sk.theshining-第50节
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ablecloth because he had tried to wipe her dear face with it。 Had her glasses flown all the way through the living room and into the dining room to land in her mashed potatoes and gravy？ the doctor asked with a kind of horrid； grinning sarcasm。 Is that what happened； Mark？ I have heard of folks who can get a radio station on their gold fillings and I have seen a man get shot between the eyes and live to tell about it； but that is a new one on me。 Daddy had merely shook his head and said he didn't know； they must have fallen off her face when he brought her through the dining room。 The four children had been stunned to silence by the calm stupendousness of the lie。 Four days later Brett quit his job in the mill and joined the Army。 Jack had always felt it was not just the sudden and irrational beating his father had administered at the dinner table but the fact that； in the hospital； their mother had corroborated their father's story while holding the hand of the parish priest。 Revolted； Brett had left them to whatever might e。 He had been killed in Dong Ho province in 1965； the year when Jack Torrance； undergraduate； had joined the active college agitation to end the war。
He had waved his brother's bloody shirt at rallies that were increasingly well attended； but it was not Brett's face that hung before his eyes when he spoke…it was the face of his mother； a dazed； unprehending face； his mother saying：
〃Who's got the newspaper？〃 Mike escaped three years later when Jack was twelve…he went to UNH on a hefty Merit Scholarship。 A year after that their father died of a sudden； massive stroke which occurred while he was prepping a patient for surgery。 He had collapsed in his flapping and untucked hospital whites； dead possibly even before he hit the industrial black…and…red hospital tiles； and three days later the man who had dominated Jacky's life； the irrational white ghost…god； was under ground。
The stone read Mark Anthony Torrance； Loving Father。 To that Jack would have added one line： He Knew How to Play Elevator。
There had been a great lot of insurance money。 There are people who collect insurance as pulsively as others collect coins and stamps； and Mark Torrance had been that type。 The insurance money came in at the same time the monthly policy payments and liquor bills stopped。 For five years they had been rich。
Nearly rich 。 。 。
In his shallow； uneasy sleep his face rose before him as if in a glass； his face but not his face； the wide eyes and innocent bowed mouth of a boy sitting in the ball with his trucks； waiting for his daddy； waiting for the white ghost… god； waiting for the elevator to rise up with dizzying； exhilarating speed through the salt…and…sawdust mist of exhaled taverns； waiting perhaps for it to go crashing down； spilling old clocksprings out of his ears while his daddy roared with laughter； and it （transformed into Danny's face； so much like his own had been； his eyes had been light blue while Danny's were cloudy gray； but the lips still made a bow and the plexion was fair； Danny in his study； wearing training pants； all his papers soggy and the fine misty smell of beer rising 。 。 。 a dreadful batter all in ferment； rising on the wings of yeast； the breath of taverns 。 。 。 snap of bone 。 。 。 his own voice； mewling drunkenly Danny； you okay doc？ 。 。 。 Oh God oh God your poor sweet arm 。 。 。 and that face transformed into） （momma's dazed face rising up from below the table； punched and bleeding； and momma was saying） （〃…from your father。 I repeat； an enormously important announcement from your father。 Please stay tuned or tune immediately to the Happy Jack frequency。
Repeat； tune immediately to the Happy Hour frequency。 I repeat…〃） A slow dissolve。 Disembodied voices echoing up to him as if along an endless； cloudy hallway。
（Things keep getting in the way； dear Tommy 。 。 。） （Medoc； are you here？ I've been sleepwalking again； my dear。 It's the inhuman monsters that I fear 。 。 。） （〃Excuse me； Mr。 Ullman； but isn't this the。 。 。〃） 。 。 。 office； with its file cabinets； Ullman's big desk； a blank reservations book for next year already in place…never misses a trick； that Ullman…all the keys hanging neatly on their hooks （except for one； which one； which key； passkey…passkey； passkey； who's got the passkey？ if we went upstairs perhaps we'd see） and the big two…way radio on its shelf。
He snapped it on。 CB transmissions ing in short； crackly bursts。 He switched the band and dialed across bursts of music； news； a preacher haranguing a softly moaning congregation； a weather report。 And another voice which he dialed back to。 It was his father's voice。
〃…kill him。 You have to kill him； Jacky； and her； too。 Because a real artist must suffer。 Because each man kills the thing he loves。 Because they'll always be conspiring against you； trying to hold you back and drag you down。 Right this minute that boy of yours is in where he shouldn't be。 Trespassing。 That's what he's doing。 He's a goddam little pup。 Cane him for it； Jacky； cane him within an inch of his life。 Have a drink Jacky my boy； and we'll play the elevator game。
Then I'll go with you while you give him his medicine。 I know you can do it； of course you can。 You must kill him。 You have to kill him； Jacky； and her； too。
Because a real artist must suffer。 Because each man…〃 His father's voice； going up higher and higher； being something maddening； not human at all； something squealing and petulant and maddening； the voice of the Ghost…God； the Pig…God； ing dead at him out of the radio and
〃No！〃 he screamed back。 〃You're dead； you're in your grave； you're not in me at all！〃 Because he had cut all the father out of him and it was not right that he should e back creeping through this hotel two thousand miles from the New England town where his father had lived and died。
He raised the radio up and brought it down； and it smashed on the floor spilling old clocksprings and tubes like the result of some crazy elevator game gone awry； making his father's voice gone； leaving only his voice； Jack's voice； Jacky's voice； chanting in the cold reality of the office：
〃…dead； you're dead； you're dead！〃 And the startled sound of Wendy's feet hitting the floor over his head； and Wendy's startled； frightened voice： 〃Jack？ Jack！〃 He stood； blinking down at the shattered radio。 Now there was only the snowmobile in the equipment shed to link them to the outside world。
He put his hands over his eyes and clutched at his temples。 He was getting a headache。
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CATATONIC
Wendy ran down the hall in her stocking feet and ran down the main stairs to the lobby two at a time。 She didn't look up at the carpeted flight that led to the second floor； but if she had； she would have seen Danny standing at the top of them； still and silent； his unfocused eyes directed out into indifferent space； his thumb in his mouth； the collar and shoulders of his shirt damp。 There were puffy bruises on his neck and just below his chin。
Jack's cries had ceased； but that did nothing to ease her fear。 Ripped out of her sleep by his voice； raised in that old hectoring pitch she remembered so well； she still felt that she was dreaming…but another part knew she was awake； and that terrified her more。 She half…expected to burst into the office and find him standing over Danny's sprawled…out body； drunk and confused。
She pushed through the door and Jack was standing there； rubbing at his temples with his fingers。 His face was ghostwhite。 The two…way CB radio lay at his feet in a sprinkling of broken glass。
〃Wendy？〃 he asked uncertainly。 〃Wendy…？〃 The bewilderment seemed to grow and for a moment she saw his true face； the one he ordinarily kept so well hidden； and it was a face of desperate unhappiness； the face of an animal caught in a snare beyond its ability to decipher and render harmless。 Then the muscles began to work； began to writhe under the skin； the mouth began to tremble infirmly； the Adam's apple began to rise and fall。
Her own bewilderment and surprise were overlaid by shock： he was going to cry。
She had seen him cry before； but never since he stopped drinking 。 。 。 and never in those days unless he was very drunk and pathetically remorseful。 He was a tight man； drum…tight； and his loss of control frightened her all over again。
He came toward her； the tears brimming over his lower lids now； his head shaking involuntarily as if in a fruitless effort to ward off this emotional storm； and his chest drew in a convulsive gasp that was expelled in a huge； racking sob。 His feet； clad in Hush Puppies； stumbled over the wreck of the radio and he almost fell into her arms； making her stagger back with his weight。
His breath blew into her face and there was no smell of liquor on it。 Of course not； there was no liquor up here。
〃What's wrong？〃 She held him as best she could。 〃Jack； what is it？〃 But he could do nothing at first but sob； clinging to her； almost crushing the wind from her； his head turning on her shoulder in that helpless； shaking； warding…off gesture。 His sobs were heavy and fierce。 He was shuddering all over； his muscles jerking beneath his plaid shirt and jeans。
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