong; as I near the docks where; across the
ELBA'S decks; a huge vessel is discharging her cargo of the brown
dust; and where huge vessels have been discharging that same cargo
for the last five months。' This was the walk he took his young
wife on the morrow of his return。 She had been used to the society
of lawyers and civil servants; moving in that circle which seems to
itself the pivot of the nation and is in truth only a clique like
another; and Fleeming was to her the nameless assistant of a
nameless firm of engineers; doing his inglorious business; as she
now saw for herself; among unsavoury surroundings。 But when their
walk brought them within view of the river; she beheld a sight to
her of the most novel beauty: four great; sea…going ships dressed
out with flags。 'How lovely!' she cried。 'What is it for?' … 'For
you;' said Fleeming。 Her surprise was only equalled by her
pleasure。 But perhaps; for what we may call private fame; there is
no life like that of the engineer; who is a great man in out…of…
the…way places; by the dockside or on the desert island or in
populous ships; and remains quite unheard of in the coteries of
London。 And Fleeming had already made his mark among the few who
had an opportunity of knowing him。
His marriage was the one decisive incident of his career; from that
moment until the day of his death; he had one thought to which all
the rest were tributary; the thought of his wife。 No one could
know him even slightly; and not remark the absorbing greatness of
that sentiment; nor can any picture of the man be drawn that does
not in proportion dwell upon it。 This is a delicate task; but if
we are to leave behind us (as we wish) some presentment of the
friend we have lost; it is a task that must be undertaken。
For all his play of mind and fancy; for all his indulgence … and;
as time went on; he grew indulgent … Fleeming had views of duty
that were even stern。 He was too shrewd a student of his fellow…
men to remain long content with rigid formulae of conduct。 Iron…
bound; impersonal ethics; the procrustean bed of rules; he soon saw
at their true value as the deification of averages。 'As to Miss (I
declare I forget her name) being bad;' I find him writing; 'people
only mean that she has broken the Decalogue … which is not at all
the same thing。 People who have kept in the high…road of Life
really have less opportunity for taking a comprehensive view of it
than those who have leaped over the hedges and strayed up the
hills; not but what the hedges are very necessary; and our stray
travellers often have a weary time of it。 So; you may say; have
those in the dusty roads。' Yet he was himself a very stern
respecter of the hedgerows; sought safety and found dignity in the
obvious path of conduct; and would palter with no simple and
recognised duty of his epoch。 Of marriage in particular; of the
bond so formed; of the obligations incurred; of the debt men owe to
their children; he conceived in a truly antique spirit: not to
blame others; but to constrain himself。 It was not to blame; I
repeat; that he held these views; for others; he could make a large
allowance; and yet he tacitly expected of his friends and his wife
a high standard of behaviour。 Nor was it always easy to wear the
armour of that ideal。
Acting upon these beliefs; conceiving that he had indeed 'given
himself' (in the full meaning of these words) for better; for
worse; painfully alive to his defects of temper and deficiency in
charm; resolute to make up for these; thinking last of himself:
Fleeming was in some ways the very man to have made a noble; uphill
fight of an unfortunate marriage。 In other ways; it is true he was
one of the most unfit for such a trial。 And it was his beautiful
destiny to remain to the last hour the same absolute and romantic
lover; who had shown to his new bride the flag…draped vessels in
the Mersey。 No fate is altogether easy; but trials are our
touchstone; trials overcome our reward; and it was given to
Fleeming to conquer。 It was given to him to live for another; not
as a task; but till the end as an enchanting pleasure。 'People may
write novels;' he wrote in 1869; 'and other people may write poems;
but not a man or woman among them can write to say how happy a man
may be; who is desperately in love with his wife after ten years of
marriage。' And again in 1885; after more than twenty…six years of
marriage; and within but five weeks of his death: 'Your first
letter from Bournemouth;' he wrote; 'gives me heavenly pleasure …
for which I thank Heaven and you too … who are my heaven on earth。'
The mind hesitates whether to say that such a man has been more
good or more fortunate。
Any woman (it is the defect of her sex) comes sooner to the stable
mind of maturity than any man; and Jenkin was to the end of a most
deliberate growth。 In the next chapter; when I come to deal with
his telegraphic voyages and give some taste of his correspondence;
the reader will still find him at twenty…five an arrant school…boy。
His wife besides was more thoroughly educated than he。 In many
ways she was able to teach him; and he proud to be taught; in many
ways she outshone him; and he delighted to be outshone。 All these
superiorities; and others that; after the manner of lovers; he no
doubt forged for himself; added as time went on to the humility of
his original love。 Only once; in all I know of his career; did he
show a touch of smallness。 He could not learn to sing correctly;
his wife told him so and desisted from her lessons; and the
mortification was so sharply felt that for years he could not be
induced to go to a concert; instanced himself as a typical man
without an ear; and never sang again。 I tell it; for the fact that
this stood singular in his behaviour; and really amazed all who
knew him; is the happiest way I can imagine to commend the tenor of
his simplicity; and because it illustrates his feeling for his
wife。 Others were always welcome to laugh at him; if it amused
them; or if it amused him; he would proceed undisturbed with his
occupation; his vanity invulnerable。 With his wife it was
different: his wife had laughed at his singing; and for twenty
years the fibre ached。 Nothing; again; was more notable than the
formal chivalry of this unmannered man to the person on earth with
whom he was the most familiar。 He was conscious of his own innate
and often rasping vivacity and roughness and he was never forgetful
of his first visit to the Austins and the vow he had registered on
his return。 There was thus an artificial element in his punctilio
that at times might almost raise a smile。 But it stood on noble
grounds; for this was how he sought to shelter from his own
petulance the woman who was to him the symbol of the household and
to the end the beloved of his youth。
I wish in this chapter to chronicle small beer; taking a hasty
glance at some ten years of married life and of professional
struggle; and reserving till the next all the more interesting
matter of his cruises。 Of his achievements and their worth; it is
not for me to speak: his friend and partner; Sir William Thomson;
has contributed a note on the subject; which will be found in the
Appendix; and to which I must refer the reader。 He is to conceive
in the meanwhile for himself Fleeming's manifold engagements: his
service on the Committee on Electrical Standards