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weave　it　into　one　of　your　writings。　　And　it's　quite　true。〃



It　is　hardly　necessary　to　say　that　John　Milton　had　not　been　touched

by　any　personal　significance　in　his　companion's　speech；　whatever

she　may　have　intended；　and　it　is　equally　true　that　whether　she　had

presently　forgotten　her　purpose；　or　had　become　suddenly　interested

in　her　own　conversation；　her　face　grew　more　animated；　her　manner

more　confidential；　and　something　of　the　youthful　enthusiasm　she　had

shown　in　the　mountain　seemed　to　come　back　to　her。



〃I　might　say　it　happened　anywhere　and　call　the　people　M。　or　N。；

but　it　really　did　occur　in　my　own　family；　and　although　I　was　much

younger　at　the　time　it　impressed　me　very　strongly。　　My　cousin；　who

had　been　my　playmate；　was　an　orphan；　and　had　been　intrusted　to　the

care　of　my　father；　who　was　his　guardian。　　He　was　always　a　clever

boy；　but　singularly　sensitive　and　quick　to　take　offense。　　Perhaps

it　was　because　the　little　property　his　father　had　left　made　him

partly　dependent　on　my　father；　and　that　I　was　rich；　but　he　seemed

to　feel　the　disparity　in　our　positions。　　I　was　too　young　to

understand　it；　I　think　it　existed　only　in　his　imagination；　for　I

believe　we　were　treated　alike。　　But　I　remember　that　he　was　full　of

vague　threats　of　running　away　and　going　to　sea；　and　that　it　was

part　of　his　weak　temperament　to　terrify　me　with　his　extravagant

confidences。　　I　was　always　frightened　when；　after　one　of　those

scenes；　he　would　pack　his　valise　or　perhaps　only　tie　up　a　few

things　in　a　handkerchief；　as　in　the　advertisement　pictures　of　the

runaway　slaves；　and　declare　that　we　would　never　lay　eyes　upon　him

again。　　At　first　I　never　saw　the　ridiculousness　of　all　this；for　I

ought　to　have　told　you　that　he　was　a　rather　delicate　and　timid　boy；

and　quite　unfitted　for　a　rough　life　or　any　exposure；but　others

did；　and　one　day　I　laughed　at　him　and　told　him　he　was　afraid。　　I

shall　never　forget　the　expression　of　his　face　and　never　forgive

myself　for　it。　　He　went　away；but　he　returned　the　next　day！　　He

threatened　once　to　commit　suicide；　left　his　clothes　on　the　bank　of

the　river；　and　came　home　in　another　suit　of　clothes　he　had　taken

with　him。　　When　I　was　sent　abroad　to　school　I　lost　sight　of　him；

when　I　returned　he　was　at　college；　apparently　unchanged。　　When　he

came　home　for　vacation；　far　from　having　been　subdued　by　contact

with　strangers；　it　seemed　that　his　unhappy　sensitiveness　had　been

only　intensified　by　the　ridicule　of　his　fellows。　　He　had　even

acquired　a　most　ridiculous　theory　about　the　degrading　effects　of

civilization；　and　wanted　to　go　back　to　a　state　of　barbarism。　　He

said　the　wilderness　was　the　only　true　home　of　man。　　My　father；

instead　of　bearing　with　what　I　believe　was　his　infirmity；　dryly

offered　him　the　means　to　try　his　experiment。　　He　started　for　some

place　in　Texas；　saying　we　would　never　hear　from　him　again。　　A　month

after　he　wrote　for　more　money。　　My　father　replied　rather　impatiently；

I　suppose；I　never　knew　exactly　what　he　wrote。　　That　was　some　years

ago。　　He　had　told　the　truth　at　last；　for　we　never　heard　from　him

again。〃



It　is　to　be　feared　that　John　Milton　was　following　the　animated　lips

and　eyes　of　the　fair　speaker　rather　than　her　story。　　Perhaps　that

was　the　reason　why　he　said；　〃May　he　not　have　been　a　disappointed

man？〃



〃I　don't　understand；〃　she　said　simply。



〃Perhaps；〃　said　John　Milton　with　a　boyish　blush；　〃you　may　have

unconsciously　raised　hopes　in　his　heartand〃



〃I　should　hardly　attempt　to　interest　a　chronicler　of　adventure　like

you　in　such　a　very　commonplace；　every…day　style　of　romance；〃　she

said；　with　a　little　impatience；　〃even　if　my　vanity　compelled　me　to

make　such　confidences　to　a　stranger。　　No；it　was　nothing　quite　as

vulgar　as　that。　　And；〃　she　added　quickly；　with　a　playfully　amused

smile　as　she　saw　the　young　fellow's　evident　distress；　〃I　should

have　probably　heard　from　him　again。　　Those　stories　always　end　in

that　way。〃



〃And　you　think？〃said　John　Milton。



〃I　think；〃　said　Mrs。　Ashwood　slowly；　〃that　he　actually　did　commit

suicideor　effaced　himself　in　some　way；　just　as　firmly　as　I

believe　he　might　have　been　saved　by　judicious　treatment。　　Otherwise

we　should　have　heard　from　him。　　You'll　say　that's　only　a　woman's

reasoningbut　I　think　our　perceptions　are　often　instinctive；　and　I

knew　his　character。〃



Still　following　the　play　of　her　delicate　features　into　a　romance　of

his　own　weaving；　the　imaginative　young　reporter　who　had　seen　so

much　from　the　heights　of　Russian　Hill　said　earnestly；　〃Then　I　have

your　permission　to　use　this　material　at　any　future　time？〃



〃Yes；〃　said　the　lady　smilingly。



〃And　you　will　not　mind　if　I　should　take　some　liberties　with　the

text？〃



〃I　must　of　course　leave　something　to　your　artistic　taste。　　But　you

will　let　me　see　it？〃



There　were　voices　outside　now；　breaking　the　silence　of　the　veranda。

They　had　been　so　preoccupied　as　not　to　notice　the　arrival　of　a

horseman。　　Steps　came　along　the　passage；　the　landlord　returned。

Mrs。　Ashwood　turned　quickly　towards　him。



〃Mr。　Grant；　of　your　party；　ma'am；　to　fetch　you。〃



She　saw　an　unmistakable　change　in　her　young　friend's　mobile　face。

〃I　will　be　ready　in　a　moment；〃　she　said　to　the　landlord。　　Then；

turning　to　John　Milton；　the　arch…hypocrite　said　sweetly：　〃My

brother　must　have　known　instinctively　that　I　was　in　good　hands；　as

he　didn't　come。　　But　I　am　sorry；　for　I　should　have　so　liked　to

introduce　him　to　youalthough　by　the　way；〃　with　a　bright　smile；　〃I

don't　think　you　have　yet　told　me　your　name。　　I　know　I　couldn't　have

FORGOTTEN　it。〃



〃Harcourt；〃　said　John　Milton；　with　a　half…embarrassed　laugh。



〃But　you　must　come　and　see　me；　Mr。Mr。　Harcourt；〃　she　said；

producing　a　card　from　a　case　already　in　her　fingers；　〃at　my　hotel；

and　let　my　brother　thank　you　there　for　your　kindness　and　gallantry

to　a　stranger。　　I　shall　be　here　a　few　weeks　longer　before　we　go

south　to　look　for　a　place　where　my　brother　can　winter。　　DO　come　and

see　me；　although　I　cannot　introduce　you　to　anything　as　real　and

beautiful　as　what　YOU　have　shown　me　to…day。　　Good…by；　Mr。　Harcourt；

I　won't　trouble　you　to　come　down　and　bore　yourself　with　my　escort's

questions　and　congratulations。〃



She　bent　her　head　and　allowed　her　soft　eyes　to　rest　upon　his　with　a

graciousness　that　was　beyond　her　speech；　pulled　her　veil　over　her

eyes　again；　with　a　pretty　suggestion　that　she　had　no　further　use

for　them；　and　taking　her　riding…skirt　lightly　in　her　hand　seemed　to

glide　from　the　room。



On　her　way　to　San　Mateo；　where　it　appeared　the　disorganized　party

had　prolonged　their　visit　to　accept　an　invitation　to　dine　with　a

local　magnate；　she　was　pleasantly　conversational　with　the　slightly

abstracted　Grant。　　She　was　so　sorry　to　have　given　them　all　this

trouble　and　anxiety！　　Of　course　she　ought　to　have　waited　at　the

fork　of　the　road；　but　she　had　never　doubted　but　she　could　rejoin

them　presently　on　the　main　road。　　She　was　glad　that　Miss　Euphemia's

runaway　horse　had　been　stopped　without　accident；　it　would　have　been

dreadful　if　anything　had　happened　to　HER；　Mr。　Harcourt　seemed　so

wrapped　up　in　his　girls。　　It　was　a　pity　they　never　had　a　sonAh？

Indeed！　　Then　there　was　a　son？　　Soand　father　and　son　had

quarreled？　　That　was　so　sad。　　And　for　some　trifling　cause；　no

doubt？



〃I　believe　he　married　the　housemaid；〃　said　Grant　grimly。　　〃Be

careful！Allow　me。〃



〃It's　no　use！〃　said　Mrs。　Ashwood；　flushing　with　pink　impatience；　as

she　recovered　her　seat；　which　a　sudden　bolt　of　her　mustang　had

imperiled；　〃I　really　can't　make　out　the　tricks　of　this　beast！

Thank　you；〃　she　added；　with　a　sweet　smile；　〃but　I　think　I　can

manage　him　now。　　I　can't　see　why　he　stopped。　　I'll　be　more　careful。

You　were　saying　the　son　was　marriedsurely　not　that　boy！〃



〃Boy！〃　echoed　Grant。　　〃Then　you　know？〃



〃I　mean　of　course　he　must　be　a　boythey　all　grew　up　hereand　it

was　only　five　or　six　years　ago　that　their　parents　emigrated；〃　she

retorted　a　little　impatiently。　　〃And　what　about　this　creature？〃



〃Your　horse？〃



〃You　know　I　mean　the　woman　he　married。　　Of　course　she　was　older

than　heand　caught　him？〃



〃I　think　there　was　a　year　or　two　difference；〃　said　Grant　quietly。



〃Yes；　but　your　gallantry　keeps　you　from　telling　the　truth；　which　is

that　the　women；　in　cases　of　this　kind；　are　much　older　and　more

experienced。〃



〃Are　they？　　Well；　perhaps　she　is；　NOW。　　She　is　dead。〃



Mrs。　Ashwood　walked　her　horse。　　〃Poor　thing；〃　she　said。　　Then　a

sudden　idea　took　possession　of　her　and　brought　a　film　to　her　eyes。

〃How　long　ago？〃　she　asked　in　a　low　voice。



〃About　six　or　seven　months；　I　think。　　I　believe　there　was　a　baby

who　died　too。〃



She　continued　to　walk　her　horse　slowly；　stroking　its　curved　neck。

〃I　think　it's　perfectly　shameful！〃　she　said　suddenly。



〃Not　so　bad　as　that；　Mrs。　Ashwood；　surely。　　The　girl　may　have　loved

himand　he〃



〃You　know　perfectly　what　I　mean；　Mr。　Grant。　　I　speak　of　the　conduct

of　th